Trying for a Baby Part 8

MiffyMoo_2

Huge hugs T2D,

Thank you for sharing your story and I am sorry for all the heartache that this is causing you. I wish you all the success in your treatment. I don't 'know' you, but from your posts you seem like such a strong lady. I know that you can beat this. Take up offers of all support both in RL and virtually. You don't have to face this alone. Good luck xxx

Gemmzie

Massive hugs from me too T2D, I really hope they can get some viable eggs from you and you can kick this cancer in the butt.

nicp60

Oh T2D! Thanks for sharing. I am honestly on the brink of tears for all you've been through recently. Lots of love and hugs - all my thoughts are with you xxxxx

amyloofoo

Testing List

12/12/12 Rumfeeble - the perfect date for a lovely Christmas surprise Fingers crossed for you hun!

December graduates

-Winner of November BFP predictions: No-one even close! Need a few more this month... and it's started with Lao_Cat, congratulations! :j:j:j

December BFP predictions

becca0417 - 4
vic3 - 5
Squ1rrel - 6
NoAngel - 6
Elsie - 7
Birdie85 - 7
kellykins - 7
Miffymoo - 7
Metranil Vavin - 8
lao_cat - 9
onlywayisup - 10
Purcy81 - 10
Marie1 - 10
Vesper - 10
Avis - 11
lemonmelon - 11
Courgette - 12 (including self)
kte - 12
rumfeeble - 12
Amyloofoo - a CRAZILY optimistic 13. Lets all hope!

Thread Graduates:

Hopefor3 BFP 08/11/12
Anderson BFP 13/11/12
Lao_Cat BFP 07/12/12

amyloofoo

Two week Wait

CD49 Trina - 44DPO :cool:
CD52 littleme - 38DPO :cool:
CD50 g1rlyg1rl - 33DPO :cool:
CD44 Loulou123 - 29DPO :cool:
CD34 Kellykins - ?DPO :cool:
CD82 benhope - 16DPO :cool:
CD28 Courgette – 15DPO :cool:
CD28 Hopelass - 14DPO :cool: - Yey for cake and good work on sticking 2 fingers up to AF (are you actually on CD1 hun?) It's amazing how little men seem to understand about their role in TTCing... and it's not really that complicated :rotfl:
CD40 firefly369 - 13DPO :cool:
CD28 Rumfeeble - 10DPO :cool:
CD22 COMP* - 8DPO :cool:
CD24 lilymay* - 7DPO :cool:
CD21 Metranil Vavin* 5DPO :cool: - Glad you had a good night hun, definitely well deserved :T Yey for massive Christmas trees - I chose mine with the 'help' of little nephew and now have a 7ft silver thing which takes up most of my tiny lounge :rotfl:It's the least practical thing ever but he looooooves it!
CD24 Codemonkey - 5DPO :cool: - :eek: for insensitive family and smelly tissue paper. Big hugs to you and hope you soon have some news to shut the more gobby members of your family up with I loled at your pot and syringe technique though (could definitely come in very useful) and hope you don't have an AF for a good long time... right before Christmas or otherwise
CD18 MiffyMoo - 5DPO :cool: - Still chuckling about 'winter willies' :rotfl:
CD48 maire - 4DPO :cool:
CD21 Vesper - 4DPO :cool:
CD21 Nicp60* - 4DPO :cool: - I really don't understand OPKs lol, but hooray for fun TTCing and hope it stays that way It may not be particularly practical, but I thought your OH looking at changing tables was really cute.
CD38 MrsHappy - 2DPO :cool: - Have started on TMA02 now... are you also finding it boring as !!!!!!y? :rotfl:
CD16 becca0417* – 1DPO :cool: - Hooray for PMA (and soy!) and I'm very excited about the new house for you As for OV, you're not out yet so let's keep fingers crossed, big hugs :grouphug: Hope your scan goes really well, and that bauble sounds adorable!

"If in doubt - BD" Zone

CD125 ticklepenny - Awaiting ov
CD122 mssas - Awaiting ov
CD102 Lilian1977 - Awaiting ov
CD81 Gemmzie - Awaiting ov - My OH is the same about Christmas, whereas I get ridiculously over-excited It's even worse now little nephew wants to 'help' :rotfl:
CD69 JoJoB - Awaiting ov
CD53 Lily_The_Legend - Awaiting ov
CD53 coops228 - Awaiting ov
CD45 abailey- Awaiting ov
CD41 i love holidays - Awaiting ov
CD32 Toothfairy - Awaiting ov
CD24 Beautybutterfly - Awaiting ov
CD24 Elsie37 - Awaiting ov - Hooray for smiley, let me know if you want to call 1DPO tomorrow
CD22 onlywayisup - Awaiting ov
CD21 Chloelouise - Awaiting ov
CD20 Abis21*- Awaiting ov - Hope your tests give you the results you're looking for
CD18 Trina - Awaiting ov
CD18 Marie – Awaiting ov
CD18 RazWaz - Awaiting ov
CD16 apple*pie – Awaiting ov
CD16 lemonmelon - Awaiting ov
CD16 Angeltreats - Awaiting ov
CD15 Squ1rrel5 - Awaiting ov
CD14 Sidney88 - Awaiting ov
CD14 atton83 - Awaiting ov
CD14 Lara44 - Awaiting ov
CD13 Mrs_T_M - Awaiting ov - Glad you're feeling a bit better and hooray for roastiness! TTC baffles the best of us, random spotting is our body's way of saying 'haha, you have no idea what I'm doing!' Hope your DH had good fun at his work dinner
CD13 Goodvibes - Awaiting ov
CD12 NoAngel - Awaiting ov
CD12 Thriftylass - Awaiting ov
CD12 Amy_85 - Awaiting ov - Hooray for TTCing being fun... I hope it's always that way for the two of you
CD11 jovie - Awaiting ov
CD10 amus - Awaiting ov
CD10 Tinkwings - Awaiting ov
CD10 Leopardlady - Awaiting ov
CD10 Bigzippy - Awaiting ov
CD8 Purcy – Awaiting ov
CD7 kte* - Awaiting ov
CD7 Birdie85* - Awaiting ov
CD7 Cozza123 - Awaiting ov

