Depression

feelinggood_2

Can feelie have a hug?

Pumpkin_Pie_5

feelinggood wrote:

Can feelie have a hug?

HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG:grouphug: HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG

You OK hun?

feelinggood_2

Pumpkin_Pie wrote:

HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG:grouphug: HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG

You OK hun?

I'm okay, just a little sad

Pumpkin_Pie_5

Then more hugs, virtual calorie free choccy, and more hugs coming your way hun.

geminilady

rose07 wrote:

hi everyone, feelies, tiffy, saz, gillette, ltd, miro and anyone else xxx

soz but not got much energy to post today

im exhausted

im having an emotional day today .

tidying my room, and coming across some things from my last relationship, just cards, notes and some things like that and trying to decide whether to bin things and put her truly behind me, truth is my mates have said i cant move on till i get rid of everything that reminds me off her, so that is what i am doing, i cant live in the past no more, ittime tolive for the future.

this is one of the notes i found tbh it brought a tear to me eye, as its from after me and her had a fight

"My darling rose

I want to tell you how much i love you
I want you to know you mean everything to me, and i am very sorry that i have hurt you.

I am sorry i overreact when what you need is love and support.

I am sorry that i make myself responsible for everything all the time, this must make you confused, angry and upset.

i am sorry that i hijack discussions onto myself when you need me.

I will do my best to change these things and i hope we will be better for it

All my love always
.............
xxxx"




this brings up soo many questions for me. which is why it needs to all be now put to rest, better to have loved and lost right?

And to all that are struggling in love/life at the moment, you will get there

Love is something that can break us, heal us, and make us stronger.

And life we only get one chance

ok time to go hide under duvet , hope you all ok, keep safe

Much love all

xxxxx

Hi Rose,Sorry you are fealing emotional it can be draining.Not sure if its a good or bad thing to bin your letters ect. I know you need to move on and we can't live in the past but all realtionships contain good and bad.It is a lovely letter thanks for sharing,don't think i could bin it,would not keep it close but maybe put it in the attic,of course you have to do what is best for you.You are right saying better to have loved and lost and"Love is something that can break us, heal us, and make us stronger. "but how empty life would be without it.

learning_to_drive

I feel better now im actually getting things sorted, money, hopefully get a decent day job, that i could get into, I could get into anything now because I have no stress in personal life, I was worrying bout life things at work and then at home was worrying about personal / work and money worries.

Ive applied for tonnes of jobs, all in customer facing roles, including one dealing with customer complaints at thomas cook head office, I could do anything, ive tried out loads and It wasnt me trying it, it was my unhappy self just not knowing anything. Plus ive rung natwest and they remain my first choice.

geminilady

learning_to_drive wrote:

I feel better now im actually getting things sorted, money, hopefully get a decent day job, that i could get into, I could get into anything now because I have no stress in personal life, I was worrying bout life things at work and then at home was worrying about personal / work and money worries.

Ive applied for tonnes of jobs, all in customer facing roles, including one dealing with customer complaints at thomas cook head office, I could do anything, ive tried out loads and It wasnt me trying it, it was my unhappy self just not knowing anything. Plus ive rung natwest and they remain my first choice.

Hi LTD Glad you are fealing better today you certainly sound a lot more posative.Hope you get the job at natwest but as you have applied for loads it will not be long till you find something.Maybe looking at the Asda job as a stopgap will make the nights a bit easier,you know its not for ever and as you are only doing three nights you can catch up on your sleep the rest of the week.

learning_to_drive

Exactly, its simply a stopgap, now ive got everything under control I can give anything a real good go without being down and stuff, I can allow myself to moan about the job because thats the only thing. At the minute my job is my life i dont have a great deal else going on because of money issues and etc. But once that is sorted out I can actually have some money to myself and enjoy the weekends and nights out etc.

I just want to get onto days and just chill out in a job that doesnt really matter too much, but i can do well in, than put my life on hold, if I was to do nights properly which is something i dont want to do.

I just think that tonight could be my last night, my parents are concerned that im jumping from job to job too much but I would say that my happiness comes before everything and that I was picking apart the reasons when I was sorting out my life, didnt know what was causing the problems, now I know its money its helped that i am sorted out once ive bought and then sold the car.

geminilady

learning_to_drive wrote:

Exactly, its simply a stopgap, now ive got everything under control I can give anything a real good go without being down and stuff, I can allow myself to moan about the job because thats the only thing. At the minute my job is my life i dont have a great deal else going on because of money issues and etc. But once that is sorted out I can actually have some money to myself and enjoy the weekends and nights out etc.

I just want to get onto days and just chill out in a job that doesnt really matter too much, but i can do well in, than put my life on hold, if I was to do nights properly which is something i dont want to do.

I just think that tonight could be my last night, my parents are concerned that im jumping from job to job too much but I would say that my happiness comes before everything and that I was picking apart the reasons when I was sorting out my life, didnt know what was causing the problems, now I know its money its helped that i am sorted out once ive bought and then sold the car.

Well as the mum of a 22 yr old i can understand your parents being concerned about you jumping from job to job,of course your happiness comes first but you have to think how it looks on your cv.Thought you were going to stick at asda until you got another job?

learning_to_drive

Thought you were going to stick at asda until you got another job?

Oh I am! Not a question Ill stick it until I get something else, its not too bad really, but nice to know that a move is imminent into something that I can get my teeth into and focus upon.