Here we go again. LBM number a million

millionaire_in_training

Thanks PLMBL DS supplied hugs earlier as well when there were tears. My poor pal's Dad doesn't seem to be getting an easy end to his journey and it's all very distressing. Tbh though I'm just thankful it's not my drama for a change.

Lentil soup made and it's lush. Pea and Ham soup made, just need to wait till it cools down so I can blitz it. Looks minging but I'm sure it will taste good. I got the peas I used for nothing anyway from one of the houses I clean. Just been offered 2 short 2hr shifts for cleaning as guests want their own cleaner. So that'll be another £44 in my hand in January smashing. Potentially £244 this month from job no 3 alone and £90 or so from job number 2. I just wish some of it would hit my account :rotfl:so I can make a payment.

Been cleaning like a trooper today but got sidetracked with paperwork and washing and cooking so still not done. Downstairs has all been tidied and polished though so just to get hoovered and mopped in morning. My room isn't too bad and I don't do the kid's rooms. So just mine and loo to get done and hoover whole house and mop. Really important to get it up to date tomorrow as I have a massively busy month ahead. All good stuff though.

I'll do some cycling tonight after dinner settles and then knit some more of my cardy whilst watching telly. I'll then be ready to start again in the morning. Still not out my pj's

Ali-OK

Morning MiT

Sorry to hear such sadness, sending hugs and thoughts across the ether.

Great news on the extra work, though a pain the money isn't getting to you when you're so motivated to pay it off and early in the month so it doesn't get sucked into household needs later on. Hope it gets paid real soon.

You got loads done yesterday - did you get on your bike? You're doing so well on it and you'll get results pretty quick I think. :T Aside from aching on the bottom half a bit (me too) :rotfl: I just need to find something more comfy and less hot to cycle in - my onesie isn't the right outfit :rotfl:

Hope you can have a good day today.

in_need_of_direction

All that Ali said so well from me too.

millionaire_in_training

Hi guys. Ali I must confess I did not do any bike yesterday but I will have a go on it after dinner. I have sat today and knitted and watched series 1 of scandal. I am about to watch the rest of series 1 of the Fall. I just cannot get motivated.

I have had chicken marinating in tandoori spices and yogurt since last night so I am going to cook it up and do a tikka masala a la slimming world for dinner. I have been looking at the recipe on and off all day and cannot wait to eat it . The pea and ham soup is fabby as well and I had that for lunch. My friend was up with a calendar and shortbread for me so I sent her away with a tub of pea and ham and 1 of lentil.

I think my friend is slightly worried about me. She was saying how I haven't been myself over the holidays. I nearly burst into tears but I told her I reckoned it was work that was dragging e down. I'll see how things go when I go back and make decisions on what my next steps are. I feel so let down by my department. 26 years of working my backside off, taking work home, doing extra ( unpaid ) hours etc etc. for it to come to this. I am dreading tomorrow. I could just run away. I haven't changed my clothes or had a shower since Friday. I am allowing myself today to wallow and then get back to normal tomorrow. If not then I will have to call the doc and increase my meds again as I am not so good and I loathe being like this :mad:.

Anyway enough moaning from me. I hope you are all well xx

Eager_Elephant

Hope your dinner is nice MiT


Sorry to hear that you are not mentally well today - how easy is it to transfer to a different team at your work?
Could you start applying for other jobs? Is voluntary redundancy still a possibility?


Do you think you can manage to keep working there until you get another job? Some people can as they know it is a means to an end but others (like my DH) would rather quit the job and deal with the consequences. It is no good if your mental health gets so bad you end up really really poorly.


Sending (((( ))))

millionaire_in_training

Thanks EE. I'll only be able to tell how work will be when I go tomorrow. Last week was okay until I got the letter telling me my appeal had been turned down and then my mood has just gradually slipped downwards. This whole problem is work related so if I find I cannot stand it then I will go on the sick for a while. I'm hoping it will be okay though.

Bike done and legs like jelly !! I still can't get by 10 minutes. The sweat is literally running down my face. I'm obviously more unfit than even I thought. I will prevail though.

