Depression Support Thread

andipandi_2

geminilady

gillette147 wrote: »

No-one about?

Feel down at mo.
I ended it with g/f. We are talking on msn and she is upset and saying she loves me - which is hard to hear. I don't want to hurt her and don't want to fall out. This ending it without hating the other person is new to me. We are in different places and want different things. That doesn't make me angry - it's just a shame. It's not healthy for me to be in a relationship with her because of that. It's not good for my esteem to be in a half-relationship. It was making me bicker with her and I decided to end it rather than let it get ugly. But now I'm alone.

Life just doesn't feel real. I feel tired and numb all the time. Feel very alone. Being out of work leaves you permanently unsettled. I havent been off my land (i.e. been in house or garden) since I got back from brum on thursday. I'm lazy and don't want to make the effort to go anywhere or do anything and yet also life feels empty and without interest.

My arms ache all the time. The pain is like an anger, if that makes any sense. Maybe that's the feeling self-harmers get and harm to relieve. I wouldn't know. But I've had the sensation for over a month.

Always tired but don't want to sleep. Haven't had a hug for 6 weeks and not likely to get one anymore.

Wondering what the point of life is. Dragging along really.
This is a cheery post for you all to wake up to....

xxx

Hi Gillette,Sorry you are so down at the moment.Breaking up with someone never helps whatever the reason or who does the breaking up.Just wondered if you are sure you both want differant things?meaning do you really talk together?.She says she loves you and that has got to mean something but maybe your feelings are not so deep?.If you really do want differant things then i can understand why you broke up,as you say better sooner than later.
You say you havn't had a hug for six weeks,well i have not had one for years,try imagining that,but i am still here and still have the hope that maybe,just maybe there is someone out there for me.
Try and go out of the house for a walk,exersise has been proved to lift the spirits and you should make the most of the weather as winter will come soon enough.

geminilady

andipandi wrote: »

Hi Andi,looks like you are in a bad place at the moment,hang in there and keep fighting((((hug))))

queensway_boy

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andipandi_2

this is my worst low feelings day in ages,i used to feel like this everyday till 18 months ago,i'm not used to it but i'm not fighting it,perhaps it a test of my resolve or something

gillette147

Thanx for the kind replies.
I don't like being diagnosed as a depressive. That just feels like an extra thing to deal with. I'd rather just soldier on like I always have. I know Tiff will slap me but I can't go back to the drs.

I'm so moody. A bit of good news and I would be fine. I flip flop between ok and depressed so easily.

G/f isn't the caring kind. Her idea of love is more like distant admiration. But she was never sympathetic to any problem I had. Get a job...snap out of it sort of person. That's partly why I have ended it.

Life just seems like an unanswerable question. I'm going to Cornwall one day, getting in lodgers the next. But no answer seems right or achieveable. But to do nothing is the path to disaster. Groan......

Love to you all.
I'm just blowing off steam really (steam rally). The one thing that counselling showed me is that I find it very, very hard to listen to anyone else's view once I feel I have my viewpoint. So don't waste time giving me advice coz I won't be able to take it. Sorry xxx

BTW More and more worried about Ethel.

Tiff_2

Hi guys!:hello:
Well, you were warned...
May I suggest that small animals, people of a nervous disposition and all young children be removed from the immediate area before viewing the following?!

Here are a couple of photos from Tiff's brother's wedding - serves you right for asking!!!:eek: :rotfl:





The above two were outside the church...



The above at the reception...





The above is my lovely Mum and I at the reception...

No blue smarties for anyone if I hear the sound of darts being thrown!!!:D
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tao81

andipandi wrote: »

Oh! Andipandi I wish I could take away your pain , but I know I'm powerless to do that, which hurts!...... I recognise exactly where you are sweetheart (...hope that doesn't cause offence?).
Found this poster icon on the internet quite a while ago and boy did it impact on me too?!!.....Says it ALL, doesn't it?!
It really does feel this bad when deep depression has you in it's vice like grip. Just keep posting to us when you feel you can. We are all listening compassionately and keeping you very close to our hearts, because many of us have been there, personally on more than one occasion, and we know just how weak you are feeling at the moment.

queensway_boy is so generous with his hugs I'm sure you must be feeling a little bit of the love and care coming through.......'cos all of us on here are standing right in line behind him with the same sentiments I'm sure! If I had icons as lovely as his to send I'd be as gushing with them towards you too. People really do genuinely care and queensway_boy has so effectively communicated this brilliantly with his lovely post.

You WILL get through this and feel the relief of coming out the other side. Just be gentle with yourself, you are a very special soul and deserve to be here.
Sending a BIG heartfelt Hug. Praying these dreadful feelings lift soon, you are very strong and it's good that you are reaching out, it demonstrates that deep down you feel worthy of love and support, just don't lose sight of that for now. Although I don't know you personally I'm sending you all my love because although I can't hug you personally, I can with my heart....Hope that helps a little.

Never fear shadows.... that always means there is a light shining somewhere.
- Jonathan Santos

Love and light
Jane xx

ilovegreatdanes

hi all,
am here in spirit.will catch you all soon.(just read about 8 pages!!!)
take care,
love ilgd xx

*zippy*

Afternoon :hello:

Tao lovely to have you join us For smilies I use this site

http://www.freesmileys.org/free-animated-smileys.php

SF hope you are feeling better today hun.

Gillette and andi hugs to you both, sorry things are so difficult at the moment.

Tiff, great pics, thank you for sharing them, you look so lovely.

zippy x