Depression

EthelBloggs

hi guys...

Sorry I've not been about, just not had the energy to post much at all lately. I feel tired, very drained and just blah about everything. I'm retreating away from people and isolating myself again. I've not got dressed properly in days and I'm ashamed to say not had a bath or a shower either I just can't seem to summon up the energy for anything. I know a lot of you have bigger problems than me at the moment and I'm sorry I'm about as much help as a chocolate welly boot but I wish you all the best.

I have realised something tho.. that I do get much worse around this time of year every year so I think its time I took Ted's advice

I'll be around.. just need a bit of a break I think xxxxx

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

hi guys...

Sorry I've not been about, just not had the energy to post much at all lately. I feel tired, very drained and just blah about everything. I'm retreating away from people and isolating myself again. I've not got dressed properly in days and I'm ashamed to say not had a bath or a shower either I just can't seem to summon up the energy for anything. I know a lot of you have bigger problems than me at the moment and I'm sorry I'm about as much help as a chocolate welly boot but I wish you all the best.

I have realised something tho.. that I do get much worse around this time of year every year so I think its time I took Ted's advice

I'll be around.. just need a bit of a break I think xxxxx

You take it easy hun. You've had a lot to deal with yourself so don't apologise at all. Get some rest. We're here when you need us ok? Much love, Sazbombxxx

geminilady

rose07 wrote:

Hi everyone feelie, saz, tiff, ccstar, pp, gl, elona, gillette, ethel, mrs a, kronas and any other newbies and people of our family xxxx

ok soz not been on in a while lots going on for rosie atm

a friend showed me this link and it made me smile i hope it can make some of you smile too

http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/

i hope none of you will take offence by it, click on link an then press view presentation button, then wait to load then watch

xxxxxxx

Hi Tiff,I don't see how anyone could take offence of the link,it made me smile and there are some beautiful pictures in it worth taking a look just to see them

Miroslav

learning_to_drive wrote:

Thanks Miro, as you say, unless you are happy, whats the point? I wont quit until I get something else, I have a few things lined up but I intend to stay there until I am sorted out. Hopefully soon, I just want to be on days and have a bit of a life, ASDA is good dont get me wrong, but I am hopefully over the rough patch because Ive sorted out my financial issues.

I stayed in jobs that made me more unwell and I realise now I should have got out.

Once you start feeling bad about your job, then is the time to step up the search for something new.

Good luck with finding something in the daytime.

Miroslav

rose07 wrote:

anyone about for a chat? xxx

:wave:

*Davina Miro is going to speak to the house*

And the winner of Big Brother is..................Rose!!!!!

Of course, it's next years Celebrity Big Brother

Miroslav

I was doing so well this week, well after the initial shock, the past 3 days, no tears, just depression.

This evening, a few tears, the unwillingness to live.....

Flatmate told me earlier she doesn't want to see or hear from 'S' for a while, as she's really angry at her for what she has done, considering she kept changing her mind/messing me about.

Whilst I wouldn't hurt her, my flatmate said feels so angry, she couldn't guarantee she wouldn't hurt her in some way, and my flatmate isn't a spiteful person in any way.

She said anyone that comes inbetween our friendship she is bound to feel anger for.

'S' hurting me has come between us, because i'm not the usual Miro

Flatmate also feels guilty as she was the one who introduced us and the one 'S' talked to about me, and last Thursday she spent alot of time with her as 'S' was saying how much she wanted to be with me.

Flatmate understands 'S' has problems, but also knows her manners and attitude could be alot better.

geminilady

Sazbo wrote:

Hi gemini hun :hello: Sounds like a nice day planned there. I don't think I'll be moving very from my sofa, TV and laptop today!:D You heard anymore from N?
Sazx

Hi Sazbo,Hope you enjoyed your day,the best thing about weekend is no work lol.I had a few texts yesterday from "N" but seldom get any at the weekend.There isn't much sign of him backing off as he said he would but no progress either.I have been patient for 4 yrs thinking he would eventualy trust me and open up but i don't think it is going to happen.I understand it is his way of protecting himself but i need to feal an emotional closeness to have a relationship, without that sex is just that sex,think i would rather do without.Maybe if we meet more often we will get closer,i just don't know,he has said he wants to meet again but its been nearly three months so he is not exactly in a rush lol.I think i fill some sort of need as he quickly changed his mind about backing off but what that is i really don't know.I don't think it will be long until there is some sort of conlusion though because i think i am going to start pushing for answers and he won't like it and i proberly won't like his responses either.We shall see.

geminilady

Miroslav wrote:

I was doing so well this week, well after the initial shock, the past 3 days, no tears, just depression.

