Back and Feeling rather ashamed!

pania

night guys, thankyou for being there. xx

Karmacat

Sleep tight. *Really* going now.

pania

hmmm, bet you don't. xx

pania

think i'll try to get some sleep now, got some more work done and can fall asleep to a book we're meant to read for the meeting tomorrow.

pania

well there goes that for 2 hours sleep. Hotels suck!! if i was at home i could snuggle in to OH, have him hold me tight and fall asleep again knowing that things were a bit better with the world.
As it is i'm laying here knackered, feeling really insecure and a tad scared and trying to think how to piece it all back together again. eyes are really painful right now what with the floods that nearly lead to god summonsing noahs ark mark 2 llast night and i left my flippin eye cream at home!!! grrr.
well, atleast while my train is parked at insomnia central it gives me chance to get some more work done.
Can't believe i missed half price listing day on ebay to.. yaboo to that one!!
OH git an interview in the morning for a trainee quantity surveyor job. Really proud for him as he has pushed and pushed so hard for it and they have opened a vacancy up esp for him, he's gotta be a complete gargoyle not to get it and will lead to such a good career for him. Heres hoping with the fingers crossed!! yawn. xx

pania

oh for godsake!!!! just checked online banking, had a DD bounce in my bill account as i was 41p short as halifax whipped their interest out and have been given a £39 charge for it!!! world just give me a break, please! guess i took my eye off the ball for one sec. Just let it stop, for one second please just let it stop. :-(

Karmacat

You're really getting a kicking right now, aren't you, pania. Sorry I *did* go to bed that last time.... I'm at home, its easier for me. Just read what you've written since then. Back on now, and as I said, I'll be on and off, at least till about 10am - will be trying to get out to the garden then and hack at undergrowth.

Look after your eyes today - with having a really big cry, and so little sleep and so much work, they're going to hurt.

And absolutely, kick back - great big fantasies about boiling the boss in oil etc, would still probably go down quite well today, I imagine.

hypno06

Hi hun. Just caught up with last night's posts.

Firstly, I am really pleased that you unloaded all of that. It may not be ideal to blurt out "stuff" to a bunch of strangers, but on the other hand, there is nothing better than receiving support from a bunch of friends when you need it, which is what you received here last night. I hope that by finally saying what needs saying, you can start dealing with it - sometimes when the floodgates of emotion open it gets worse before it gets better, but it DOES get better, because you are dealing with YOUR stuff, not anyone elses. (does that make sense, possibly not, too early, but you KNOW what I am saying, because I have said it to you already).

Secondly, ring Halifax and ask them to refund the charge without delay. Be nice, but be firm.....

Thirdly, good luck to OH for the interview, my fingers are crossed.

You know where I am xxx

redsquirrel80

Morning P, hope things are looking a bit better in the morning light. Damn banks! Never rains etc, eh?

Just get yourself through today then you can get home, cuddle up to OH and hopefully relax. Hope things go well for him with the job as well. Fingers crossed for that and am thinking of you today. xx

Karmacat

Oh yeah, the cuddle thats waiting at home, that sounds good for you. Keep thinking of that. xx