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Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

I burned things today. Paper mostly! Very therapeutic

I used to rip it up and mix it with the cat litter (economical and I dare even the most determined identity thief to put it back together again).

I am envious of your progress but doing what I can (little by little, inch by inch). Yesterday I cleared the final bit of yard from the layer of moss, soil and self seeded plants acquired when DS2 was renting it from me. Next year I can start to get the things I want in place.

Today I have been to the 'up for sale house'. Cut back shrubs and weeded (lots more to do), dragged the man doing up the house next door round for a viewing (he knows a couple of people who are on the look out for property and mine could be 'improved further'). He also agreed to cut back a troublesome plant on his property (did my best when troublesome neighbours were there). It should make the plant a lot healthier (air will circulate round the roots). I have brought back 2 small kitchen cupboards (were in the shed, going under the stairs for tools etc until I am able/ can afford a better solution), a sack each of weeds and rubbish and 5 bunches of lavender I cut two weeks ago (again lots more to do) on my faithful dolly truck. Not difficult but I was walking so slowly. I have several plants in large tubs to bring back but think that will be another day.

I will not be living with my mother. She has seen a small (teeny tiny) bungalow and her partner has agreed to move (his Alzheimer's has progressed, he mostly behaves like a six year old boy and spent most of the time on my last visit waiting for 'someone who is coming to take us home'. Apart from not having stairs, the bungalow does not meet any of the criteria I have slowly negotiated with my mother over the past two years (mainly access to hospitals, doctors and supermarkets) so I consider our agreement broken. It is both a great relief - I love my mother but am not sure she loves me (definitely doesn't understand or listen most of the time) but also (trying to be adult and not over-react, one of us has to be) it feels like a further rejection, as she will be moving further away when I am struggling to walk to where she is now. She still has to wait for the sale of my house to go through, to access funds.

It does mean that the declutter of her partner's house needs to happen now - not sure she is on board with this or is tackling it the right way (she has bought a couple of new pieces of furniture :eek: when she needs to lose 3 - 4 rooms worth). I will try to start talking things through when I have recovered from Friday's visit.

However a million congratulations on all your hard work, it must be so satisfying. I need to get rid of some things even if I end up storing things in cardboard boxes. Starting to get the 'surrounded by dead people's stuff' vibe - I have family members who insist that x, y or z must be kept in the family and then it turns out that it should be kept at my house not the one doing the insisting.:rotfl:have to keep laughing, crying isn't going to do any good.

Sun_Addict

Great work on the decluttering front Buffy! Laughed about the wrong knickers - bet they're comfy though

Buffythedebtslayer

hello

been flat out busy at work but is so much better time wise without the tuition in the evenings. There is a vague possibility that this year may be ok. I am not directly managed by the person who managed me last year so my preparation has been way more straightforward.

Sorry quote of the day from Murder She Wrote " You have to hold off the National Guard, I think I know who the murderer is"

I love that programme!

It is still difficult to work at work. Other members of the department are..........having difficulties. It is hard to watch and makes me mindful of how quickly these things can happen. I have to be above and beyond better, which of course just makes the others look worse. And they aren't doing anything terrible just not doing it as obsessively perfectly as the management want.

Part of me wants to keep my head down and get on with it. Another part of me still riles up against the unfairness of it all and the bs on supporting..........which is only there if you do every single thing they want 100% of the time.

However, it is the nature of working in education. And sadly when people can't cope schools make them leave. Usually in horrible stressful circumstances. And people can't cope because the job is ridiculous and unreasonable.

This year I am underpromising and over delivering. I am not committing to anything extra or volunteering at work. I am also making only token use of the shiny shiny gimmicks they are promoting so heavily at the moment. Exams are still written down for my subject and do not involve paper plates...........

that small rant over with money wise stuff is a bit crap. I am skinty mc skint.

Cocktails tonight and hair this afternoon. and after that being a hermit for the rest of the month.

Today I want to drop off the rest of the charity stuff and then spend some time this afternoon shredding! before meeting my best friend for the cocktails.

Should really get dressed.........:)

xx

amber03

Hi buffy I'm with you 100% about not doing more than you should this year I had a good talking to myself and as somebody who was always volunteering or being volunteered to do extra, I have decided to take a back seat. Just keep a smile on your face.


On being skint....who needs money anyway and for being a hermit, sounds perfect to me.


Enjoy your cocktails.x

Buffythedebtslayer

Thanks Amber XX

Work is being a special kind of hell. I am ok.......skint - got 190 left in the bank. 60 a week .........:) It is fine really I just prefer more of a buffer. Plus despite me thinking I have been paying off the CC as I go I really haven't.

oops. were I not so hideously tired I might be worried.

XX

Buffythedebtslayer

As of today I have credit card debt of 470 pounds.

I had to buy shoes (my one half decent two year old pair broke) and ok I didn't need 3 pairs but actually I am sick of having New look shoes that are uncomfortable so I splashed out 152 on 3 pairs from Hotter (flats, heels and mary janes) plus a new skirt. Was ruthless with my clothes re Kming and run out of work stuff this week! so it is a need. I am returning a cardigan (weird buttons) but need decent cardigans so that won't be a saving for long.

Also bought a coat from George - £25, but again the last one I bought as was 25 one from New look 3 years ago (!) , which I can still wear it is not a ridiculous thing to spend money on. And I bought some casual clothes on fatface, but one top works for work and one dress is going back.

I do need boots having either binned or donated mine as they date from the days I wore heels all the time.

I have bought a couple of Christmas presents and for me all my make up and beauty stuff run out, so that was about 80 quid - yes I know! but it is once a year so I am ok with that.

I am skint to a point but do have 800 pounds of my emergency fund so am fine really.

Work is tough, but I expected that. I am trying to make plans with my friends - am off next weekend to see a tribute band and then I am shopping (!) with my best mate and hopefully some plans with other mates from work.

My oldest friends have almost completely drifted away, makes me so unhappy. But I think flogging a dead horse is the theme here. They don't write back when I message and there is no effort on their part. As they both have kids they get together fairly often so I am surplus.

I have to focus on my actual friends. The ones who want to see me.

Love to everyone

XXXXX

Buffythedebtslayer

Am considering banning myself from Amazon.

I have been subscribing from them at over 60 quid every two months! Not money saving at all. I have cut it down now to 48 quid every two months. The hay I was buying from there is rubbish frankly! I might be able to stretch to three months (it is all pet stuff by the way - bulk buy dog treats, rabbit and guinea pig food, puppy pads for the rabbits and guinea pigs

And aside from good Christmas presents and food am going to have a no spend October.

I think for peace of mind I might pay the CC with my emergency fund? Not sure. And then try to make the money back next month.

XX

Buffythedebtslayer

Jeremy Cobyn won! Hiliarious! and Brilliant!

Got to love democracy

At least now we have a proper opposition and bit more balance.

in_need_of_direction

And his new deputy seems quite sound!

Buffythedebtslayer

week finished with a migraine and me being ill all weekend due to my monthly visitor.

back killing me, built new bed (v nice) owning so much crap is truly getting me down. And I don't like work at all.

SO stomach cramps have started earnest. off to bed.

or more accurately to sit and rock.

XX