Depression

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

:eek:

Cuppa overload

Never! :rotfl:

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Never! :rotfl:

Well, flatmate and I are off out for a tea/coffee. Can't drink too much of it, makes me feel poisoned


Flatmate is then going to a friends - I hate being on my own at the moment, so will need to find something to do. Darts final is on, but my concentration is pants right now

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Well, flatmate and I are off out for a tea/coffee. Can't drink too much of it, makes me feel poisoned


Flatmate is then going to a friends - I hate being on my own at the moment, so will need to find something to do. Darts final is on, but my concentration is pants right now

Yeah, although that's not on till later. I'm gonna have a long soak in the bath, then may go out see folks, or do some shopping, haven't decided yet. But you take care today. Love sazxx

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Yeah, although that's not on till later. I'm gonna have a long soak in the bath, then may go out see folks, or do some shopping, haven't decided yet. But you take care today. Love sazxx

Have a nice relaxing day :wave:

I hate Sunday's now - 1 week since my note. Amazing how things can affect you.

:wave:

queensway_boy

Big HUgs to everyone



sorry i can't come in proper yet x

.........

Sazbo

geminilady wrote:

Hi Sazbo,Hope you enjoyed your day,the best thing about weekend is no work lol.I had a few texts yesterday from "N" but seldom get any at the weekend.There isn't much sign of him backing off as he said he would but no progress either.I have been patient for 4 yrs thinking he would eventualy trust me and open up but i don't think it is going to happen.I understand it is his way of protecting himself but i need to feal an emotional closeness to have a relationship, without that sex is just that sex,think i would rather do without.Maybe if we meet more often we will get closer,i just don't know,he has said he wants to meet again but its been nearly three months so he is not exactly in a rush lol.I think i fill some sort of need as he quickly changed his mind about backing off but what that is i really don't know.I don't think it will be long until there is some sort of conlusion though because i think i am going to start pushing for answers and he won't like it and i proberly won't like his responses either.We shall see.

You're so right - best thing is no work at weekend, don't know about you but I always start feeling down on a Sunday night at the thought of having to go back to work in the morning... :sad: But that will all change when I win the lottery this week

Easy for me to say I know, but maybe best if there is a conclusion of some kind with N. I know that low self-esteem makes you feel you don't deserve better, but at the same time if he had any regard for you he would not keep you hanging on all that time. Only my thoughts hun. Just seems a little unfair to me hun, that's all. Love Sazxx

Sazbo

queensway_boy wrote:

Big HUgs to everyone



sorry i can't come in proper yet x

.........

No probs QB. Take your time. We appreciate the elasticated hugs in the meantime!

Sazx

learning_to_drive

Hi guys,

Rung up counsellor people on Friday evening so hopefully I should hear something soon, after tonight I'm not in again till Wednesday evening so that's something to work towards. Its a !!!!!! time for me, I need the stability but Im going to look for something else, Ive made a list of jobs that appeal on the internet and Im going to apply for them later on.

Banking appeals, I wont have my car so Ill have some money to spend, accesbile by public transport, its customer facing and its something that I dont know too well either. I feel Im over the problems Ive had, I just think that im better than working nights, im 21 and I have no quality of life because im just zombified all the time. Its getting me down more than anything else because im of sounder mind now, but the job is holding me back because I cant do anything through the day. Its swung the full circle.

Ive rung Natwest too as I had a job with them offered but said no cos of the car, but i rung him on fri evening and said i was selling the car so if he could consider me i would be grateful. Its all about finding out at this stage, depression leaves you feeling down and not having the natural drive / thoughts so the best way to discover things is to actually try them out for yourself.

I know its another job move, but as miro said, if you aint happy, you aint happy, retail is retail, I dont mind it at all, but I just kept having the recurring thoughts that I should be really doing more with my life than letting my depression win and taking me back to retail...

rose07

hi everyone, feelies, tiffy, saz, gillette, ltd, miro and anyone else xxx

soz but not got much energy to post today

im exhausted

im having an emotional day today .

tidying my room, and coming across some things from my last relationship, just cards, notes and some things like that and trying to decide whether to bin things and put her truly behind me, truth is my mates have said i cant move on till i get rid of everything that reminds me off her, so that is what i am doing, i cant live in the past no more, ittime tolive for the future.

this is one of the notes i found tbh it brought a tear to me eye, as its from after me and her had a fight

"My darling rose

I want to tell you how much i love you
I want you to know you mean everything to me, and i am very sorry that i have hurt you.

I am sorry i overreact when what you need is love and support.

I am sorry that i make myself responsible for everything all the time, this must make you confused, angry and upset.

i am sorry that i hijack discussions onto myself when you need me.

I will do my best to change these things and i hope we will be better for it

All my love always
.............
xxxx"




this brings up soo many questions for me. which is why it needs to all be now put to rest, better to have loved and lost right?

And to all that are struggling in love/life at the moment, you will get there

Love is something that can break us, heal us, and make us stronger.

And life we only get one chance

ok time to go hide under duvet , hope you all ok, keep safe

Much love all

xxxxx

learning_to_drive

Bless, come out from under that duvet!!!

It does get better, it ALWAYS gets better! Believe me