Dinner was yum. Had to stir in low fat fromage frais at the end into the sauce and I cannot stand the taste or smell of it. I am not keen on any milky type things ( except cheese). I only used half of what the recipe said but I could still taste it. I just stopped breathing when I was shovelling it in so I didn't smell it. It was really nice otherwise. The tandoori chicken was divine. I will absolutely make that again and DS love the masala so it will go on the menu again as well. DS has been looking through the cookbook and tomorrow I have to make double bacon burgers :rotfl:. So long as he eats it I will make it and hopefully he will lose a few pounds as well.

Finished watching series 1 of scandal and it was quite good. I am also half way up the sleeve of my cardy so despite the fact that I haven't even washed my face at least I have achieved something

in_need_of_direction

Two things, did they give reasons why the appeal failed? Is there another stage?

Brogden

millionaire_in_training wrote: »

Hi guys. Ali I must confess I did not do any bike yesterday but I will have a go on it after dinner. I have sat today and knitted and watched series 1 of scandal. I am about to watch the rest of series 1 of the Fall. I just cannot get motivated.

I have had chicken marinating in tandoori spices and yogurt since last night so I am going to cook it up and do a tikka masala a la slimming world for dinner. I have been looking at the recipe on and off all day and cannot wait to eat it . The pea and ham soup is fabby as well and I had that for lunch. My friend was up with a calendar and shortbread for me so I sent her away with a tub of pea and ham and 1 of lentil.

I think my friend is slightly worried about me. She was saying how I haven't been myself over the holidays. I nearly burst into tears but I told her I reckoned it was work that was dragging e down. I'll see how things go when I go back and make decisions on what my next steps are. I feel so let down by my department. 26 years of working my backside off, taking work home, doing extra ( unpaid ) hours etc etc. for it to come to this. I am dreading tomorrow. I could just run away. I haven't changed my clothes or had a shower since Friday. I am allowing myself today to wallow and then get back to normal tomorrow. If not then I will have to call the doc and increase my meds again as I am not so good and I loathe being like this :mad:.

Anyway enough moaning from me. I hope you are all well xx

I am so sorry to hear how you are feeling MiT and I have been there myself Whilst my feelings about my work were probably developing in this way anyway, it effectively said to me in crystal clear terms exactly what my relationship with my employer is. I am not taking anything personally (and I was supported) but it confirmed to me what I already knew and........believe it or not.......that helped me. My relationship with them is a payment into my bank account once a month and as far as they are concerned it is 'take it or leave it :rotfl:!!') Oh.....I forgot the pension which is a big reason for me putting up with it all

Onwards and upwards MiT.....if you can...do the job but concentrate all of your energy into home / friends and loved ones because one cannot have any sort of relationship with a corporation (an accounting entity with a logo.......what else is it?)

Hope tomoz goes well and let us know

Brogden x

AlexLK

I have only read this last page so apologise for not reading the background story. However, I used to have a job I was really not suited to, I never really applied for it and got it through somebody I went to school with so it wasn't a chosen career choice. Anyway I hated every minute of it and the work contributed towards a quite severe mental breakdown. I'm not well now but do wonder if things may have been different had I never took that job in the first place.


There is more to life than work, if it's dragging you down get out and do something you want to do.

millionaire_in_training

Thanks guys I'm pretty much thinking along similar lines to both of you. I have looked at people who have worked for long periods in my office and wondered why they have no 'oomph' . Now I know. They have had their oomph sucked out of them. I am going to go in and just do the job. No more, no less. They will get what they pay for. If I find that I cannot hack that then I will seriously rethink things.

Redundancy is not on the cards right now but I reckon if it comes up again I will bite their hand off. Brogden, The pension keeps me there as well and they're now even taking that from us so why the hell did I work there for 26years? Who'd be a public servant lol. And then I feel guilty because at least I have a job and a pension. It's much more than others have.

I dragged myself in for a shower and now look and smell much nicer :rotfl:and to be fair I feel better for it. Going to go in and have a very early start tomorrow as I have a few hours that need caught up from over the holiday period and then I can leave early if I want to. Think I may need to knock myself over the head with a hammer to get to sleep mind you