Depression Support Thread

Rain_is_Insane

Ty for the support feelinggood

I've lowered my outgoings to the bare minumum thanks to the guys on the DFW boards but it's still a shock trying to make ends meet.

I've been on my anti-d's since march and tried 2 different lots, but all i want to do is sleep.

The drinking is something i struggled with at the start of all this. It was how my mum and OH realised what a mess I was in, i'd just bury myself in the bottom of a bottle to block everything out. I'm pleased with myself for beating that before it went to far but the temptation is always there when your feeling down.

slowlyfading

feelinggood wrote: »

Morning slowlyfading - how are you feeling today? Sorry to hear that you are stressed out, I hope it passes quickly. Have you always had trouble with sleep? I usually sleep okay, but if I'm stressed or upset I just can't drop off.

Its just lately I can't sleep - I think all this dissertation stuff is messing with my head.

Sorry to everyone not mentioned, I can only go and read back so far today, head is too full of rubbish to think clearly and post anything worthwile. I'm a bit low tonight. Self-harmed again last night. I can't seem to get a grip on it.

I'm sorry to hear that you self harmed last night - is it bad? Have you cleaned them? Be careful xx

feelinggood_2

slowlyfading wrote: »

Its just lately I can't sleep - I think all this dissertation stuff is messing with my head.

I'm sorry to hear that you self harmed last night - is it bad? Have you cleaned them? Be careful xx

The cuts are in no way serious, very controlled. Last thing I want is for anyone in real life to find out! Just wish I could get control over this. I hadn't cut for so long, and to be doing it again is a big problem :-/

slowlyfading

feelinggood wrote: »

The cuts are in no way serious, very controlled. Last thing I want is for anyone in real life to find out! Just wish I could get control over this. I hadn't cut for so long, and to be doing it again is a big problem :-/

you can get control, just take it one day at a time. that's what i try and do xx

geminilady

Rain_is_Insane wrote: »

Morning guys...

Well i went back to work last monday, just a little cleaning job to get me back into the swing of things because we are really struggling financially at the moment, but i'm finding it really hard to cope with. I wake up every morning wondering what excuse i can make for not going into work. I'm constantly tired still. My anti-d's don't seem to be doing anything and my desire to start drinking again to blot it all out is rising heavily.

I've spoken to my doctor and he said it was too soon to go back with the extent of my depression, but, i'm falling further and further behind with payments.

My OH seems to be bored of the whole thing now and wants to know why I can't cope, it's hard trying to explain something you can't see with your own eyes.

Leaving this job isn't an option moneywise as the IB i get doesn't cover anything much and they are taking £20 a week off me for an overpayment a few years back. I was in a good job last year so the tax cedits are next to nothing too.

Anyone got any tips on how to deal with keeping myself in work? and not just hiding my head hoping it will all go away? I really do want to stay in the job but dragging myself out of bed each morning is getting harder and harder.

Thanks for reading

Hi ,i do office cleaning myself,i am guessing yours is a couple of hours on a morning?have you thought of looking/changing to an evening job it may be easier on an afternoon than dragging yourself out of bed on a morning.I could NOT do mornings lol not a morning person at all,i work 2-8pm which makes the evenings a lot shorter but much better for me than mornings

feelinggood_2

slowlyfading wrote: »

you can get control, just take it one day at a time. that's what i try and do xx

Its silly really. I can manage to not drink one day at a time. I can manage to not over-eat one day at a time. I can usually manage to not self-harm one day at a time. Just can't seem to do them all!

I think its because I don't have anyone I can talk to about this. I've got people I can talk to about drinking, who understand and listen. I don't know anyone who has ever self-harmed, and its not the sort of thing that people who haven't done it can understand.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

I went to see my church friends and I had a great day today I went at 2pm, and then went to Superdrug where I brought some Dove at £2.99 on a Buy one get one free so I saved £3 on the second bottle I like their Beauty Wash as it makes me smell nice so got in some more while It was on offer

relaxing now for the afternoon


love and light,

Katie xxx

juno

:hello:

I hope everyone is OK. I haven't been around for a while because I've had a crazy few weeks. And I've decided to give up on the NHS and go for private counselling, as the waiting list for the counselling I was referred to by my doctor was over 6 months!

feelinggood_2

juno wrote: »

:hello:

I hope everyone is OK. I haven't been around for a while because I've had a crazy few weeks. And I've decided to give up on the NHS and go for private counselling, as the waiting list for the counselling I was referred to by my doctor was over 6 months!

Hi Juno, nice to see you

Have you had a private counselling session yet, or are you looking for a counsellor? If you are still looking, you can 'find a therapist' at the British Association for Counselling and Psychotherapy here:
http://www.bacp.co.uk/seeking_therapist/index.html

I'm hoping that the pyschiarist will refer me for some sort of therapy when I see him. I'm hoping the waiting lists aren't too long. If they are as bad as I think they'll be, I'll go private. It'll probably take just as long to save up for private sessions though lol.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

well I finally got down to it and made 12 lovely christmas cards this afternoon after I came in from my walk,It was sooooooo cold while out that I didnt want to be out too long in it.My cards are drying off nicely in the kitchen and I will leave them there overnight so that they are thoughly dried out from all that glueing Now I am going to make my tea a sandwich with cheese coleslaw and then a nice lemon cheesecake yoghurt to finish

Have a lovely evening

love and light,

Katie xxx