Oh come on! Stake through the heart. A little sunlight. It's like falling off a log"

mothernerd

Time for bed, said Zebedee. You've been ill Buffy, treat yourself kindly.

lulabelle

Yeah bufster. Sleep is key: enjoy x

beanielou

Keep plodding~~and rest xx

in_need_of_direction

And tomorrow you'll be
Alive, awake, alert, enthusiastic.

Buffythedebtslayer

thanks everyone XX


Typically as it is with my pets one of the piggies is ill. I think she will be ok tonight so Mum (THANK GOD) is taking her to the vets tomorrow.


It is a bit scary. But I would rather go to my vet than the emergency one.


so yeah. list mostly done. Hamster neglected. fish very neglected. will spend the rest night staring at guinea pigs.


night all XX

Buffythedebtslayer

Went to work yesterday. Got completely stressed out. Ended up coming home being sick four times! and getting a migraine.


phoned in sick for work at 2.30 in the morning, when I had woken up due to the immense pain I was in.


I don't say this for sympathy I say this for a reminder. For me. To put on it record.


I did virtually the identical thing this time last year. (and probably the year before too, but lets not go there)


had a migraine so bad I thought I would die. It isn't the school I am in. It is the way I work. And I say things like I can't go on like this and this is no way to live.


And yet here I am again.


blinding headache, couldn't focus on anything. In so much pain.


And it is all self inflicted.


I don't have an answer. I actually don't know what question I am asking. but thanks to this diary I am acutely aware of what a utter bloody waste of time my life is.


when Theroux say quiet desperation he was not kidding.

Buffythedebtslayer

Right so had some more sleep, feel a little better. not much bit a little.


head is still killing me. But can type at least.


http://www.newhealthguide.org/Pain-In-The-Right-Side-Of-Head.html


The link above describes my migraines perfectly. I get all the symptoms.


So, the flu virus what ever the hell it was that has been lingering for the last three weeks and this migraine have floored me.


My 100 days till the election plan is sort of in place. stalled by being ill and work.


The re reading of this diary has shown me that priority number one is the cleaning of the house.


I can't be doing with the phrase decluttering, I must clean and reorganise. Deep clean. get rid of the !!!!!.


It will make such a massive difference to my life. To my ability to do my job (not had a desk for a year for !!!!!!) and look after my pets.


I honestly do not understand why I haven't tackled my room before. I have done the conservatory countless times and the spare room twice, I think I have tried to do the house at the expense of my room. Which is ridiculous! And if I have "done" my room it hasn't been successful.


Plus so much of my time is spent downstairs that my room is a dumping ground. Even if I keep it tidy I end up shoving stuff up there. It is no way to live.


and it is certainly not a place to be ill in.


XX

in_need_of_direction

I disagree hon. The most important thing is your health. If sorting out your room will help that, go for it but not he'll for leather. You need to take care.

Sun_Addict

I agree with INOD. Unless the clutter is so bad it's making you ill, you need to put your health first and concentrate on getting better. I really hope you start to perk up soon x

please-let-me-be-lucky

Sorry to hear you have been poorly, hope today has been better Xx