This evening, a few tears, the unwillingness to live.....

Flatmate told me earlier she doesn't want to see or hear from 'S' for a while, as she's really angry at her for what she has done, considering she kept changing her mind/messing me about.

Whilst I wouldn't hurt her, my flatmate said feels so angry, she couldn't guarantee she wouldn't hurt her in some way, and my flatmate isn't a spiteful person in any way.

She said anyone that comes inbetween our friendship she is bound to feel anger for.

'S' hurting me has come between us, because i'm not the usual Miro

Flatmate also feels guilty as she was the one who introduced us and the one 'S' talked to about me, and last Thursday she spent alot of time with her as 'S' was saying how much she wanted to be with me.

Flatmate understands 'S' has problems, but also knows her manners and attitude could be alot better.

Hi Miro, You ARE doing well,today has just been a bad day you are bound to get them it is very early days.As to your flatmate,i can understand her being angry with "S". She has been your flatmate for a long time and obviously really cares about you and she is the one who can see you hurting.It is not easy to see a much loved friend in pain.She proberly feals frustrated and helpless that she cannot "fix" things for you.It was good to hear you are going to apply for some charity work,it might be good for you to get out of the flat and might fill a little of your need to help people.Also why not plan a little trip out with your flatmate if even for a coffee somewhere it is suprising how just a change of inviroment can make a differance.

Miroslav

geminilady wrote:

Hi Miro, You ARE doing well,today has just been a bad day you are bound to get them it is very early days.As to your flatmate,i can understand her being angry with "S". She has been your flatmate for a long time and obviously really cares about you and she is the one who can see you hurting.It is not easy to see a much loved friend in pain.She proberly feals frustrated and helpless that she cannot "fix" things for you.It was good to hear you are going to apply for some charity work,it might be good for you to get out of the flat and might fill a little of your need to help people.Also why not plan a little trip out with your flatmate if even for a coffee somewhere it is suprising how just a change of inviroment can make a differance.

At the moment, I just can't see a future without 'S'..........okay, I know there must be a future, but it's too difficult right now.

Flatmate for 14 years last Saturday :eek: Shame the next day was 'S' saying goodbye. Bit weird actually 5th - last time saw 'S', 6th - Flatmate anniversary, 7th - letter from 'S', 8th - 17 years since met partner who passed away - a nice set of anniversaries there :eek:

Flatmate is frustrated, She admitted recently, the only reason 'S' was around for Xmas and New Year was for me - she didn't overly want her here, she gets tired of 'S's self pity very quickly.

I hope the Charity Shop comes off - PDSA so a cause dear to me. Flatmate and I go out most days for a drink - okay it's cheaper at home, but it's more about getting out. We walk to the shop most days too.

Didn't do either today, flatmate mis-judged time. I was miserable anyway, but that capped off my day and didn't want to go out on my own

Miroslav

geminilady wrote:

Hi Sazbo,Hope you enjoyed your day,the best thing about weekend is no work lol.I had a few texts yesterday from "N" but seldom get any at the weekend.There isn't much sign of him backing off as he said he would but no progress either.I have been patient for 4 yrs thinking he would eventualy trust me and open up but i don't think it is going to happen.I understand it is his way of protecting himself but i need to feal an emotional closeness to have a relationship, without that sex is just that sex,think i would rather do without.Maybe if we meet more often we will get closer,i just don't know,he has said he wants to meet again but its been nearly three months so he is not exactly in a rush lol.I think i fill some sort of need as he quickly changed his mind about backing off but what that is i really don't know.I don't think it will be long until there is some sort of conlusion though because i think i am going to start pushing for answers and he won't like it and i proberly won't like his responses either.We shall see.

You deserve a gold star for your patience. I couldn't have a 'relationship' like that :eek: