Depression

rose07

razorbladekisses wrote: »

ROSIE

xxx

It seems that you've lost a lot of your support network since you went in to have your operation. Perhaps that is why you are starting to feel really low again. Have you heard from your counsellor recently?

When you go to your hospital appointment tomorrow make sure you tell them how much pain your are in. Maybe they will be able to prescribe you a stronger painkiller.

Who visited you today hun?

aww thanks hun

how are you doing?

No i havent heard from my councellor recently, i think it might be time to give her a ring tho, i have her mobile incase of emergency, so maybe now is the time, will have a think bout it.

All my support has gone atm tho, it does seem hard going. Little things really getting to me.

And the hospital appointment went very painfully, they were taking my stitches out, but the thing was my skin was already healing up over the stitches. so the nurse was cutting my skin, and the pain was excruciating, call me a baby, but it was sore. In a cast now for 6 more weeks. Can feel the pain still. But i have my pain killers and anti inflammetries now. Luckily i know the pharmacist and i can put in what i need and pick it up so got what i needed today. . So now got soo much meds it scarees me :eek:

The same friend that visited me today, thats twice in a week :eek: . Its not good hun :cool:

hope you doing ok hun, and keeping up the work and studies.

take care xxxx

rose07

flis21 wrote: »

Hi Rosie,

You are really going through it. But remember it will get better. As for running out of painkillers, I did that about 4 days after I got out of hospital, I tried phoning my local GP surgery and they just kept fobbing me off. Anyway, My Mum ended up going down there and refusing to leave until they sorted me out with some!! (Bless her).

Yes you can go in the hospital and say your foot is sore. Is it still in plaster cast? Are they changing the cast? I had my initial cast on for about 2 weeks, then they changed it for a 'walking cast' for 6 weeks.

Anyway, just wanted to say I can totally empathise with you for your situation and let you know that it will improve, but it takes time.

I am over 3 months post op now and still walking with a limp and can't walk too far / fast, have trouble with stairs / slopes etc, but it does get better and week on week I can do a little more.

Sending you all my thoughts n hugs.

Flis

Hi Flis

how are you doing?

thanks for your good wishes, it really helps

Yeah, guess i am really going through it atm, guess its just the way hun. Hoping i will feel a bit better now that i have some pain killers and anti inflammetries.

Yeah, i still have a cast hun, the pain that it is, its starting to get itchy now too, all this hot weather, not helping,

There are soo many things thats seem to be getting to me atm. Im not being treated too well either, seems to be an effort if i ask for help or anything from my parents. and my mum is in a deep decline to the point she went up the stairs before saying im off to kill myself, i dont know what she expects me to do, run after her, i cant, i just cant cope with this environment its tearing me apart.

I cant put any weight on my foot, so i need to rely on those around me, not that it gets me anywhere. Im being left on me own all day tomorrow, so i guess im gonna have to get along one way or another. Im still feeling very low, just seem to be sooo stuck. My weight really getting to me too im on Mirtazipine thats making me put on weight, which is making me feel lower, and my mum not helping by making horrible comments about my weight and me in general, i need support and love right now and im not getting it.

take care flis and everyone

xxxxx

EthelBloggs

hiya everyone..

Just a quickie from me to say thanks for all the emails and pm's. It means a lot x

Nothings happening yet because I've come down with a dose of otitis and I'm in real bad pain, feverish, can't hear, hardly talk or chew or swallow and the dr has given me something with morphine in it to try n help the pain.. it doesn't touch the pain but it does knock me out nicely, lol

I reckon i'll be like this for about a week and im not in a fit state to handle antyhing so.. its all on hold fo now. on the plus side b/f is being really nict o me and looking after me with drinks n meds n stuff...

doctr that came out this morn wasn't my usual one and he let slip that my blood tests dint come back all normal so the receptonsit gave me wrong info.. he said i'll need more tests but i dint' really take it all in, seeing my gp on tuesday so i'l fnd otu then

tke care you all xx

Let_Robinson_Sing

rose07 wrote: »

aww thanks hun

how are you doing?

No i havent heard from my councellor recently, i think it might be time to give her a ring tho, i have her mobile incase of emergency, so maybe now is the time, will have a think bout it.

All my support has gone atm tho, it does seem hard going. Little things really getting to me.

