Depression Support Thread

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Morning! just a quick post before I go off to my Pottery Class for 10am I woke up at 7.50am as the phone rang and it was my Dad checking I was up but I didnt answer it the first time as I was just coming round from my sleep but I rang back when I was ready

Feeling quite nervous about the course this morning and had a few tears but feel better now as I am more awake


Have a nice day everyone and I will chat again this afternoon when I get back,I am having lunch out today after the course and then doing my usual food shop,got the shopping list ready last night so I am organised as I am one of these people who hates leaving anything to the very last minute and I rush like mad


love and light,

Katie xxx

slowlyfading

Tulip, I hope you've had a nice day at your pottery class i hope its gone well, and you're feeling much better about it now. ((HUGS)) xx

slowlyfading

BigMummaF, how are you feeling today? I know what you mean about certain lifestyles, I look at celebrities who are my age and who just hae money to burn, and envy them sometimes. Then I think about how hard it must be to live in the public eye all the time, and that sometimes puts me off wouldn't mind a bit more money to live off each week though! hope you're having a good day. ((HUGS)) x

slowlyfading

:hello: to everyone!
Tiff, you're not around this morning, which seems a little odd. I hope you're okay and having a nice day doing whatever you fancy. ((HUGS))

Sorry I've not been around the past few days. Uni has been so hectic, and I dont know whether I'm going to like being in my third and final year! I have reading lists that are a mile long, then dissertation stuff coming out of my ears, and feel really stressed and arrrgh! I have a seminar at 2PM today which I am absolutely dreading, I'm not sure how that's going to go at all.
On the positive side though, I was sat with a razor yesterday and managed not to hurt myself, which I thought was a big achievement for me :j I really want to stop hurting myself when i get myself into situations, but I know its going to be a long road. I might, and only if I can get the courage up, talk to one of my friends about it this evening. I've known her since last year and she really understands it when I feel down and stuff. So, maybe. I'll let you know how that goes later.
((HUGS)) to all those who want/need one. I hope you're all having a lovely day doing something fun
sf x x

feelinggood_2

I've got another emergency appointment at the doctors this evening.

Thought I might as well try it. I'm going to ask if she can triple my prescription of diazepam, I think that might get me through another week. Seems I can't cope with life without some sort of chemical aid. I miss alcohol though.

Things are very bad here. Circumstances at home are pretty bad, and I'm not sure what to do. Everyone keeps telling me to stay in the moment and not think about the future, but how can I not think about my future when the future has a huge big unknown not too far away?!

I think I self harmed today :-/ Not sure if it counts, it was only a small cut but I suppose that still counts. Well, theres 10 months without cutting down the drain.

Part of me wants to ask them to lock me up when I go to the doctor this afternoon, but that would only make the situation at home even worse.

I've got 4 options, all of which aren't any good. Trying to work out which is the best, but to be honest, I think I'm screwed either way. I may aswell drink now, it'd make the descision making easier.

ilovegreatdanes

hi,
quik call.had to take ds to hosp yesday.wasnt kept in but were there for hours.now waiting for a referral and an ultrasound scan but seems to be on the mend, i hope.
fg.....please try not to drink again.wil only make it all so much worse.please think how much you have acheived and how far you have come.im sso proud of you for stickin with everything, and forget the the little cut as we all make little lapses, so you are allowed the one, ok?
im sorry i cant stay longer but ill be thinking of you and sending loads of positive thoughts to you to drive the demons away.i know its so hard for you but please try.you are very important to me so dont be wandering off anywhere.i will try to catch up as much as i can, as have stuff at home, iykwim.god bless.xx
take care all.
love ilgd xx

Tiff_2

Hi fg!:hello:

quote=feelinggood;I've got another emergency appointment at the doctors this evening.
Thought I might as well try it.
I'm going to ask if she can triple my prescription of diazepam, I think that might get me through another week. Seems I can't cope with life without some sort of chemical aid. I miss alcohol though.
Well done hun.:T
I'd like to make a suggestion feelie. Why not print off your last few posts and show them to the dr?
There'd be no better way of explaining how you're feeling angel. It would give them a good overall picture and then they'd be able to decide what to do about your meds.
It doesn't matter if you need a medicine from a dr to cope with life fg - all that matters is that it helps!

