Trying for a Baby Part 8

Metranil_Vavin

Just been out and got our 7ft Christmas tree

It's going to be challenging decorating that with a toddler running about and a hangover! :snow_grin

becca0417

Mv enjoy your Christmas tree putting up!!

Hopelass - I know, it's crazy isn't it?

Dh has redeemed himself, I think we are back in the game for this month now

nicp60

Argh!!! Just got a HUGE positive on OPK! (Don't ask what possessed me to test when I called ov on Tuesday ).
No ewcm - just watery cm (sorry tmi), am I o-ing? Did I O already??!!

What's going on with the body??? Oh well, OH is happy - not only have I just got Lego Lord of the Rings for us (£20 As*a - proper bargain!), I also bought him a bottle of his fave drink, and now he gets to BD all weekend... Bear in mind it's our first month of ttc, I'm sure the novelty of regular BDing will wear out pretty quickly :rotfl:

I also just caught him checking out baby changing tables on ebay!! Didn't have the heart to tell him we've got quite a while to go before we (hopefully someday) get to that stage!! Boys!!!

Becca That's great news , chuffed (as we say ooop north) for you!

Right, off to enjoy a nice night in!

Mrs_T_M

Nurse told me anti-inflammatories (she mentioned that the gel would. E safer since we are ttc) and paracetamol as well as heat and rest until I'm better. We bought some Voltarol and the husband found a wheat and lavender heat pack disguised as a duckie! I've been wanting a heating pack for a while, so it's nearly like an early Christmas here!

I've also been queasy in spells today. I think I ate something a bit dodgy at the market today.

We are currently cooking two roasts (beef and pork, both were on markdown) that will hopefully last most of this week plus some for freezing.

Gemmzie

Glad OH has sorted himself out becca!

I can't wait to put my tree up, OH only likes it up for the 12 days before and 12 days after! I'm so impatient!

becca0417

Thanks gem how are you? I got the cutest bauble for our tree... Our first married Christmas personalised!

I'm supposed to be having an internal scan tomorrow re pcos but not sure whether to cancel.

Gemmzie

Aww we got a few in Disney to commemorate our first married year They are gorgeous!

I'd keep the date, it can take a long time to get re-referred and it's better to be sure. Best of luck with it.

bigzippy

Why would you cancel, Becca?

amus

time2deal wrote: »

Hi Ladies,

Could I ask for a volunteer to take over the lists? Bad news today, and I'm going to have to leave this thread while I work out how to cope.

Thanks

Sending you massive hugs! :grouphug::grouphug:

time2deal

Hey ladies,

Thanks for the hugs, I thought I would give a quick update as many of you have been with me on this journey for a long time.

OK - as a warning. This is not a happy post, and not really TTC anymore, so be ready! I know we are all just strangers on the internet, but I've shared so much (possibly too much!) on this thread, it does feel strange to simply disappear. Some people may feel this is inappropriate here, but I can't bring myself yet to walk away from you ladies here who have become a strangely large part of my life.

So.. some may know that I got a bad smear result a few weeks ago, while doing some routine tests prior to starting IVF. We had been trying for 2.5 years on and off - seriously for 1 year at least. With low SA and AMH it was the natural next step. I'm 36. I was due a smear anyway.

The result was severe dyskaryosis - which I knew nothing about. Things quickly progressed to a colposcopy, then a cone excision (it was actually a LLETZ in the end) and we got the results yesterday from the tissue that was removed. Apparently the abnormal cells were visible on all the margins, which moves me officially into a diagnosis of cervical cancer. Or whatever is takes to confirm the diagnoses, the appointment is a bit of a blur, but he was clear on the diagnosis. It's really hard to write... and is proving very hard to say as well.

FYI: http://www.patient.co.uk/health/Colposcopy.htm

It's been about 3-4 weeks since the initial smear, so it's been terrifyingly fast. We don't know how bad it is, and can't do a scan (MRI) for a few weeks as the lymph nodes will still be swollen from the op this week. That, plus a CAT scan and chest X-Ray, will find out if it's spread to the lymph nodes and/or into a nearby blood vessel it is very close to (or further). The next choices are each worse than each other - probable removal of the cervix, possibly womb, possibly radiation. They have allowed me to take the time for 1 quick cycle of IVF drugs to hopefully take a few eggs, to be fertilized and frozen - to hopefully get a chance to use in the future. It will only delay treatment by a few weeks, and will be my last chance, so I'm doing it.

I have always had regular smears, the last exactly three years ago, which came back normal. So all the stats say this is impossible, but it's where I am. I have always hated stats, and never really understood them. Things either happen or they don't.

We are heartbroken, and terrified, and still in shock. I'm a bit lost, and have told family, but we still don't have lots of answers to questions that people keep asking me. I'll post from time to time on the +12m thread, but not here as it's not really the right place (not that the +12m is), but thought I would let you know, and I'll still lurk. Next real step is the MRI and CAT scans on 31 December (delayed for a variety of reasons which are my choice), and then start IVF drugs asap. Plan is for operations and things in mid Jan. !!!!!!... it's insane.. and terrifying, and un-believable (as in, we simply can't believe it - you can't take it in), and just so heartbreaking... I'm fine and healthy and no symptoms.

Me being me, I'll probably set up a blog at some stage. It's easier than answering everyone's questions a thousand times. Especially when I don't know the answers, and can't seem to talk without tears. I'll put up a link for those that are interested. Just click thanks and I'll PM you if I do it. On the off chance anyone here can identify me in real life, please pretend you can't. Happy to answer what questions i can, but in reality we are just now waiting for tests, and starting (ironically) the pill next week.