The Trials & Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

Fairy_dust

Mrs TM - Really sorry to hear your news, I know that there is nothing anyone can say or do to make you feel better but I just wanted to give you big hugs xxx

Fairy_dust

Congratulations Peonie xx

Good luck to the others that still need to test.

Code - big hugs to you too

SewIt, Frozen, Rowingirl - Hope you are all doing ok? SewIt - I started my Buserelin injection yesterday & my stims today but when I drew up the liquid I just thought "oh got to jab myself now" forgot how much I hated that bit

Hope everyone else is doing ok & hugs to those that need them xx

AFM I had my baseline scan on Wed & had a AFC of 11, this is where it gets weird...at my first baseline to see which protocol I'd be doing I had 6 (3 in each ovary), at my baseline scan before starting my first ivf I had 7 (4 in one, 3 in the other) and at EC I had 11. I didn't think that your AFC changed by much but it's nearly doubled since the first one last May! Has anyone else experienced this?
Started AF yesterday afternoon whilst at work, forgot how crampy and heavy Norethisterone makes you but at least I can now start my stims today !! Next scan - next Friday (when us yours SewIt if you have already started stimming?)
Xxx

purcy81

Yay peonie! Huge congratulations x

Clevernamehere

Brilliant news Peonie. Congratulations! Fingers crossed for the others. Maybe some of your luck will rub off!

You guys, I'm 2 days late. This is unheard of for me.
I know that it must be because I'm stressed about the "you might need a hysterectomy" thing but I'm really struggling not to get my hopes up.
Can someone slap some sense into me please?

angeltreats

Congrats Peonie! Great news.

Good luck to WTDN and T2D for tomorrow.

Big big hugs to Code, and to Mrs TM for such awful news, I am so sad for you. Hope you are as ok as you can possibly be in the circumstances.

As for me, I still can't even get my head around the fact that we need ICSI and have continued to sabotage myself by eating too much. I'm really going to have to stop but I just don't want to go through the process, I hate the thought of it. I know I should be grateful that we are being given a chance but I am still so horribly bitter that we can't just be like 'normal' people. DH's brother and sister in law have both managed to get themselves knocked up in the last year, why can't he be like them? DH got a letter yesterday saying that his chromosome tests have come back normal and he was strangely pleased about this but I couldn't stop myself from snapping that it was no use when he wasn't producing enough sperm to get me pregnant. I know this is dreadfully selfish of me and I am horrible but there you go. And his sister had a baby a couple of weeks ago but other than a brief half @rsed "congratswhatever" email I just can't be bothered to make an effort. They live in Oz so luckily I don't have to bother seeing them but I can't be bothered to even have a Skype call and see what I suppose is my nephew.

On the other hand, my best friend back home had a baby girl four weeks ago today and I am thrilled to bits for her and I saw the baby last week, got lots and lots of cuddles and could happily have just eaten her up, she was so gorgeous. No jealousy or bitterness at all. I don't know if it's because I have no particular feelings towards my DH's bro and sis whereas my friend has been my friend for years and years and I would walk over hot coals if she needed me to.

Sadly my friend's little baby is in hospital with what they think is meningitis and has had to go through a spinal tap and all sorts of treatment, my poor friend is worried sick and exhausted but coping ok, and I wish I was there now so I could help her. It looks like it was caught early enough and she is settled and responding to treatment but it is still so scary, so ladies please all keep your fingers and everything crossed for a quick recovery.

Love to all and so sorry for being absent and rubbish, I have been lurking but avoiding posting as I am such a moaning minnie.

SewIt_2

Fairy - I hear ya on the injecting, felt the same again this morning, but I'm down to two jags a day now:D I've got my next scan next Fri (7th) too, how cool we might be there at the same time and might even get EC on the same day!

RG/Frozen, how are you guys getting on?

Clevername - don't feel bad about getting your hopes up, we all do the same. Although now whenever I get a wee bit hopeful, I shove it back down from whence it came, as all its brought so far is pain and misery. It can get down and stay down!

PM - any progress for you? I am sick of spotting from the DR and that's only been 12 days (and is now only spotting), so lord knows how you cope with the weeks and weeks of bleeding.

Angel, wishing a speedy recovery to your friends wee baby.

AFM - same old, same old although I can feel the stimming hormones starting to make me feel less down. Got a night in with some girl friends on Sat, need to make an excuse not to drink, any suggestions?

big hellos/hugs to everyone else!

Peonie

Angeltreats, it's scary. I understand as my twin nieces got meningitis on the brain at 3 weeks old. They had to have spinal taps and their sculls drilled to test the fluid that had formed. They were in hospital for 3 months. One even had MRSA. Years on they are 2 lovely, normal, happy, healthy children.

Part_Mouse

Angel don't feel bad for moaning, I do my fair share of it on here. I hpe your friends lo makes a quick recover, such a worrying time.

Peonie huge congrats to you, hope its the start of many.

Sewit I hope the hormoanes are kind to you. I hand delivered a letter to the other hosp where my fs has gone to, she called a few hrs later and have to move onto 3 provera a day, im not sure my depression can cop with that tbh.She said shes going to fax my gp. Not looking forward to it going to a pannel of gp's to decide, seems so unfair that I was already having treatment but had to stop as my fs left.

Has anyone taken 3 provera a day?

codemonkey

SewIt wrote: »

AFM - same old, same old although I can feel the stimming hormones starting to make me feel less down. Got a night in with some girl friends on Sat, need to make an excuse not to drink, any suggestions?

big hellos/hugs to everyone else!

Tell them you've got nerve pain and are on amitriptyline. You really can't drink on that. Either that or you've been prescribed metronidazole for a mouth infection (you have to be clear there or they'll think you have syphillis. Health kick? Or you had a big one the night before and you're too delicate to drink.

time2deal

PM that at least sounds positive!

I also had meningitis as a baby. In hospital for a month or so with bacterial meningitis. Doesn't seem to have done me too much harm. Clearly scarred my parents though!! They tell the story at ever life event (birthday, wedding etc).

My life affirming visualise your goals rubbish is at least nearly over. I think I have learned that I am barely holding things together. Everyone's talking of making changes and life goals, and all I can think of is how everything can and has gone wrong with my goals. I am worryingly close to tears most of the time!

Terrified about tomorrow. I'm trying to console myself that at least I can drink if it's bad news!