Things are very bad here. Circumstances at home are pretty bad, and I'm not sure what to do. Everyone keeps telling me to stay in the moment and not think about the future, but how can I not think about my future when the future has a huge big unknown not too far away?!
Because fg, while you're fretting about the future - and that's an unknown quantity whether you have mental ill health or not, - you're missing out on your present. And that means you're not going to feel any better, because everything will feel all black.
You need to be thinking about what you can do feel better now - and on staying away from drink.

I think I self harmed today :-/ Not sure if it counts, it was only a small cut but I suppose that still counts. Well, theres 10 months without cutting down the drain.
Part of me wants to ask them to lock me up when I go to the doctor this afternoon, but that would only make the situation at home even worse.
I hear different things here angel. Apart from your mental ill health issues, the problems at home are obviously bringing you down - as it would anyone. Try and keep the issues separate hun. Whatever the problems at home are, they can be sorted out later - you know we're hear to listen.;)
If you feel like you need to be away from it all, that it's making you too ill, tell the dr that hun.

I've got 4 options, all of which aren't any good. Trying to work out which is the best, but to be honest, I think I'm screwed either way. I may aswell drink now, it'd make the descision making easier./quote
No, what you mean is that you can only see 4 options right now - there may be more as we often can't see any more when we're poorly. Also, someone may be able to see you further options when you're feeling a bit better. You're not going to solve everything tonight or even tomorrow angel - you need to concentrate on looking after yourself and on trying to lift your mood now. The rest can be worked on with some longer term planning.
Stay away from the drink fg. It's hard I know but you're doing really well and it won't make anything easier. Tell the dr everything.
Good look with the dr hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

feelinggood_2

Thanks Tiff.

I can't see anything other than the four options. Basically, OH is giving me an ultimatium - get better within 3 months, or he will move us back to where we used to live. He won't listen to my reasons for staying here, so I've done some charts of the pros and cons, so hopefully he'll take that more seriously. I don't think the problems at home can wait - he doesn't seem willing to wait.

I've got no problem being on antidepressants, as they aren't really addictive. I do have a problem taking highly addictive anti-anxiety medication, and I feel bad for having to go back to beg for more when I don't want it but feel like I need it :-/ I need something to get me through though, but is this just as bad as drinking? This doctor can't do anything about my antidepressants - they are all waiting for my pyschiatrist appointment. I'm going to ask to lower my dosage again - I want to get off these as quick as possible so I can start on something new that might work.

I hope they can speed my pyschiartist appointment up.

I just feel so lost/confused/scared and everything :-/

Docs appointment is in 40 minutes or something, but i'm going to go now. Can't drink in the waiting room, so its probably a safe place to be.

I feel so very, very alone at the moment, so you've no idea how much a friendly post helps.

Thanks

Tiff_2

Hi ilgd!:hello:
How are you angel?

quote=ilovegreatdanes;
hi,
quik call.had to take ds to hosp yesday.wasnt kept in but were there for hours.now waiting for a referral and an ultrasound scan but seems to be on the mend, i hope.
take care all.
love ilgd xx[/quote]

I'm so sorry to hear about ds angel. I'll keep you both in my thoughts and I hope everything goes well. Keep us posted hunnie. Blue smarties on standby.;)
That was a lovely reply you posted to feelie, angel. :T
Just you concentrate on what you need to hun - we all look out for each other on here so don't you go fretting!
Thinking of you sweetie.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi fg!:hello:
That's ok hun.

I know you're in a rush so these are bulletpoints...

- Having to wean yourself off anxiety meds is hard enough, you don't want the drink problem as well.

- no, it isn't as bad as drinking hun. That is being monitored by a medical professional whereas with drinking, it's just you & the bottle.

- The problems with OH are timetabled at 3 months you say. That means you can leave it alone for the weekend. You need to be in a clearer frame of mind. You still have that time to work with feelie.

- I know it's easier said than done angel but you have to prioritise your problems hun - it's like trying to throw all your shopping in one carrier bag.

- You're under a lot of pressure fg - I hear that. You're going so fast, you're chasing your own tail. You did well saying that you'll go & sit in the waiting room to avoid drinking - that's smart talk feelie!
Just slow everything down hunnie ok? The rest can be worked on slowly - and yes, I do know it's hard hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx