Less than 12 weeks pregnant club! Part 4!!

mouthscradle

Thanks ladies. I know I'm a plonker for googling. I always resist and I manage for a few hours but then I cave and have a good search haha.

Firey yes its the same sort that you had, from where the egg came from. Some people it fills with blood or fluid and that's what forms the cyst. Normally it's symptomless and shrinks of its own accord. But rarely it can rupture, which can be bad both because of the fluid or bleeding, and because in early pregnancy you need the progesterone from the CL to sustain the pregnancy. I'm just worried because the cyst is on the side where my throbbing pain is coming from after the bad cramps subside. So I'm terrified the thing is going to pop when the cramps are strong! Completely neurotic, I know. I'm not like this normally haha.

boat_girl

Morning all, thanks for the kind thoughts the last few days. We are going to try and forget about everything (impossible I know) until next Thursday, take the test and go from there. I had some bleeding on Thursday night so wondered if something was starting but that has gone now. It sounds horrible but if the baby is a sick as they believe I kind of hope the decision is taken from my hands as I think I will find the guilt very hard to live with but bringing a baby into the world that is very ill, potentially in pain with a limited life expectancy will be just as hard. I wish I could just see a few months into the future so we could prepare ourselves.

I hope you are all OK and enjoying the Easter break xx

lilmissreading

*delurking* boatgirl - doesn't sound horrible. Sounds entirely understandable. I would far rather have this kind of decision made for me.

I admire you for taking it one day at a time. Hope you can enjoy Easter and really good luck for Thursday. We'll all be thinking of you and sending good thoughts.

tinkwings

boatgirl - I think you are being very honest & a lot of us would 100% agree with how you feel.
All you can do is take one day at a time and deal with situations when you know the facts for sure.
Much love Happy Easter Ladies xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

alioops78

Boat girl I think that sounds like the best way of looking at things and I would hope that if I was in the situation I would be able to do the same. I really hope that you and your OH are able to enjoy the easter break and that you get the answers that you need quickly.

monty-doggy

Hello all. I've had work hounding me today. Why are you off sick you must tell us what is wrong, how long will you be off for etc.
My line manager didn't call me she got someone junior to me to do it and I told her it's personal I can't discuss it but I've called hr. She then started asking if it was pregnancy related as my manager needs to know, at this point I got upset and simply said to an extent yes- after all I can't cope with the bullying and stress, she proceeded to add is the baby ok! What the hell has it got to do with her when I've twice said I don't want to discuss it and the girl quizzing me on the phone is part of the bullying!

I'm so bloody angry!

boat_girl

thanks tink, it is so much easier to be honest with people who don't really know you though isn't it. I think if we make the decision to end it then we will tell anybody we need to tell the baby was miscarried as I really don't think I can cope with the judgement from people.

Monty, your work sound dreadful I really feel for you. Are you able to get a long term sick note from your doctors? It would be harder for them to dismiss you then.

monty-doggy

I plan to get a sick note this week, my doctor knows what's been going on and has suggested not going back. I'll stay off sick and put in a grievance, and as the outcome I'm going to ask them to terminate my contract by mutual decision but pay me a months notice.
My lovely oh is adamant I'm not going to work the rest of my pregnancy, I'm high risk enough and he wants me to relax.

I think you are making the right choice boat girl, I'd probably be exactly the same. Don't ever worry about what ifs, I think you are incredibly brave and I'll be thinking of you xxx

mouthscradle

Boat girl I really admire the way you're dealing with your news. And I really don't think anyone would blame you for saying that you'd miscarried. Just make sure that the right people know so that you get the support you need.

Good luck getting your sick note monty. If it were me I'd probably stay sick for as long as possible just to spite them. Will you get sick pay? I'd stop answering the phone to them too. They really shouldn't be calling you asking personal questions.

AFM I went for my repeat bloods yesterday. All is well, HCG rate more than doubled from 901 to over 2000 in just under 48 hours so doctor phoned from the hospital last night and said she was really happy with that. Booked me a repeat scan for Friday, so will hopefully be able to see where the baby is, or at least the sac, and rule out ectopic. Been kept awake all night by pain and still got it now grrr.

monty-doggy

No I won't get sick pay but I'll get ssp.
I don't plan on making it easy for them but I also don't need the stress. I'm very fortunate to have family who won't let us go without.

I feel very lucky I'm blessed with such kind relatives and in laws.