When I asked for luck I didn't mean the bad variety!!!

please-let-me-be-lucky

Hi MiT!

I hope you get the loss you deserve at the scales next week. I wish I did eat meat but I haven't eaten any for 25 years and I can't bring myself to do it now! When I was little we didn't have much money and my Mum used to buy the cheap cuts of meat. I truly believe I was a lazy eater and chewing the !!!!py meat put me off. My Mum used to force me to eat it once a week on a Sunday but I nearly choked myself trying to swallow it without chewing, so eventually she said I didn't have to eat it. I don't eat fish either but apparently even when I was tiny I refused it. My boys both eat meat though, I was determined they would!

Fingers crossed the interview at JCP tomorrow is a quick one! Xx

millionaire_in_training

We were the same and I wasn't a big meat eater when I was young but I do love it now. I will get the loss next week so long as I stay on the straight and narrow

StressedSteph

Wow PLMBL,

I did'nt read your diary for 3 days and I missed soooo much.

Well done you for being Slimmer of the Week :j.

I could'nt beleive your luck reading about the gym membership fees. Thats an incredible display of perserverance :T.

I really think your luck is changing this year .

Good luck at the JC. Hope you mentioned the Carers Allowance, like Millionaire said, maybe they might leave you alone if they know you are a carer.? Fingers Crossed.

Speak soon xxx

please-let-me-be-lucky

Hi Steph, I hope you are right about my luck changing .

Had a little meltdown earlier . Woke up (at 6am again, cheers son!) feeling really down but tried to ignore it. DH now has cold so we decided to give the gym a miss this morning and go get some new skylander figures for DS2 instead with some of his birthday money. They were only released this week and he has been desperately waiting for them. We did so and while we were over there we weighed in a bag of old clothes that my sister had given me, so that was £3.40 pure profit. So far so good.

DH then suggested we went for a coffee, which we did but sat there very virtuously, him with a black coffee and me with diet pop. A girl walked in with the most fabulous red curly hair and I remembered how MIL's friend asked me the other day when I was going to get my haircut. It must look bad if she brought it up so I started to feel a bit poop about myself. Some other girls came in and they all looked very elegant and well made up. I looked down at what I was wearing and the jumper I have on is one I've had since I was 15!! I kid you not, it's 19 years old and it suddenly looked it more than ever. Then a lady came in with a newborn and I had to fight back the tears. This took me by surprise as I was sure I was over the miscarriage. I even watched One Born Every Minute the other night which didn't affect me at all. On the walk back to the car EVERYONE was either pregnant, had a pram or looked amazing and I felt like a real mess.

When we got back in the car the radio dj was asking 'What are you most looking forward to in February?' and someone had text in with 'the birth of my baby'. I couldn't hold it in any more and started crying which freaked DH out and then I felt even worse. It sounds silly to say out loud, but I'm feeling 'downtrodden'. DH was great bless him and pointed out that I'm doing something about my weight already and he thinks I look fine (lie!) but if it would make me feel better I should put myself first for a change and at least get a haircut. So I've booked myself in for Tuesday morning and I feel better knowing I'm getting it done, but now I feel guilty in advance for spending the money on myself!!!

Off to the Job Centre soon. This day just gets better and better

HeadAboveWater

*big hug*

Sorry to hear you've had a rough morning PLMBL Some days are just like that - the slightest wee thing can knock us backward, yet on a 'normal' day the same thing wouldn't effect us. Please don't let it get to you. Wallow if you must, but pick yourself up and move on

Yay for the haircut!! You deserve to have someone pamper you for a change. You need some 'me' time. And def don't begrudge spending a few pounds on treating yourself! You're worth it

And stuff those other girls that came in! I'd guarantee you that your life is 10 times better than all theirs put together. Besides, they've likely got personalities like a sack of potatoes so they have to pretend they look nice to get attention :rotfl:

Good luck for the job centre

please-let-me-be-lucky

HeadAboveWater wrote: »

And stuff those other girls that came in! I'd guarantee you that your life is 10 times better than all theirs put together. Besides, they've likely got personalities like a sack of potatoes so they have to pretend they look nice to get attention :rotfl:

Love it, thank you :rotfl::rotfl: That's the most I've smiled all day Xx

The_Dragon

As well as the "sack of potatoes" thing, they are probably wearing cheap clothes that last no time (and give way at the most embarrassing moments!) you can :-

1. still fit in clothes from years back
2. you have good quality clothing!

grannyx2

Hugs honey, we all have these bad days or moments, we just wouldn't be human otherwise. I bet those girls were looking at you and your happy family and thinking how nice it would be to be you.

Glad you have booked the haircut though as everyone needs a little pampering now and then.

Granny x

please-let-me-be-lucky

Thanks for the support everyone (and for the visual of their pants ripping at the butt seam Draggon :rotfl:). I've given myself a talking to and it all seems a bit silly now. There are people way worse off than me and I should be grateful for all the good things I have, even if they are decades old . If I'm honest I'm more worried now at how regularly I've been feeling down recently as opposed to what I was down about if you see what I mean.

Job Centre was fine and a waste of time as expected. The advisor was lovely and just said they were there if I needed them but she backed right off when I explained our situation and that I was waiting to hear about Carers Allowance. So, we've kept our part of the bargain and they won't be pressurising us anymore. Win win Believe me, as soon as DH is better I will snap their hand off for jobs but not just now.

NewLeaf_2

Babe I am sorry you had a down day. I am sending hugs x