victoria270385 - do you know your CD, and/or DPO?
fraz_babe - do you know your CD, and/or DPO? Remember to put updates in pink so I see it please

"Wine and Chocolate" zone

CD4 amyloofoo - Awaiting ov
CD4 Tealover – Awaiting ov
CD3 TeamLowe – Awaiting ov - So sorry for heavy bleeding, have a massive dodgy hug :grouphug: Hopefully it's a sign of your body getting back to 'normal' and preparing itself
CD3 vic3 - Awaiting ov

Fannyanna's own special list

CD? Fannyanna - Awaiting ov

Those with * sometimes uses conceive plus/preseed.
The names in blue has a link to their Fertility Friend chart

When posting updates, can you please do them in Magenta so it's easy to spot. This thread is all about support, so remember to click thanks on as many posts as you can! It makes us all feel loved.

amyloofoo

time2deal wrote: »

Hey ladies,

Thanks for the hugs, I thought I would give a quick update as many of you have been with me on this journey for a long time.

OK - as a warning. This is not a happy post, and not really TTC anymore, so be ready! I know we are all just strangers on the internet, but I've shared so much (possibly too much!) on this thread, it does feel strange to simply disappear. Some people may feel this is inappropriate here, but I can't bring myself yet to walk away from you ladies here who have become a strangely large part of my life.

So.. some may know that I got a bad smear result a few weeks ago, while doing some routine tests prior to starting IVF. We had been trying for 2.5 years on and off - seriously for 1 year at least. With low SA and AMH it was the natural next step. I'm 36. I was due a smear anyway.

The result was severe dyskaryosis - which I knew nothing about. Things quickly progressed to a colposcopy, then a cone excision (it was actually a LLETZ in the end) and we got the results yesterday from the tissue that was removed. Apparently the abnormal cells were visible on all the margins, which moves me officially into a diagnosis of cervical cancer. Or whatever is takes to confirm the diagnoses, the appointment is a bit of a blur, but he was clear on the diagnosis. It's really hard to write... and is proving very hard to say as well.

FYI: http://www.patient.co.uk/health/Colposcopy.htm

It's been about 3-4 weeks since the initial smear, so it's been terrifyingly fast. We don't know how bad it is, and can't do a scan (MRI) for a few weeks as the lymph nodes will still be swollen from the op this week. That, plus a CAT scan and chest X-Ray, will find out if it's spread to the lymph nodes and/or into a nearby blood vessel it is very close to (or further). The next choices are each worse than each other - probable removal of the cervix, possibly womb, possibly radiation. They have allowed me to take the time for 1 quick cycle of IVF drugs to hopefully take a few eggs, to be fertilized and frozen - to hopefully get a chance to use in the future. It will only delay treatment by a few weeks, and will be my last chance, so I'm doing it.

I have always had regular smears, the last exactly three years ago, which came back normal. So all the stats say this is impossible, but it's where I am. I have always hated stats, and never really understood them. Things either happen or they don't.

We are heartbroken, and terrified, and still in shock. I'm a bit lost, and have told family, but we still don't have lots of answers to questions that people keep asking me. I'll post from time to time on the +12m thread, but not here as it's not really the right place (not that the +12m is), but thought I would let you know, and I'll still lurk. Next real step is the MRI and CAT scans on 31 December (delayed for a variety of reasons which are my choice), and then start IVF drugs asap. Plan is for operations and things in mid Jan. !!!!!!... it's insane.. and terrifying, and un-believable (as in, we simply can't believe it - you can't take it in), and just so heartbreaking... I'm fine and healthy and no symptoms.

Me being me, I'll probably set up a blog at some stage. It's easier than answering everyone's questions a thousand times. Especially when I don't know the answers, and can't seem to talk without tears. I'll put up a link for those that are interested. Just click thanks and I'll PM you if I do it. On the off chance anyone here can identify me in real life, please pretend you can't. Happy to answer what questions i can, but in reality we are just now waiting for tests, and starting (ironically) the pill next week.

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Just massive, massive hugs and please do keep us updated. We'll all be thinking of you and sending best wishes and lots of positivity your way. I'm so sorry that this has happened, but hope you have a fast and simple recovery with the best possbile outcome. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

time2deal

Hey becca - congats on the new house. I love new houses - it's so exciting! Nothing more fun than a whole new place to make your own.

We bought a house a few years ago, and I so completely love it. We've done lots of work, and it feels so 'mine'. So nice to come home to a place that is totally yours, and where the people you love are.

Courgette

I' m just so sorry to hear your news, T2D. There's nothing I can say other than I'm sorry life has dealt you this massive piece of unfair crap. sending you and yours lots of love xxx

Metranil_Vavin

Courgette - did you test hon?

vic3

Thanks for telling us t2d. I'm so sorry to hear that. Huge hugs to you and the very best of luck x