Depression Support Thread

hayley11

Hey everyone, how is everybody today?

I was having such a good day, not felt upset or nervous, I haven't been out anywhere mind you but still thought I was doing well. And then I got a phone call and it was this really weird noise thing and it just freaked me out, it was like a man doing a really creepy laugh. So I rang my mum because I could feel a panic attack coming on and I wanted her to calm me down, so I was telling her, in tears and she started laughing saying it was her, my brother and my 9 year old neice messing about. Even though I knew it was them and nothing to be scared of, I still had an awful attack and I still haven't calmed down properly and it happened a couple of hours ago.

I know I am overreacting but that's just the way I am at the moment, i'm a total nervous wreck. I text my OH to tell him and he rang me really annoyed because he knows how i'm feeling and he couldn't believe my own family could be so insensitive.

Anyway my OH will be home soon and he always cheers me up a bit so hopefully i'll be okay soon. And I'm going to try and be upbeat and positive tomorrow.

Big hugs to all xx

dawnylou

Well I guess it went ok today. managed not to burst into tears in public at all.
BUT got a horrid shock when work phoned me to let me know my sicknote ran out today!! My doctor must have put wrong date on last one as it is always a Friday when I go to the doctors!
That means I am actually due to work tomorrow 8.30-4.30!!!

I just don't feel up to it at all, and to make matters worse I am getting headaches again.

And my pills run out tomorrow!!

I have a doctors appointment at 9am tomorrow anyway so if I don't get another sicknote then I am going to be late into work for my first day back as well!

Just don't know what to do - I know I have to go back to work some time, people keep saying wait til I feel ready - but will I ever feel ready?
Maybe I just turned really lazy?

hayley11

dawnylou wrote: »

Well I guess it went ok today. managed not to burst into tears in public at all.
BUT got a horrid shock when work phoned me to let me know my sicknote ran out today!! My doctor must have put wrong date on last one as it is always a Friday when I go to the doctors!
That means I am actually due to work tomorrow 8.30-4.30!!!

I just don't feel up to it at all, and to make matters worse I am getting headaches again.

And my pills run out tomorrow!!

I have a doctors appointment at 9am tomorrow anyway so if I don't get another sicknote then I am going to be late into work for my first day back as well!

Just don't know what to do - I know I have to go back to work some time, people keep saying wait til I feel ready - but will I ever feel ready?
Maybe I just turned really lazy?

Hi

I'm not very good at giving at advice but I think I know what you mean, I've been off work for about 7 weeks and i'm due back in Monday and I am absolutely dreading it. I don't even feel better than I did when I first went on the sick, if anything i feel worse because now i'm a total nervous wreck and i'm scared of leaving the house on my own. But work aren't paying me anymore and I can't afford to pay my bills and everything on SSP.

I hope you're okay tomorrow, if you do have to go in

Hayley x

dawnylou

Hi Hayley - I'm so sorry that not only do you have to endure the same feelings as myself but also that you may have to push yourself into doing something you don't feel ready to do!
I am at a complete and utter loss.
I know what will happen if I go to work tomorrow - I will end up back at square one. I know this because I still don't feel right, I still feel overly emotional, I feel I can't control my anger over stupid things!!

I wish I could just be normal! Why can't I be normal?

hayley11

dawnylou wrote: »

Hi Hayley - I'm so sorry that not only do you have to endure the same feelings as myself but also that you may have to push yourself into doing something you don't feel ready to do!
I am at a complete and utter loss.
I know what will happen if I go to work tomorrow - I will end up back at square one. I know this because I still don't feel right, I still feel overly emotional, I feel I can't control my anger over stupid things!!

I wish I could just be normal! Why can't I be normal?

Personally, I don't think there's such a thing as "normal" but I know what you mean, I ask myself that all the time. why can't I get back to normal. I've never been like this, so depressed and unhappy, with no reason to be. I think because I don't know what's causing it, it makes it worse because I can't fix it.

