Depression

Tiff_2

Guess who mac?!:D
quote=mclaren
As for the meds - i took them 8 weeks ago but only for a couple of days, and then i had the other medical probs - and then was put on the steroids to control my breathing - didnt restart the ad's - but at that point i felt fine.
Hate to think i am reliant on medication to make my mood average.
I know hun - no-one wants to take meds. But if they stop you from sitting on that bottom step, then surely it's worth it?;)
Also what you might consider here is, that you weren't on the meds long enough for them to kick in angel. It's no wonder you're feeling so low! The steroids could have lifted your mood temporarily maybe hun. If I were you mac, I'd print off your couple of posts and show them to the dr, if you find it hard to talk to them.

As for GP - i might call up tomorow - but i know i will not get an appointment till end of the week or start of next. Still - hate to keep going there as they prob mark you down as a hypacondriact lol /quote
Hun, please call today and ask for an emergency appointment. You're only beating yourself up and that makes you feel worse. If the receptionist tries to defer you, say that you are very depressed and that you need to see your gp asap. Receptionists usually respond positively to this - no-one wants your depression to get worse. You are entitled to this help hun and you've had very real illnesses - depression is one of them.
Please don't focus on being a hypochondriac mac - it's probably part of your illness making you feel like this hun and I don't see how you qualify as that. Even if you were a hypochondriac hun, it still needs treating just like anything else. Remember, you haven't really had the chance for the meds to work and your mood probably receded into the background because you were so very physically ill.
Time to stop those panic attacks in their tracks hun and get yourself some peace of mind - make that call angel.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

flis21

Hi All,

Have just got back frmo physio and am now REALLY depressed. My ankle has got worse not better. They wanted me to stop working, but I pursuaded her to let me carry on. However I have to go back to using my crutches again when walking outside and increase the number of times a day I am exercising it.

She also said that when I go on holiday (3 weeks on Saturday) depending on how I do over the next couple of sessions, I am either going to have to take my crutches or a walking stick.

Feel so down, thought I was progressing so well and really feel that I have gone backwards again.

blinky

Sorry I haven't been around much. I've been very busy and haven't had much of interest to say

I hope you are all doing well and hope you all get a little better each day.

Huge hugs to all,

Karrie

Tiff wrote: »

Hi karrie!:hello:
How are you hun? I hope things are quieter for you atm. I agree with our lovely gem hun. :T

If you want to rant, big pile of cushions and pillows, beat the carp out of them and have a good cry - it works wonders!;) Also you can write down everything that's upsetting you, how you feel etc in a literary rant and then enjoy tearing it to shreds! Some people show it to their counsellors/dr.

We're all poorly here hun to different degrees - you're not any different from the rest of us. You may feel overwhelmed because time is so new to you angel and you don't know what to expect. Don't expect anything hun - it's too stressful.;)

Starting a diary/journal for your son is a good idea karrie! It can be used for many things hun - as a way of remembering these times together, to bring you close to him if you had to go into hospital, a family story, a way of showing you as a person and not 'just' a mum. It's not bad to keep a diary hun at all.

I'd also suggest keeping a separate one for yourself, where you are completely honest.
Set the same time every day to write in it, describe what you've done, eaten, planned, slept and how you felt before and after all these things. This will be a great tool if you stick to it, because you will start to see the little steps of improvement angel. You can follow your own progress.

And when times are really hard, you can look back and hopefully you'll see that, either you were worse than this before or when you were like this before, it was only temporary and your mood improved. This will help to encourage you. It will also show you when you're not looking after yourself properly.;)

I don't know if this helps hun - just Tiffy thoughts.:rolleyes:
Take care karrie.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Hi Tiff
Yes thank you it does help. Yesterday I felt "normal" but today I feel, how can I express this........ doomed. Woke up, sat on the bed and cried Felt like I really didn't want to be alive to face the day. Went back to bed once I'd sent son to school. Just got up and feel very low. I am getting really angry with myself and keep asking why now? Why now when I need all my strength for the school appeal? I was prepared and ready to face this appeal. I was really strong although upset, and then this hits! :eek:

Tiff_2

Hi rose!:hello:
How's you hun?
quote=rose07
Im exhausted, last night, dads party, mad, there must have been over 60 people all packed into our little cottage:eek: , aunties, uncles, cousins, friends, colleagues of my dads, and loadsa peeps i didnt know, i was threatened by one person, someone kicked my foot (the operated one), and someone else left a plate on the floor which i slipped on and landed on my foot (the operated one):mad: :mad: :mad:
Wow - that's a heck of a party hun! That's the trouble in a crowd - you're guaranteed that someone will hurt your poorly bits.:o :rolleyes: I hope you managed to enjoy some of it angel.
Now who in their right mind would threaten you at a party hun? And in your own home?
I bet your dad loved the party angel!:T Sometimes it's good to meet new people - you never know...;)

