Oh come on! Stake through the heart. A little sunlight. It's like falling off a log"

Sun_Addict

Hi buffy - hope you're feeling a bit more positive today. Start focusing on the future. Hatch a plan!

Buffythedebtslayer

I think I just wanted to get out there so I know where I am if you see what I mean. The one thing I like about this place is you can do that, get !!!! off your chest. Reading on the Frugal Challenge (it's great there by the way) I was thinking about emotional eating and spending. I do that too. Is causing havoc with my skin.


It is shows me that I do feel better, the depression is still there but I know I am coming out of it.


It is so interesting how it distorts everything tho.


xx

Buffythedebtslayer

In other news,


I still have money in the bank. A grand total of 85 pounds! which should be ok for petrol and food next week.


Am watching a programme One year to save my life, A woman called Liz who weighed 34 stone.


Her husband is very cynical and she is on a farm so isolated that she has to drive to get the internet connection. Being a city girl my entire life I find this VERY scary


Anyhow Liz is doing very well. Lost six stone is in four months. bless her. I get so involved in these programmes! She is doing ten mile walks. TEN miles.


she cries. which I am also doing! I really want her to lose the bloody weight!


seriously am so easy to distract!


I am debating whether or not to paint my room this weekend.


I have a LOT of work to do from school. Emptying my room and moving the furniture......that would take a lot of time. I wonder if I would be better doing all my work and slowly clearing my room out next week? paint the end of the week. It is the sensible thing to do.


It would be nice to have all the work done. clear the decks. And then start afresh next weekend with my room.


bah hate being a grown up! but will be sensible and catch up. That way next weekend I can do it with a clear conscience and I will have been paid so can also sort out money also.




If none of my posts make sense it is cos I am house training one of the dogs and I keep having to get up to let him out.


I think I need another gate....


xxx

please-let-me-be-lucky

Doing the work from school this weekend and painting next weekend seems the right way forward.

Did she lose the weight in the end??!! Xx

JustAboutThere

I think I saw that episode - from memory, she had a 'blip' in the middle of the program and slid back. I think she got it together by the end of the time.

Continue plodding on Buffy. You can do it. Sorry I haven't had time to comment on something you said upthread re: colleagues and hating children. But its their attitude that stinks - they shouldn't be in a job with children if that's how they feel. You are the right one in believing its important. You shouldn't be made to feel bad for trying to achieve.

Buffythedebtslayer

Evening.


am in my dressing gown. Aunt Flo is visiting a week early! that is what has made me so tired this week. I have literally napped every evening, which sounds lovely I know but this is not the curled up on a cosy blanket nap this is haven't taken my coat off slump on the sofa (Tuesday - nearly missed work) bent my glasses Wednesday and nearly missed going to the theatre with my friend on Thursday - I wanted to sob I was so tired. Tonight I wanted to nap - with a blanket but the dogs wouldn't let me - they whine and bark and eventually jump on me. in the end I meanly put them in the crate - they whined but I slept through it - only for an hour. I don't feel better for it. stupid period.


Today I awoke to a flat tyre - not that I noticed, I drove round the block first - AWFUL noise drove it home. Borrowed Mum's car THANK GOD.


have to "find the money" for a new tyre cos I drove on it.


But truthfully not the end of the world. I borrowed Mum's car, got to work a little late - had a hell of day but then realised why and its Friday so who cares. I was home in a few hours.


am hungry which is annoying.


XXXX

Wol2

De-lurking - sending you lots of Piggie kisses Hun xxx

Sorry Buffy, would like to be on here more often but still trying to get my own stuff together before coming back properly and "regular-like" to DFW

Stay strong......and breathe!

whheeekk wheeek

xxxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Hello Wol:)


just come back there is no perfect time, real life is regularly a total pain in the !!!!!


Well, I woke up early as my fab mechanic was coming over to fix my tyre.


am watching Big Bang theory so funny.


Now....do I


a) go shopping.
b) take dogs to forest
c) continue watching Big bang theory and have a nice breakfast.


It is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good to be able to choose.


I think it will be shopping.....ugh. get it over with. shopping on a Saturday.


come back and have a nice lunch instead.


xxxx

in_need_of_direction

Hi Buffy. Have noticed your posts on other threads so thought I'd drop in on your diary. From the support and Jhelum you give others, I'd never have thought you were suffering with the dreaded depression. I've been dealing with it for years off and on. The best suggestion that was ever made to me is to step outside yourself when you hit the pit and ask, if you were looking at someone else, what would you opinion or advice be. Basically, one theory is that those who suffer with depression are harder on themselves than on anyone else. Sometimes you just need to step back, be more objective and breathe before taking the next step. I'm subscribing as I think you're doing great and can't wait to see what you achieve next!

WantToBeSE

Buffy, I vote you do B followed by C.
I hate shopping, so I say no to that