I really feel for you Dawny, it's a horrible situtation to be in, forcing yourself to doing something that you know will just make you feel worse. Perhaps your doctor will suggest something tomorrow? My doctor is totally useless, he wont even suggest anything other than counselling, which might help, but sometimes I feel that he should do more.

Bigs hugs hun x

Tulip

:hello: Everyone

*hugs* to Dawny and to Hannah,hope you are both ok hope you will be ok tomorrow Dawny,that must have come as a big shock to find you have to go into work when you dont feel ready.I have my fingers crossed that your doctor can help you.

I have had a nice bath tonight and washed my hair

I will chat tomorrow

Night! Night! sorry I have missed everyone else,Tiff where do you get the lovely cat pictures from? I take a smartie from the cupboard btw it wasnt Sazzy that took that smartie


love and light,

Katie xxx

Tulip

I ordered Harry Potter the Order of the Phoenix a while back and the figarine arrived yesterday,I am not opening it as I need to ring up Play.com tomorrow to ask will I still get the dvd? I was led to believe that the figarine was £1.99 and the dvd was £8.99 totalling £9.99 but I have conflicting messages on my play.com account and the e-mail order confirmation that was sent to me and until I can sort this out I cant do anything so I feel really :mad: that I hadnt realised this before and what doesnt help is that play.com dont have an e-mail address anymore ether :mad:

sorry needed to get that off my chest before I go to sleep

Hi Saz,hope you are ok

love and light,

Katie xxx

juno

dawnylou wrote: »

Well I guess it went ok today. managed not to burst into tears in public at all.
BUT got a horrid shock when work phoned me to let me know my sicknote ran out today!! My doctor must have put wrong date on last one as it is always a Friday when I go to the doctors!
That means I am actually due to work tomorrow 8.30-4.30!!!

I just don't feel up to it at all, and to make matters worse I am getting headaches again.

And my pills run out tomorrow!!

I have a doctors appointment at 9am tomorrow anyway so if I don't get another sicknote then I am going to be late into work for my first day back as well!

Just don't know what to do - I know I have to go back to work some time, people keep saying wait til I feel ready - but will I ever feel ready?
Maybe I just turned really lazy?

I'm not really great at giving advice, but I know that when
I started my new job it wasn't as bad as I thought. I am only part time though, so it may be different for you.

BigMummaF

I'm first in today? Wow

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that's a first!

One of the offspring has a new gizmo for playing games on-line, so till the novelty wears off in about four days, my visits here will be few & far between:o But I'll still be thinking of you all.....

ILGD if you saw the state of the sea where we go, you'd want protection from several deep sea diving suits & a couple of mini submarines before you went anywhere near the water:rotfl:
ROSE thanks for the tip about the lavender--I love inscence sticks, so may look for some small ones to burn while I listen to Enya too. She has a very haunting quality doesn't she?I also like the pan pipes collections,:rolleyes: so may give them a whirl. May I say it's nice to hear a little positivity about you---I was going to say well done, but it's not entirely what I mean; but I suppose it is cuz you've obviously turned a corner.........ok I'm going......I'll get the p-u-p while I'm in a mood to ramble:rotfl:

Quick Tip:- doctor's certs for a week, cover SEVEN days in the employment world, so if you go on a Fri, it means the following Thurs is the last day of that cert. Plus if you are at the doc, you cannot be reprimanded for being late for work....it's the LAW....but phone your employer to tell them you've an appointment just to be curteous. Because we work for bosses who behave like A-holes, doesn't mean we have to stoop to their level:mad:

OK guys, hope today brings a smile to your face & wishing you Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx

dawnylou

Well it doesn't matter just yet anyway seeing as my doctor not only insists I am not yet ready to return to work, but she has also doubled my dosage.
I always told myself I would never rely upon medication so I feel a failure for having to now after all this time and also then having to have it increased.