MIT's penultimate diary

millionaire_in_training

I am having fun SBO but I feel incredibly guilty sometimes.

We have been invited back to the hospice tomorrow night for a memorial service. I am dreading it and I can feel my mood sliding rapidly. My staff member came back to work today after his Mum dying in the same hospice and I just gave him a big cuddle and we went away and had a good long blether about it all. No tears but I reckon there will be tears aplenty tomorrow. I'll do my best to just enjoy the occasion and maybe I'll get to see some of the other families who we spent time with when Mum was in. That would be really nice .

Spent £6 on my bus fare to McArthur Glen this coming Saturday. I am going to write a list of gifts I need to buy and see if I can get my Christmas shopping started. Looking forward to a wee day shopping with a friend from work . Comfy shoes will be required I reckon . I've been invited to a wee night out on Saturday in Glasgow but I think I will be shattered after a day's shopping so I am skipping that one.

No other news from me, I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow _pale_

princesst84

Hope today went ok MIT xx

millionaire_in_training

Tonight was awful. I was so emotional. I had to leave as everyone had gathered to have some tea and cake and I just couldn't stop crying. I couldn't stop my thoughts and memories. I was picturing my wee mum in her bed with the massive head phones on trying to watch her telly, then I remembered her in the chapel of rest and the nurse waiting on the stairs for us arriving when she died. The nurses were there along with the staff and it was all just too much for me and I had to go, The nun at the door made the kids promise they would bring me back up but I doubt I will go back. I got no comfort from it, in fact I am in pieces now and I was doing ok. I'll feel better in the morning so I am heading off to bed xx

millionaire_in_training

Well I was wrong I didn't feel better in the morning but I feel better today .

Just got myself a new phone contract and have halved what I was paying out and I have got a shiny new phone. I have never had an android phone so I am really looking forward to getting it. It's a Samsung Ace @ £7.50 per month. 250 minutes, 5000 texts and 500mb internet so that's more than enough for me .

Lost another 2lb this week so that's 16.5lbs in 4 weeks so that's great .

Spending a fortune on fruit and veg but another wee health issue going on. Found out my cholesterol is at 7.5 which apparently is quite high :eek:. This goes hand in hand with the fatty liver disease so I just have to stick to the healthy lifestyle or else now. I just wanted to lose some weight but I really need to get into the healthy BMI range so I have loads to lose. I'm feeling positive though and raring to go. I am also thinking of looking for a new job. I want more money and the only way to get it is to move. I will have a think about it and see.

I hope everyone is well xx:)

Seaxwyn

Hiya! That's a good deal with the phone. I'm really jealous. I pay £15 month for a rubbish phone that doesn't even have internet. Can't wait til the contract is up -not til June I think.

I sympathise with the emotions at the memorial service. Yesterday was three months since my mum died and I felt very down. We also got the go-ahead on the sale of my dad's bungalow. It could happen very quickly now so I have to empty the place. It's all positive but will mean the loss of a lot of things that were a link with mum and our childhood.

Good luck with the healthy eating. You can do it!

gallygirl

Seaxwyn wrote: »

I sympathise with the emotions at the memorial service. Yesterday was three months since my mum died and I felt very down. We also got the go-ahead on the sale of my dad's bungalow. It could happen very quickly now so I have to empty the place. It's all positive but will mean the loss of a lot of things that were a link with mum and our childhood.

Sorry for all the pain around at the mo .

Seaxywn, if you have a lot of furniture etc to get rid of can I suggest putting it on freecycle, and actually say you have a house to clear - it really helped me when mum died as I ended up giving the contents to two young families who had nothing. They took not only the furniture, but teatowels, kettle etc, all the little things which don't have sentimental value, leaving me with time to concentrate on the photos etc, and it was nice to feel some good had come out of it all.

Seaxwyn

Hi gallygirl. That is a great idea - I will try to freecycle as much as I can. Luckily the house is not far from me so I can go and work there to be in for people to collect. Thanks.

millionaire_in_training

Emptying the house holds mixed emotions Sea. We had some lovely moments finding bits and bobs we had forgotten about but also very sad and very difficult at times. We gave most of Mum's things to the hospice shop as our way of saying thank you. I just wanted her things to do some good. There was also lots of things like kettle, toaster etc which I have packed up into my loft for whatever child first gets a flat. Am much better now than earlier in the week and accept that I will have down days.

My very best friends Dad has been sick this week and it looks like he has a lung tumour :eek:. Results will be known for definite on Friday. We were in floods of tears last night as we have not gotten over caring for mum yet and looks like we will be starting over again. I popped down last night to see him and her Mum and she had said not to let on that I knew as he didn't want anyone to know ( he is a private man) but I was only in 2 minutes when he told me himself. He has known me for 37 years and I was never out their house when we were younger so I am one of the few people he is comfortable with. I felt quite humbled that he could share this with me. Just need to wait until Friday to see what's what.

I was away shopping today to a designer outlet in Livingston. It was great, I loved it. I was there supposedly to start my Christmas shopping. pair of boots for me and a new bra from the playtex shop. I did get some things but not overly much but still managed to spend nearly £200 :eek::eek:. Went to wagamama's for lunch which I enjoyed lots. Am shattered now and my feet are louping ( sore) :rotfl:.

My brother is coming for dinner tomorrow so I am really looking forward to that as I have hardly seen him the last 2 weeks . He has been away working and I have been busy. Will be good to catch up. I am making soup, roast beef, then meringue nests and fruit salad. All nice and healthy but very tasty nom nom.

I hope everyone is having a nice weekend xx

princesst84

Hey MIT
Sorry that the hospice visit was so upsetting and you werent able to get any comfort from it. Have a dodgy hug from me :grouphug:

:jGreat news on the weight loss and new phone. You are doing amazing to stick at the healthy eating

xxxx

savesummore

Hi MIT

Have just caught up as ive been on my holi-bobs its abit of a shock to go from 30 degrees to 16!!!

You sound like your doing well, weight loss, keeping strong, supporting others and of course enjoying yourself for time to time (with everything going on you deserve it) :T

My xmas shopping usually starts with stuff for myself :rotfl:I must try hard not to do that this year though

Right off to find some socks, an extra jumper, some giant pants..........................................................