Buffy's Mini diary

Buffythedebtslayer

Tall Blonde and Loyal


ok - will do a search


today has gone slowly but things are looking good!


we are rearranging the house basically! but am going for a day out tomorrow so have to leave the conservatory (of doom) till Monday, which means my room, my wrapping and general Christmas stuff - was hoping to do some baking may not happen!


we shall see..........the tree isn't up yet!!

Sun_Addict

Hi Buffy - catching up with your diary. Hope you have a good Christmas and maybe 2014 will bring a nice new man your way. Fingers crossed!

Jonesy88

Just de-lurking to say sorry to hear about your guinea pig Buffy.

Seeing as i'm here i might as well say aswell:
-I also have a chippy tea too often
-I also feel a bit isolated from one of my oldest friend groups from uni. Although mine is due to friends girlfriend. I just dont think she likes me.
-I love a good list.

And, finally, seeing as you don't have your tree up yet...

:xmastree:

beanielou

Buffy~I am not putting my tree up.
CBA is all.

Buffythedebtslayer

Morning

Sun_Addict wrote: »

Hi Buffy - catching up with your diary. Hope you have a good Christmas and maybe 2014 will bring a nice new man your way. Fingers crossed!

I do hope so. Christmas prep is falling down quite badly at the moment!

Jonesy88 wrote: »

Just de-lurking to say sorry to hear about your guinea pig Buffy.

Seeing as i'm here i might as well say aswell:
-I also have a chippy tea too often
-I also feel a bit isolated from one of my oldest friend groups from uni. Although mine is due to friends girlfriend. I just dont think she likes me.
-I love a good list.

And, finally, seeing as you don't have your tree up yet...

:xmastree:

Thank you Jonesy, I am getting together with them after Christmas. Not looking forward to it at all. just think it will be them talking about their kids (who are LOVELY) and me having nothing to add to the conversation. Still one day their kids will grow up and we might have more in common or at least be able to see each other. It is funny you should say that about the girlfriend, I am convinced one of their husband's hates me. Never makes me feel welcome.


thank you for the tree!

beanielou wrote: »

Buffy~I am not putting my tree up.
CBA is all.

Beanie if I could make the smilies work I would give you one!


am going to aim for it going up today.


but have over slept. !!!!!!!


need to go out to three places today and am rapidly running out of time. Came on to up date satnav as it keeps freezing......still not up dating.


must go before it makes everything crash!


Have a lovely day if you are reading this XXX

please-let-me-be-lucky

Merry Christmas Buffles Xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Thanks PLMBL. xx


Well the last couple of days have been emotional. I have tried very hard to stay positive, to be thankful for what I have- on the whole I have managed it, but it has been a bit tough. It's ok though, I got through, did genuinely enjoy some points, got some lovely presents, gave some lovely gifts - I have to show off here and say I did give some very good gifts! so there are positives. The food was good. Hey we have electricity, Doctor Who was great. So on the whole - good.
I am however disappointed in myself. In a very serious way.

There is a person I want to be, it isn't the girl typing now. I suppose in some ways it is but not fully. As I have alluded to before I need to make some decisions and make my life work. Get the things I want. In fact get the things I need.

I am tired so will sleep on my ideas.


hope everyone reading this has had a lovely day big hugs if not and big hugs anyway


XXXXX

urg123

Big hugs back - sounds like you need them. Sleep well.
urg x x

Buffythedebtslayer

Still awake, hello Urg xxx


thanks for the hugs. Seem to have indigestion! lovely eh! drinking peppermint tea and then heading back to bed.


checked my bank account.......ha ha. No, it is not that bad


(watching would I lie to you - Lee Mack is so funny!)


I have forty quid cash. about 70 quid in my account, 46 of which is a minimum payment for the CC (30th Dec)


Then I have my Dec pay plus I think Mum owes me 100.


so am ok. I did have to use the CC - 150 quid on last minute stuff. and I may have er.....gone to IKEA


ahem moving on.


January is going to be tight but I have plans! Mums goes away about half way through. That is making me nervous. I want the freedom but am afraid of the lonely ness.


any lots to think about but money is ok.


night all XXXX

please-let-me-be-lucky

Hope you managed some sleep and feel better today. Sleep is always good for gaining perspective!

Only you know what needs to change and how. If it's possible, do it. If it's not, try not to fret over it (easy said than done with depression I know). We will all be here to keep you company while your Mum is away Xx