Here we go again. LBM number a million

in_need_of_direction

A good manager should also have advised sooner giving you the chance to improve. Even though you're happy with what you've done, it's another point to argue. Stick to your guns.

millionaire_in_training

We spoke on a monthly basis about the figures but I genuinely thought we had it sussed and all my other duties would be taken into account. Silly me. I requested a meeting today and she refuses to change it. I have now contacted the union and am taking it further. I also looked at the figures myself and I am 0.5 under my minimum expected levels snd that is without taking anything additional into account so it looks like I will actually be exceeding my targets. I lost my temper today though and let myself down as when my temper goes I always end up in tears. I got a lot off my chest though and told her exactly what I thought of a lot of things. I told her I was done and would be looking for a new job as I could no longer work with the management team. I asked why if I was so poor was I allowwed to sit on a board for new staff. She had an answer for everything and was very sympathetic but is sticking ti her guns, She is however 100% wrong and I will take great pleasure proving it. One good thing is that I am now determined to move out of the office.

I ended up going out at lunch as I was in such a state so I spent £3.99 on my lunch but I did however stop myself from spending anything else. It was really hard though as it was like a physical ache to spend. I didn't even care what I bought. I just wanted to buy SOMETHING !! Anything would have done. So I bought lunch and I ate my lunch for my dinner tonight.

So I am not in a good place tonight. Still feel very tearful. Am beginning to wonder if I am a bit depressed. Seeing doc tomorrow and hoping I feel better mood wise or she might end up sectioning me !! Joking of course but I do feel like cr*p.

Told my boss I no longer wanted to be involved in anything other than my job until I leave and she said ' I beg you don't do anything rash, Don't throw it all away' I just said throw what away? You think I'm sh*t so I can't get any lower than that. So I am now actively seeking other work

nonnie44

I'm so sorry your having such a hard time just now ....you so deserve a break, your a great mum a great worker and a great person and those kind of people are in short supply these days. Fingers crossed that life starts to be kinder to you soon xx

Chocforever

Long time lurker here. I feel for you and the work situation. You don't deserve it and they have a cheek considering your diligence and willingness to help them with extra tasks. Employers don't care anymore.


Take care of yourself x

Keeping_Positive

So sorry MIT that you've run into such a poor manager. Stand your ground.

Its worth looking into whether you maybe a bit depressed it can catch you out. Still does to me even though you'd think I'd know the signs by now!

Take care irs nearly the weekend x

please-let-me-be-lucky

Echoing what everyone else said. Stand your ground at work and take it as far as you can. Be honest with the Dr, and I hope you get somewhere with both situations.

Hugs Xx

in_need_of_direction

Def by honest with the dr. If things don't pan out, they may end up providing confirmation of how carp you were made to feel

millionaire_in_training

Thanks folks. I will definitely stand my ground. My hackles are now up. I'll take it as far as I can go. I feel better today as wasn't at work so it was okay. I was cleaning though so am suitably knackered as I was still awake after 2am this morning and was up at 7.

Went to doc and surprise surprise my BP is sky high despite her having increased my meds 2 weeks ago. I had an amazing chat with her. Looks like I am definitely menopausal as my count is high. Back in 4 weeks to get checked for BP and bloods again. I also admitted how I feel. I had mild post natal depression after both kids and also a few periods years ago of horrendous PMT so we are both of the opinion that I am suffering some mild depression again due to hormonal changes. Woopy doop . So I have started some medication today. Just a mild dose and we'll see how I get on. I really don't want to go on HRT as I am a bit wary of it. She then spoke about how much better I would feel with some weight off. She asked if I had ever thought of a slimming club. I laughed and said local slimming world leader knows me so well that she hugs me when I go in the door :rotfl:. I will struggle to lose weight but we started talking about why I can't get the weight off. I told her that my weight is pretty much my armour as when I lose weight I get male attention and that scares me. So I have to stop being so hard on myself and think how I will feel if I get some weight off. So I will text my slimming world woman and head back on Tuesday and start again. I feel better just for admitting I don't feel so good.

So onwards and upwards guys. Payday today but I was over £400 in overdraft as spends are off the scale as well this month. I'm not going to beat myself up about it but I do need to get on top of it again. I will get paid £200 for cleaning done through the month and that will go to CC and I have also paid every other penny I have earned fron cleaning this month to the CC so it should be paid off very soon , It'll be at about £400 after this weekend.

So a wee day out with my best pal tomorrow. I am so looking forward to it. She's having a tough time just now as well so we are going to catch up, have a laugh and drink like alkies :rotfl:. That;ll sort us out :rotfl:. No doubt I will be here on Sunday bemoaning my headache.

So I hope you are all well and I'm sorry for neglecting you all but it has taken me all my time to just be me. I am fine though just a wee bit off kilter and hopefully the tablets will help me out quickly xx

Eager_Elephant

millionaire_in_training wrote: »

So I hope you are all well and I'm sorry for neglecting you all but it has taken me all my time to just be me. I am fine though just a wee bit off kilter and hopefully the tablets will help me out quickly xx

MiT - this is just typical of you!! You are poorly and then you apologise to us for not posting:rotfl:


Please think about yourself and post some poorly comments - it's fine honestly.


I think it is great that we can come on MSE and talk freely about how we are feeling.


I'm glad the doctor has given you some tablets, sometimes a little helping hand is what we all need.


Hope you are having a good day with your friend and feel free to moan about your sore head tomorrow :rotfl:


Good luck with slimming world.


I have started 5:2 this week and will weigh in tomorrow morning which will be interesting as I have been very good until today and I am now eating my 3rd Twirl :eek: (in my defence they are from a multi-pack and are tiny:rotfl:)

millionaire_in_training

EE thanks and the third twirl part made me laugh out loud. I'll be interested to hear how you get on with the 5:2 thing. I am in a quandary about slimming club as I grudge the money but then I think that I need to go to as I need to look after myself. No more talk of 'sorting myself out' as that just smacks of me saying I'm failing and I'm not I'm just not doing as well as I could.

Just found out as well today that a woman I know has died. She took ill on Thursday and died this morning. She has 2 young boys and is only 46. She was such a lovely woman and is friends with my cousin so I have been in her company many many times. I am stunned. Just shows you should live life to the full.

Had a great day yesterday with my pal and we actually talked for 8 hours :eek:. Such a good party as well. Free bar for first few hours and prosecco flowing like water at the start as well. So you can imagine how my head is feeling today . Never mind. The day out was good for the soul and only spent £25 all in for a fab time.

So back to work tomorrow and I am dreading it to be honest but I will hold my head up and do what needs to be done. I'll hopefully have word from my union rep when I go in and I'll just get on with it. There's a sideways move post that I am interested in so I might throw in a form and see how I go with that. Bit of travel involved with it but I have a lot more freedom these days to be able to do that.

Away to make the sunday dinner now xx