No idea how I got here but need to get out of this place!

missrlr

I am really glad I didn't respond to the "give her a kicking" email in the manner I wanted to, I did respond as if I hadn't read it, but I have filed this in the appropriate folder for later reference.

Have had 1.5 days of absent boss, as you can tell I am distraught at that! So far the plan rewrite has stalled at the "loss of electricity" part. Most of this is state the bleeding obvious but I mean really the level of details that is "needed" is ridiculous. Plus I spent an hour searching for a folder that had been miss-labelled and misfiled - don't you just love people at times? How complex is it to write the correct date on something?

In other financial news I have chased up AGAIN to get the tax calculations sorted - why do people have to be chased all the time. DH "discovered" @bbey were taking both the new loan and old loan payments and had done for 2 months!!!! !!!!!! did he miss that - well actually it is simple, he simply does not look at the statements properly or do end of month reconciliations. As a consequence (no surprises here) he is overdrawn and being charged. Worse it was @bbey who noticed this and wrote to him!
So, now we have had the money refunded plus £60, and the overdraft fees removed. He only has to check his personal account and his loan account - I am itching to snaffle these and put them into a spreadsheet and get it all worked out, but I think that is a step too far for him.

Car tax reminder has come in £30 for the year ..... and a £2.50 charge for credit cards thieving so and so's. Will have to wait until tonight so I can play the money shuffle game and find the other bank card to pay this.

I have diarised for DH to get the Euros for holiday when the sale is on a la MSE news letter today.

That aside I need to actually focus on doing some work. Someone lend me some enthusiasm please?????

Enchanted21

Hiya :wave: I'm chucking a handful of enthusiasm your way because I've given up for the day...... Use it wisely

Just read your diary and it certainly sounds like you have your handful, but are more than capable od dealing with it all. I like your determination not to let it all get you down..... Onwards and upwards

I did smile at your looking into how to deal with machivellian characters, I did that recently and threw in Narssistic characters too........ One can't be too careful

Hope your day turns out well.

Enchanted X

missrlr

Hey Enchanted, I have used this enthusiasm wisely but not necessarily in the pursuit of work related matters, more to not murder DH. Odd dreams last night, probably due to spending far to long chatting to sister last night and as a consequence was WAY past my bed time so the mind was chuntering through its worry pattern, each worry has to have a certain amount of time to focus on. It is as if my not very sub conscious has decided that by constantly prodding the problem a miraculous solution will leap into the world. The logical bit of my brain says "hard work and not giving up" is the way out of this all.
Right now to focus on some actual work - I am determined to get the poxy evil disaster plan DONE today. And as the dressage is on later I need to get this done THIS MORNING. May be a tall order but hey in for a penny in for a pound.
Doglet has clearly decided that the way forwards in the mornings is to wake me up *just* before the alarm and then when I am up, dressed and ready for dog walking he is back in bed eyes squeezed tight shut so I feel horrid for evicting him. But if he doesn't get out with me first thing then he wont get out until last thing at night and tonight I am determined to get back to the really though gym class I have been avoiding for the past month in the vain attempt to reduce the wobble of my backside. Therefore time is in short supply and he needs to be walked in the morning. He was very cute sitting down, yawning and generally being very sleepy today, but we completed the walk and did manage to avoid the evil black Alsatian who tries to kill him every time it sees him (damn dog he needs to be got under control and the owner is RUBBISH, keeps saying "good dog" when the beast is snarling and straining at the leash teeth bared and lunging towards Doglet and I).

missrlr

I managed to get it completed and off for review, not before the dressage but before the end of the day. I had forgotten I have a visitor today .... oopps think I'd best be off preparing something

Piquant_2

Ah the dressage....makes me dream....wonderful stuff!

Well done for completing the task, at least it's not hanging over your head all weekend.

You're a bit mean waking doglet from his slumbers, you know!

missrlr

OMG I have DOMs badly the serious gym session which I have been avoiding on Thursdays for about a month now has kicked in royally, going to stagger gently round the block with dog as that is all I think I can do. But I nee to use of lose the gym membership and the legs have a bit of definition in the thighs as a result so know this works ....

missrlr

Well I am struggling with a thought process here, I found myself crying down the phone to my sister because I was involved in a social situation and ended up sitting on my own after a particularly peculiar conversation made to feel like a proper outsider and not at all welcome. Usually I don't tell people what I do as there is always some smarty pants who will (mis) quote some dregs of an article they read usually published by the less scrupulous and more dramatising members of the press making it out to be an industry on a par with murdering and child slavery. It is a matter of education. The other effect that telling people what I do for a living has is to make them ignore me and I do mean literally cut me out of all conversations.

Last night was a combination of both. I was asked and so told what I do for a living. First question / statement: suppose you got a degree to do that, one I expect I paid for with my taxes.
Later in the conversation there were opinions given about education and state of schools, social workers and so on. I said that hard work didn't hurt anyone and the education system in this country was poor, left people with little skills and the higher up the education system a chip or chips the size of mountains in terms of expectations. I didn't doubt that the people working in the system were trying to make a difference but the tools they have are inadequate for the job. Mistake, I would have been better of being mute.
Well after I had been castigated publicly for being a toff and various other things, I was literally left at the table in the pub and everyone in the group walked to the other side and carried on talking. DH didn't clock what was going on as he was in another group
Hence on phone to sister in tears saying I felt very lonely and really didn't like it when people were so bigoted and unfriendly, plus I didn't have my train ticket (in DH pocket) or house keys (ditto location) so couldn't eve go home.
DH to be fair did clock I was not inside and came looking for me, but I was far too upset to want to go back inside at that point. Now the 4 glasses of wine probably didn't help my emotional state at all, but I have no idea where this outpouring of emotion and overwhelming feeling of simply wanted to throw myself into someone I really know and trust and who likes me to bawl my eyes out. It was like I was a child again being bullied at school.

So dear diary even typing this out is making me a bit teary. I need to sort this out as I have to go to work tomorrow and deal with people. Most importantly I need to sort out why this happened and stop it from happening again. One obvious step is don't drink , but that may be ea bit extreme in the first instance.

missrlr

Well that is that, did not get shortlisted for he interview stage for either job, feel quite flat, I know that the chances were they looked at it and went "private sector no we don't want her" but even so it's a bit of a kick in the teeth to think that your peers don't want to employ you!

That aside I have decided to work on the work stuff, (aside you understand from this little sojourn to cyber space). So I have been quite productive, managed to get 2 pieces of work sorted, and the planning for tomorrow sorted plus two other things sorted today. As I am clearly no good at job hunting I have to make sure I keep this job. DH has some overtime, which is all good, but at the same time is coming at a time when I am under pressure for work and so time is limited. This is when I can end up getting very narky as the house is dirty when I come home and it is down to me to sort it all out.

Have to be up really early to get 170 miles up the M25 / M1 tomorrow (oh deepest joy) and so will be early to bed and hopefully be able to leave before the traffic gets too rubbish. On the positive side I get to claim some expenses, so about £130 more for me!!! I need to get on and do some holiday planning, it is so tempting to do that at work as it is more interesting, but I will be strong and good and do work I have been employed to do not stuff I want to do. Nearly Wednesday so 13.5 days of work before my holiday!

Piquant_2

missrlr wrote: »

Well I am struggling with a thought process here, I found myself crying down the phone to my sister because I was involved in a social situation and ended up sitting on my own after a particularly peculiar conversation made to feel like a proper outsider and not at all welcome. Usually I don't tell people what I do as there is always some smarty pants who will (mis) quote some dregs of an article they read usually published by the less scrupulous and more dramatising members of the press making it out to be an industry on a par with murdering and child slavery. It is a matter of education. The other effect that telling people what I do for a living has is to make them ignore me and I do mean literally cut me out of all conversations.

Last night was a combination of both. I was asked and so told what I do for a living. First question / statement: suppose you got a degree to do that, one I expect I paid for with my taxes.
Later in the conversation there were opinions given about education and state of schools, social workers and so on. I said that hard work didn't hurt anyone and the education system in this country was poor, left people with little skills and the higher up the education system a chip or chips the size of mountains in terms of expectations. I didn't doubt that the people working in the system were trying to make a difference but the tools they have are inadequate for the job. Mistake, I would have been better of being mute.
Well after I had been castigated publicly for being a toff and various other things, I was literally left at the table in the pub and everyone in the group walked to the other side and carried on talking. DH didn't clock what was going on as he was in another group
Hence on phone to sister in tears saying I felt very lonely and really didn't like it when people were so bigoted and unfriendly, plus I didn't have my train ticket (in DH pocket) or house keys (ditto location) so couldn't eve go home.
DH to be fair did clock I was not inside and came looking for me, but I was far too upset to want to go back inside at that point. Now the 4 glasses of wine probably didn't help my emotional state at all, but I have no idea where this outpouring of emotion and overwhelming feeling of simply wanted to throw myself into someone I really know and trust and who likes me to bawl my eyes out. It was like I was a child again being bullied at school.

So dear diary even typing this out is making me a bit teary. I need to sort this out as I have to go to work tomorrow and deal with people. Most importantly I need to sort out why this happened and stop it from happening again. One obvious step is don't drink , but that may be ea bit extreme in the first instance.

You poor love, what a miserable evening. If it's any consolation I'm always been told I'm a toff. These days I smile serenely, but it used to upset me. I think you're great and it's their loss that they will never know you well enough to see that.

Stick with the looking for work, you know from my diary, just how frustrating the job hunt, cv, letter, recruitment process is. The icing on the cake, hearing either nothing or being told you're over-experienced! I'd like to think companies would like someone with the extra experience to make a difference for them. But I suspect it's more that the hiring manager is threatened.

Keep going missrir, it will come right. Stick that toff nose in the air and believe in yourself...

Piq

missrlr

Well thank you for your kind words, apparently 1 week after closing should have been 2 - and I have been shortlisted. TBH I am terrified, I have not been interviewed for YEARS (done plenty though - does this count?). We shall see. Also had a job sent to me by an agency which sounds good on paper but I need to work out a bit more about the company and see how I feel about them.

In other news, Doglet and I managed to get the self assessment forms done and the tax calculations sorted, so I think I can now get some of the money back from the ESCROW account it has been held in - which will be great. Also having learnt this time what the pitfalls are I now understand what I need to record and how so this is easy to get an figure for. Regig of the old Excel sheet is in order - perhaps I can pass this off as work???

Off to visit the rented place this weekend - oh I hope there are no issues and problems there! Staying with a friend so managing to combine the work and pleasure.

Having an admin weekend with DH - we have GOT to clear the mass of paperwork "filed" on the sofa in the study and to make sure the right stuff is being kept and not the general crap. I say this as he has the house filing and I am itching to make sure this is in order and up to date which I suspect it is not.

We are also apparently going to receive some free tickets to a food and wine show so are taking next door as they are very good and let Doglet out for us. Trouble is these have not arrived yet ....... fingers crossed all.