Im trying to say im feeling really low. Im starting to wonder if i will ever feel like 'me' again. Feel im slowly slipping away , each day passes by, always the same, no one to see, havent seen my friends for ages, spoke to them, but it different seeing them. There is just something missing in rosie at the moment, just need to find it again:o
We all change rose. Sometimes, it's hard for anyone to feel like 'me' - it can be part of a growing process. Once you're back on your feet, I hope you'll feel more like your old self.;)

It may be a good time to check in with your care team hun - everyone's been concentrating on physical treatments for you and all too often, it's easy for the mental ill health to be forgotten.

It sounds as though you're lonely and bored hun. That's enough to bring anyone down. Are their any other housing/work options on the island? Summer tourists will be there soon. Is there family there you could stay with for a couple of weeks - just to give yourself a change? Have a talk with your social worker/cpn hun - they can have lots of resources.

Im in sooo much agony with my foot , i have ran out of pain killers, and running outta anti inflammetries. i do have an appointment at the hospital tomorrow, to do with my foot, but im not quite sure what to say, cant just go in there and say its sore
YES YOU CAN!;)
I'm glad you've got an appointment tomorrow for your foot angel. Get your meds delivered and that should help to stop you from running out as they only deliver when the prescribed amount is about to run out and they also remind you when you need to see the doctor about refills. If your pain relief isn't enough, make sure you tell the dr hun.:o

I also had a visit from someone today, that, well, dunno actually
/quote
That's an unusual sentence to end on rose?
I know you're feeling low angel, but please be brave enough to pick up the phone and call your gp if you need extra help hun. You can do this hun. They've helped you before rose and you always come back just that little bit stronger.;) I'm hoping a good dose of this sunshine is cheering you up a little. Good luck with the dr hun. Take care.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi gilly!:hello:
Good to hear from you hun.;) How's our favourite badger?

quote=gillette147
I went to drs on friday. I was worried about it so put it off for two days.
Why were you worried angel?
Bless you, it's never worth putting it off hun if you can help it - especially if you know you'll have to go anyway.;)

Had my last counselling session last wednesday. She tried to put a spin on it that we have got somewhere - carp.
Two worries:
1 - That I was going to be thrown off the sick note
b - That he was going to up my meds.
Well, I have a 2 month note now....whoopee
But, he has changed my ADs and I'm now going to be on a full strength meds. I'm not sure how I feel about it.
Well you weren't happy with the counsellor from the beginning, were you hun? You never seemed to really click. Your dr can refer you to a different one, maybe attached to the local mental health team gilly.

Again you're worried that you're going to be pushed back into work hun. No-one will do that to you if you aren't ready. And they'll only know you're not ready if you tell them hun, and that includes telling your dr that the counsellor wasn't very good with you.

Your gp obviously knows that what you've been trying isn't working and that you need to go up a step angel. I hope you are taking the meds hun - they are not prescribed ad hoc. Try not to fret hun. If it means you feeling better, then it's worth it.
I have taken the 1st two days worth. Sitting here with strange numb/tingly feelings running up and down my arms. Nothing terrible but weird.
If you're still unsure gilly hun, back to the dr and talk it over.;) Once you start a med, you should carry it on until a dr tells you to stop. They need time to get into your system to work hun.

My seeking the drs help was half brought on by a need to go on the sick...and half because I am sick of feeling so sad. But now with the prospect of real mind altering drugs being put into me, I am a bit scared.
I spose they can't hurt. It's interesting to see if my brain can be helped. If the negative voices can be quietened down then I might be happier.
I just hope I'm still me.
/quote
Just curious hun,;) but what did you mean when you said you felt the need to go on the sick?

You'll never know what the meds can achieve until you've been taking them for a while. Your gp is likely to have put you on a minimum dose to see how they suit you angel. It's natural to feel a bit scared - or a lot! - when you take a new med hun. We all feel like that.;)

I want to say to you gilly that it won't help to look at ads as mind-altering drugs - it makes it sound scary when it's not likely to be at all. What they do, imho, is try to create a balance hun.
Also, it may help to have better counselling, input to help you draw you out of yourself and come back out into life or even joining a support group (they do have men only and women only ones) in addition to the meds gilly. Sometimes it's good to know you're not alone - it's probably like a real life version of what the thread does here.;)
You worry about still being you - but are you happy with the way you are struggling hun? It's not going to take away your personality angel, although I can understand your fears. Meds deserve respect and you're reaction is normal sweetie. Give it a fair go angel and if you get any problems phone/visit your gp.

It is good to hear from you hun. Keep us posted.;) Take care gilly.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

DjSatansfury wrote: »

I am a lurker to this thread
I am de-lurking myself
Hi

Hi dj!
Jump on in any time dj - great people here!:T :T :T
When you feel ready, tell us a little more about yourself - we're good listeners and may even have ideas that could help.;) Take care hun.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi kate!:hello:
I'm sure you've already had all the answers you need from the team here hun. How are you?

quote=_Kate_Thanks all for the very warm welcome I'm sure i dont have to tell you people how much it meant to be readily accepted in my current state!
I think we all know on here angel what it's like to feel left out and misunderstood. You're more than welcome anytime kate!;) We've all been there sweetie.

I hope this doesnt come across as a stupid pat
ronising question but it's the only thing that is stopping me from hauling myself to the docs.
There's no stupid questions on here kate - (can't guarantee my answers though!:rolleyes: ) - and it's important if it's stopping you from going to the drs.

I am depressed, i know i am....it is now getting to a point that it's ruining mine and my family's life. There are, in my mind, some very specific reasons which are making me feel down.
You express yourself very well kate. You seem to have a fair insight into how you feel and what's making you feel that way. This is positive angel.
Because of your own insight kate, you know inside that you need help and that you're struggling hun. This alone should be your reason for going to the drs. Don't worry about talking to them - they'll likely have heard it all before hun. You seem ready to accept help. However, it's always best to let the dr properly diagnose any problem hun - just to be sure. There are different kinds of depression and mental ill health, all of which may need a different approach hun.;)

If i was to go on medication who does it work? Obviously it doesn't resolve the situations and circumstances which have led to feel like this in the first place. Does it just make it easier to cope? Does it make you see these things different/more balanced? As i can appreciate that i'm not particularly stable atm so might be blowing some things out of proportion.
If you asked each one of us hun, you'll get several different answers to your questions. This is because we, our mental ill health and the treatments are tailor-made for the person concerned.

You're right kate. Meds won't take away your problems. What they can do is help you to create a balance and that will leave you in a better state to deal with any problems you may have. If, for example, one symptom is anxiety, a med can make a huge difference to some people and because they're dealing with the anxiety, they're able to feel more in control or able to cope.

Basically what i really wanna know is does medication work? or is it just one part of it?
Thanks in advance
Kate/quote
It isn't just meds that are on offer hun. There are other treatments which may be offered to you as well as meds., eg., formal counselling. With your whole care package, it's likely that you'll see things in a more balanced way if that is what your problem is. There are so many resources angel and your gp is the gateway to all of them. In the end, it won't matter what the combination, if any, there is if it works and helps you to resolve your issues angel. You are looked at as a whole person hun and they'll try to help you in whatever aspects they can.;)

I'd just like to say angel that it is crucial to be completely
honest with your gp. If you don't tell them the whole problem, you won't get all the help. Don't put off seeing your gp any longer hun - you're just delaying your recovery.;) And remember kate, if you're unsure about anything, ask for an explanation. What your feeling is completely natural angel ok? Keep us posted hun. Thinking of you.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

mclaren_2

Hi guys - ive decided to go to the GP tomorow - i cant do this on my own, and today has been hard.

Not been the best birthday though - was told that in the early hours of this morning, my cousin who was battling with sistic fibrosis all his life had died. was only 25yr old anaw.

Part of me thinks i am being completly selfish now. My cousin has just died, and i am thinking about me. I dont even know where to begin to start to think........ my mind is mush right now

mclaren_2

Tiff wrote: »

I think when our self-esteem gets so low, we feel very self conscious and worry about what people think or what might go wrong and we try and draw up plans the size of a NATO exercise to combat them. I don't like eating out either. Oh hun, I'm sorry you ran out of the place. [

Hi Tiff

I have always worried about what other people think of me. Ever since i was bullied at school (when i was 9) i have always been this way. I even have it when i am out in the street, and i hear people laughing or talking, i think its about me!

Ran out of the place cos it was crouded (i hate crouds - but i AM okay at a football match...... wierd) but there were too many people talking, i just panicked.......