Back and Feeling rather ashamed!

pania

thanks LA, really lovely of you to post and thanks for your support. Got a big meeting with the MD tomorrow as a quarterly review so think i'll feel much better after that. Feeling better health wise and sleeping better with lovely OH beside me, is strange isn't it i've always been so strong and independant but at night when it's your thoughts you have to run away from i'm a gibbering wreck!! :-)

Hope that all is ok with you to hon and big hugs right back, xxx

LookingAhead

Yeah I am OK hon - can't complain anyway.

I know what you mean about things being better when OH is by your side. I used to be so incredibly independent and went travelling to places on my own for various reasons - loved it.

Now I can't even go away for a night or two without getting all choked up that I won't see fiancé for, gosh, 24 - 48 hours!!! :rolleyes:

Good luck for the meeting with the MD. Head up honey - you will prove your "I've got all the sensitivity of Hitler" boss completely wrong!

pania

aye!! and luckily he won't be in the meeting!!!!!! I'll owe up to the things that i DID do wrong to show i'm not doing the sloping teflon shoulder trick and then raise the issues about the other stuff. I'll show him!!!

yep know what you mean, i think it's just nice to have someone thats "there" if you know what i mean. can't complain? hmmm.... PM me if you ever need an independant ear. xx

LookingAhead

Aww you're sweet. Thanks for that PM offer hon.

But no really _ I am ok. Just the usual niggles that everyone has like...wish I was debt free, wish I enjoyed my job, feel a little fat at the moment (but that's all my own fault cos I've been eating like a pig!). There is nothing (touch wood) that I can really complain about.

I'll read your updated thread with interest after the meeting! I am sure showing a willingness to improve on things that you have control over but sticking to your guns about things that you have *no* control over will show them you are professional and not one to be messed around with!

OH: do you find sometimes that you miss even the silly things when you are away like, the way they do something quirky around the house or make you laugh or whatever it is? My OH can wiggle his ears and he does it when he knows I am looking but pretends to be doing something else and it cracks me up! It's the daft things like that, that choke me when I'm not around!

pania

yes it's definately the little things, but dash it at the wiggly ears, thought i was the only one that could do that!! darn it:D :rotfl:
the thing i like the most is when i wake up at night with a start and know that i have someone right beside me to scare the horrible thoughts away, i can put my arms round him and just feel much calmer instantly. (sorry peuky moment there for anyone other than LA that is reading!!;) ) i miss that when i' not home.

I'll be sure to update as soon as i get home tomorro, need to get my figures sorted out to take ewith me in a mo, think they will tell a story!! Loads of work, only 2 months properly into the job with very little coaching and left pretty much to get on with it!! of course i'm going to make mistakes!! but, improve and move on. thats the plan anyhoo!!

glad that your ok, know what you mean about the feel a little fat, i think it's being comfortable!!!! thats my excuse anyhoo!!

xx

LookingAhead

Yes - I was trying to explain to a friend the other day (who lives alone) just how easy it is to slip into that whole 'comfortable' thing! Scarily so. I used to be a fitness freak....now I'm just a freak! :rotfl:

Perhaps when you go away again you should take one of your OH's jumpers with you and you can hug it when you go to bed....might be comforting?

pania

LookingAhead wrote: »

I used to be a fitness freak....now I'm just a freak! :rotfl:

Perhaps when you go away again you should take one of your OH's jumpers with you and you can hug it when you go to bed....might be comforting?

aye, not enough time to be fitness freak right now!! once i get the work situation more under control it'll be sorted!:rolleyes:

Like the idea of the jumper may try that thanks hon, :beer:

Just withdrawn £50 back into my account after my matched bet settled, £25 profit yay!!!! :j
got two pies in the oven right now but no potatoes to do mash with oops!! feel a quick dash to the one stop coming on, darn it there goes my no spend day!! :rolleyes: what you up to this evening? xx

redsquirrel80

Evening P, glad you're feeling a bit better and have had lots of cuddles! Blimey to the bailiffs thing, I'm sure you'll sort it out, good luck! Hope the meeting goes well tomorrow too - give em hell (in the nicest possible way)

As for the monthly challenge... eurgh. I went to check my bank balance today but the nearest cashline was broken so am not quite sure how nasty it is, but it's nasty!! I've made £25 on eBay today but the way things are going I'll probably be living off that by the end of the month. I'm a bit p*ssed off with myself for miscalculating and for spending too much but I'm still hanging on and am determined to have something left by the 23rd!! The two bottles of wine this weekend weren't exactly necessary but they were the cheaper option compared to other things I could have done, have had a very up and down few days emotionally so I think I needed a weekend just chilling out by myself - I've done next to nothing! Can't believe it's flipping Monday tomorrow already... :rolleyes:

redsquirrel80

ps BA - glad to hear bunny is settling in well, did we ever get a photo?

pania

oh gosh honey so sorry to hear that, when you've been so supportive to me to, you don't deserve to be down!! just popping to shop for cheating mash but around after if you fancy a natter. big hugs to you honey see youy in a sec. xx