And the hospital appointment went very painfully, they were taking my stitches out, but the thing was my skin was already healing up over the stitches. so the nurse was cutting my skin, and the pain was excruciating, call me a baby, but it was sore. In a cast now for 6 more weeks. Can feel the pain still. But i have my pain killers and anti inflammetries now. Luckily i know the pharmacist and i can put in what i need and pick it up so got what i needed today. . So now got soo much meds it scarees me :eek:

The same friend that visited me today, thats twice in a week :eek: . Its not good hun :cool:

hope you doing ok hun, and keeping up the work and studies.

take care xxxx

Rose hun,

Dont feel like a baby. You were not a baby at all. If it's painful there is no shame in letting out a good scream lol. I did it when i had my stitches out a few years ago. hopefully those pain killers and AI'S will do their work :cool:

mclaren_2

hi guys, im still about - just trying to take 1 day at a time - thought about going back to GP, still not called up yet though. bit worried what he will say.

ive not had time to read thru the posts, ill do that tomorow

btw - miss RBK, do you want me to write you a diagram on how to text back lol

Let_Robinson_Sing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ozVxiQcqFQ8

this might cheer you guys up for a bit. i had a good chuckle

Tiff_2

Karrie wrote: »

Hi GL. Thank you for your reply. You are right, it helps so much to write things down. I always feel slightly better for doing so. It only takes a reply like yours to make my head realise that I am ill. You know, I've even started writing a diary for my son incase something happens to me and I want my son to have something to remember me by!! How ridiculous is that? How can I even consider not being around for my son?

I will mention the side affects to my gp. Amitryptiline never gave me any side affects apart from a dry mouth.

Hi karrie!:hello:
How are you hun? I hope things are quieter for you atm. I agree with our lovely gem hun. :T

If you want to rant, big pile of cushions and pillows, beat the carp out of them and have a good cry - it works wonders!;) Also you can write down everything that's upsetting you, how you feel etc in a literary rant and then enjoy tearing it to shreds! Some people show it to their counsellors/dr.

We're all poorly here hun to different degrees - you're not any different from the rest of us. You may feel overwhelmed because time is so new to you angel and you don't know what to expect. Don't expect anything hun - it's too stressful.;)

Starting a diary/journal for your son is a good idea karrie! It can be used for many things hun - as a way of remembering these times together, to bring you close to him if you had to go into hospital, a family story, a way of showing you as a person and not 'just' a mum. It's not bad to keep a diary hun at all.

I'd also suggest keeping a separate one for yourself, where you are completely honest.
Set the same time every day to write in it, describe what you've done, eaten, planned, slept and how you felt before and after all these things. This will be a great tool if you stick to it, because you will start to see the little steps of improvement angel. You can follow your own progress.

And when times are really hard, you can look back and hopefully you'll see that, either you were worse than this before or when you were like this before, it was only temporary and your mood improved. This will help to encourage you. It will also show you when you're not looking after yourself properly.;)

I don't know if this helps hun - just Tiffy thoughts.:rolleyes:
Take care karrie.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi rbk!:hello:
How are you hun? It sounds like you're doing really well with work and are settling back in nicely - proud of you.:T

quote=razorbladekisses
My ex whom I broke up with last week was nasty to me the other day. He sent me a text message on Wed/Thurs(?) telling me how he had met someone last Saturday and how they got on amazingly well. Now, I'm happy for him to meet new people but I just don't want to be told about it. It's cruel and upsetting.
Reply text :
Hi. Thanks for telling me your good news. That's great! I hope you'll be very happy together. It just goes to show that ending our time was the right decision to make. Sorry this is so late getting back to you - I would have replied sooner, but I was away with a friend for the weekend. I'm absolutely exhausted!
end text.
Hey guys - I've graduated from Tiff letters to Tiffy texts!:rolleyes:

There was a deliberate way of trying to upset you hun - why would you be interested in his conquests?! Of course he may have been very tipsy but still he should have apologised the next day.

Also on the Monday evening (considering he met her on Sat) he was still trying to get back with me! :mad: Anyway, I guess it's for the best that we broke up. He didn't care about me anyway and was always busy with his friends to see me...
Well angel, if you want to go back to him, do it - only you know what will make you happy. There must have been good reasons for you to finish it with him.;)

My other ex who still owes me money :mad: I am in the process of taking him to court. I'm now at the stage ready to issue a warrant. I just need £55 in order to do so. He's another loser. I really hate men atm.
Now don't make any hasty decisions hun!:eek: I know you don't mean the guys on here.:D Good guys do exist.;)

Maybe you could set out a little rule list for yourself angel, outlining what you want from a relationship. Like...
1. He must be sober when he says he likes me.
2. I do not lend out money.
3. He will treat me with respect and affection.
4. He will show as much interest in me, as he does himself.
5. I will take time to make decisions, even if I feel sure of the answer immediately. I will think it through.

You get the idea hun.;)

A friend from work retired last month but the leaving thing wasn't arranged until April. So last night we all went out for a meal. Normally I would have been far too scared to go and made up some excuse. This time though I went YAY :j I was very nervous and anxious prior to going and took a few anxiety pills which did seem to help. I feel proud of myself. I did have a good time though. It was a lovely restaurant and the food was yummy. I am very fussy with food and usually avoid eating out in public (it's a huge fear) but I did it :j
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Things I have yet to face fully!:eek: Well done angel!:T When we're afraid of doing something and try to pull out, we're not always doing the right thing. That can just underline the anxiety and make us retreat from the situation even more. I'm glad you had a great time hun - you deserved it.:T Take care angel.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi mac!:hello:
Good to hear from you again angel.:T
What have you been up to hun?

quote=mclaren
Both of your ex's sound like a*seholes. If he keeps texting you, you could contact the phone company and tell them that you keep getting hastled and they can change your number for free. I know its not a good option, but atleast that way, he wont beable to contact you.
As for your other ex - its good that you're taking him to court. He will have to pay you back court costs aswell - im 100% behind you on that one
I totally agree hun.

As for hating men - were not all that bad .... or are we..... lol
Erm...............:D No, of course not - just as all women are not bad.;)

Its great that you went out though for a meal! I know exactly what you mean when you go out, i am extremly self conchous and never eat out - i would have a panic attack if i did probably - well i did the last time - just ran out of the place
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I think when our self-esteem gets so low, we feel very self conscious and worry about what people think or what might go wrong and we try and draw up plans the size of a NATO exercise to combat them. I don't like eating out either. Oh hun, I'm sorry you ran out of the place.
I do hope you weren't chased by a waiter with a bill.:D
I think the best way to do it is to start with a coffee, move onto lunch with a sandwich and graduate to dinners out.
On the other hand, not eating out will save you lots of money so is very MSE!:rolleyes:
Keep us posted hun - take care.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Tiff finally reaches page 240...:rolleyes:

Hi again mac!:hello:
quote=mclarenWell i thought i was finished posting in here - but i guess not.....
And there's no harm in that angel.;)

bout 8 weeks ago, i went to GP as my mood was going down a bit - she told me to restart the AD's - so i did, but then i started having breathing problems caused by bronchitice, chest infection and asthma all together - so for 6 weeks, i was completly drained.
I still am drained now, hardly any energy to do anything. I even tried meditation again - worked for a while, felt good but today im just back down again.
I'm sorry you've been so poorly mac.:o No wonder you're drained hun - it may take a couple of months to get back to health fully after all that.

if i had to put ma mood on a scale 1 - 100 1 being worst it would be about 15 today. I just fear that i am going to hit that bottom step again. Last time i was there, i ended up with a slashed arm, bruises n headaches with bashinn ma head of a wall.
Ok hun, then you know it's time to go back to the drs. You've been very ill mac and that's also bound to affect your depression. I would imagine that the drs will run some physical tests too hun, just to make sure you are getting physically well.

And you know you'll have to talk about your mood too mac. If you're already getting alarm bells ringing about your mental health, please go see the dr asap. Don't wait until it reaches crisis point.;) Nobody wants to go back to that bottom step angel, but try and think of it as a different step. Try not to focus too much on how you were or it can reinforce and maybe pre-empt how you feel now.

The bad part of it all - is i hate to moan. the past week, i have put a mask on. Lied to myself, saying its okay, and i am okay - telling every1 i am perfect, and better, and feeling great - when inside ive been an absolut wreck.
Denial is an amazing thing mac! You're not moaning angel - you're poorly! how long would you leave a bleeding cut before you got it treated hun? Although it's good sometimes to have that old Dunkirk spirit, there comes a time (NOW!;) ), when you need to get extra support hun.

I also feel that i cant go back to my GP as i have been to see the GP about 9 times in the past 3 months - only once about my DP and 8 times about asthma /chest infection / bronchitice.
Sweetie, the dr would rather see you now than later. By not going hun, you're delaying your recovery. There are no limits as to how often you need to see your gp angel. Please don't feel bad about going again. You know you're going to have to go sooner or later angel - don't let yourself suffer any more than you need to.:o

In control of the asthma and that now but when i get agitated, my anxiaty takes over, causing some panic attacks, which in turn brings on the asthma worse - which makes me not breathe, which in turn makes me panic more and anxiaty gets worse .... visious circle!/quote
It is a vicious circle mac and I do empathise with you.:o The obvious answer is not to get agitated but to do that, you need to be getting the right help hun and doing lots of relaxation exercises. Break everything down into small chunks as you did before mac.

Once we feel 'well', sometimes we tend to stop doing all the things we were shown to get better (eg. relaxation.). It's a useful tool for anyone to know how to relax themselves and cool off from a situation, how to regain control. As with anything else hun, if you don't use it, you'll lose it.;)

What you need to remember is that you improved your mental ill health before angel and you can do it again!:T Why not make that appointment and get started on your recovery mac? Any dr that has a problem seeing a patient should not be a dr imho.
And you haven't failed in any way either mac - though you may feel that way. You just need a little extra help right now.;)
Hope this helped a little hun. Keep us posted angel and take care. Be kind to yourself mac.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx