The Trials & Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

lisawood78

Well having OH home (11pm last night after not seeing him for 10 days) and a heavy pre EC sedative has made me feel tiniest bit better but more human. Back and ribs are in agony (from being sick I suppose) and my sciatica has raised it's ugly head, I'm very very weak but can at least move about without almost collapsing.
Got
More meds to take at 7.30 then some more at 9am when we leave for the clinic. Hopefully will be asleep by the time we arrive and yeh rest of the day will pass in a pleasant blur. Just me then?!? I can but dream.
I run a small eBay business and yesterday and last night I sold 6 items all of which need packing up and sending today to keep up my business's standards. Customers!!
Ha ha.
We have a slot booked in the embryoscope for our precious cargo this time. We've been taking guessed between us on egg amounts verses follicles, we have about 10 follies so I say 9eggs, hubby says 12 eggs. Any further guesses?!?
Will try to get on and let you know as soon as I can ladies
LA hope today's scan shows you ready for EC don't leave me in the 2ww alone!! How's everyone else getting on? x

tea_lover

Hi lisa, glad to hear you're feeling a bit better this morning. Have everything crossed that the sedatives do their job and the day is a distant dream for you :rotfl:. We're going to be using embryoscope too... I was v excited to find out they can give you a film to watch of your embies! Hope it all goes well today and you get a great 'harvest'. Take care xx.

LA - fingers crossed for your scan too. Hopefully those follies have got the hang of things now.... there's probably about 30 now :rotfl:.

Big friday hugs to everyone else too

Part_Mouse

Lisa and la I've got everything crossed for you for today.

frozenpenguin

Good luck lisa and la today! Let us know how you both get on xx

Star - how you getting on? Hope you're okay, the time between EC and ET is a real rollercoaster I know xx

Hugs to everyone xx

Wonder_Woman

Good luck today ladies, thinking of you both and hoping this is it for you.

So fed up of it all at the moment, just can't get motivated about anything. Was tempted to just stop taking the meds. It's so hard being stuck in limbo isn't it and you can't make any plans or decisions not knowing what will happen. I hate that our whole lives are effectively 'paused' while everyone else moves on. Sorry to moan and bring the thread down but no one else gets it.

Friday hugs to everyone xxx

tea_lover

Totally, totally know what you mean WW. Feel like this is all I've been doing for years, and with absolutely nothing to show for it. I can't plan anything and it's driving me mad. I've been trying to fit work appointments into my diary for April for the last 2 days and I have to keep adding up when scans might be, when EC might be, when ET might be, how much time I might need off if I'm ill again... then working it all out again based on if AF appears on a different day... and again, and again. And for what? Another month or so of evil drugs, feeling like c.rap, spending thousands, bickering with OH about every little thing.

Am also getting more and more annoyed that my parents have said absolutely nothing to me. I said to them in October last year that we were trying again, and the drugs were delivered to their house in Jan. They've not said a word, not asked how it went, asked if it's started, asked how I am. Nothing. We're a really small, close family and spend a lot of time together so it's really p'ing me off that they seem to not care. Much as it pees me off that they've not mentioned the m/c since it happened. I got a text from my Dad that day and not a word since. The more I think about it the more I'm really angry with them.

Phew..... unexpected rant over! As you were ladies

Wonder_Woman

Tea, I know, trying to fit it all around work is just yet another stress isn't it? Its exhausting. I desperately want to leave my job and am torn between feeling it would be foolish to move now 'just in case' this cycle works and feeling it would be foolish not to as when the disappointment comes again I will be stuck in a job that I hate going nowhere. I know it sounds dramtic after two cycles but I don't know how much more of this I can take and stay sane but equally how do you ever make the decision to give up?


Do you think perhaps your family are worried about upsetting you? I know my mum does that - she won't bring the subject up unless we do as she always worries we won't want to talk about it or will get upset. I used to think she didn't care but I've gotten used to her now :rotfl: My dad has still barely said a word about it to us as he's not the talking about feelings type and although we are close he gets embarrassed :rotfl: Families are weird hey?

Loveactually

Well had my scan today follies are growing well now a couple at 15mm , three at 11-12 mm and some in range of 7 - 9mm

so EC has been moved to Wednesday. One more scan on Monday feeling much positive after what happened on Monday this week.

Lisa - happy that you are feeling a bit better wish that everything goes well for you today. I will guess that you will get 12 eggs and 12 embryos what say.

Tea- how are feeling now on noswhatever its time to wear to egg suit and do the egg dance.

PM - I wish the hormones will work as they are supposed to this time and to get your funding soon

WW - it does feel like its a long journey , just need to keep positive thinking about the outcome it may bring us if everything goes well.

Star - all the best for ET.

Hugs to all.

tea_lover

LA - that's great news, by Monday's scan you'll have more follies than you know what to do with :rotfl:.

Wonder_Woman wrote: »

Do you think perhaps your family are worried about upsetting you? I know my mum does that - she won't bring the subject up unless we do as she always worries we won't want to talk about it or will get upset. I used to think she didn't care but I've gotten used to her now :rotfl: My dad has still barely said a word about it to us as he's not the talking about feelings type and although we are close he gets embarrassed :rotfl: Families are weird hey?

I think you're spot on. I know that my parents adore me, I know that they're heartbroken for me about all of this, I know that they're probably not saying anything as they don't want to upset me. I know all that, rationally. But sometimes you just want someone else to show that they've even remembered, if that makes sense.

Oh well.... will think happy friday thoughts

Part_Mouse

LA great news, I hope mons scan brings even better news.

Ww and Tea hugs to you both, my mums the same hardly says a word in fact she told me that chances of sucess were so small we might as well stop.

Still nothing from my complaint so guess it will be next week at the earliest.