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blinky

razorbladekisses wrote: »

I have a social worker and a psychiatrist but don't see them very much.

Talk to your GP or psychiatrist about accessing a CPN (community psychiatric nurse). It is very worrying that you have tried 3 overdoses in 6 weeks. You need more help than you are currently getting. I can understand your parents being so protective in the circumstances. In order to get some more freedom back they would have to know you aren't likely to harm yourself and at the moment they feel they can't trust you on this.

Hope this helps in someway.

Big hugs

EthelBloggs

Morning everyone :wave:

I duno how I feel at the mo.. on the one hand I'm pleased cos my diet is working.. got asked if I've lost weight yesterday.. big ego boost that was... and things are going really well with b/f.. I think a lot of our problems was down to the stress of the situation with my daughter. We're all a lot less tense, son included and it feels like a happy home again. And.. I've been offered a car.. just haggling over the price a bit now, lol. I'm not too bothered if my offer isn't accepted.. I've managed this long without and I can carry on without.. but it really would make life a lot easier. I'm just not willing to spend too much money to have it, lol. Stingy? me? never!!!

But at the same time, I'm feeling sort of spaced out.. like I'm not really here or something, hard to describe really.

Got a meeting this afternoon :rolleyes: yeah.. another one.. about my daughter's progress etc and I think it's expected that she'll come home this weekend for a while.. they've already got all the care and support workers in place ready, lol. Not sure how I feel about that really.. but we'll see.

I've been reading but I don't have the brainpower to respond at the mo, I hope you're all fine..

Lots of love
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Let_Robinson_Sing

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Let_Robinson_Sing, Hope you are OK. How's college?

Well, its going ok to be honest. English department have sent a letter home to M & D advising of after college lessons to help boost up grades, so I will be going to that . Business studies is same old really, one assignment that we are doing is creating a business plan and in mine I am trying to make a pizza takeaway, So I was in Makro last night pricing everything up *geek.* Law is going ok, well i say ok, i did fail all my law exams but I have already started revising, so fingers crossed i can get decent grades in that.

I am off to Leeds tonight to watch my beloved Preston North End and hoping that our starlet David Nugent can score some goals tonight.

I am off on holiday on Saturday to Croatia for a week. I am staying with OH for a few days in Bournemouth before going and I am REALLY looking forward to it. Mother is hasseling me about packing though :mad:

I hope you are ok Sweetie!

xx

Tiff_2

Hi rbk!
How are you angel?
I'm so glad you're talking to us so openly and honestly hun.:T It's really important that you keep communicating with people.;)

quote=razorbladekisses
I've overdosed 3 times in the last 6 weeks. They are probably worried about me and what I might do but being so overprotective isn't helping. I know they care and all that but I just need some space and time alone.
Thank you for your kind post hun.
What you wrote here to gem, is important angel.
If someone came to you hun and said, 'I've overdosed 3 times in 6 weeks' as well as the other comments, I know you'd be one of the first to shout out 'see your dr. now'

Sweetheart, it'll probably get me on your hit list, but the last thing you need right now is to be left alone. I know you won't see it like that hun but it's true. They are doing their jobs as parents hun - they're not being over-protective when you think about why they're doing this... because the daughter they love has tried suicide 3 times in 6 weeks.

Tiff, No, I can't guarantee that I won't overdose again. In fact I still want to.
I do tend to isolate myself. I see my room as a safe place to be. It's just me. No-one watching over me.
I can see what you're saying Tiff. Perhaps I'll just have to persevere with things until I'm trusted more. It still makes me very :mad: though.

Today Mum/Dad said to me when I'm back at work and return home in the evenings that I should stay downstairs with them until about 9 o clock :mad:
Angel, I think, imho, that you are feeling frustrated for exactly the point you make in your second sentence. You still want to do it. Because you are still so poorly hun, please don't trust yourself.

Several failed attempts eventually start to take their toll on your body and they can make you seriously ill rbk - permanently. Then not only do you have all the problems you had before to worry about, but now some serious medical conditions too which will make your suffering even worse.

You need to see your dr now hun. You need much more input and support. You have to try and look at it in a different way angel. You have a health problem and you need to get help for it hun.
When you're with your parents hun, turn that time around - don't look at is as being watched, try and get involved with them, talk to them, think of it as family time, play cards, whatever it takes. Find the effort, in small steps, to create a 'normal' atmosphere with them. Do some relaxation exercises regularly.
You're obviously hurting emotionally and they want to help hun - meet them half way and it won't seem like a prison. I know all this is easier said than done rbk, but you are worth the hard work.

If someone said to you "Look, it's on order because we've got to do a lot of work at it and will take a while, but how would you like a happier life?", I bet you'd jump at the chance hun. And it's not an impossible dream. The fact that you can't imagine it, does not mean it can't happen.

It's really important hun that you see your professionals and tell/show them all this. That way, they can give more help and start your recovery from your misery angel.
How do you think your friends here will feel if you try it and finally succeed in suicide sweetheart? What about the trauma of the person who will find you? How will they cope with that?
What about your parents hun?

I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm preaching angel.

You're a kind, warm, clever soul and there's a place in life for you hun. I just want you to stop and think about this rbk - and then look around at all the people who want to help you recover...people care about you hun and that's worth fighting for!

Now go and make that call sweetheart - you deserve better than this.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

queensway_boy

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learning_to_drive

Ahh no worries QB, we all enjoy the thread and its more volatile than others because of people's battles with their problems, Im not sure of the issue before, as im sure a lot of people aren't but we just didnt want it displayed in that arena.

Sugar_Coated_Owl

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blinky, I used to have a CPN but he was from an agency and left on 16th March. I then got given a social worker. I don't really know what the difference is between the two.

I hope you are OK (((HUG)))

Ethel, It sounds like your home life has improved quite a lot

What care have you been offered? That will be a great help to you having a car. It will make the journey to see your daughter a lot easier.

How did the meeting go? Is your daughter coming home this weekend?

Let_Robinson_Sing, It's good to hear that college is going well Is this your final year of college? Is it A2 level that you're currently studying?

Have fun in Leeds tonight. Enjoy yourself.

Have a lovely holiday. You deserve a break. Lots of people seem to like going on holiday to Croatia. One of my work colleagues is going to Croatia over the Easter weekend.

HAVE FUN! and take care xxx

Tiff, Thank you for your advice hun. I appreciate it. I know that what you're saying is probably true but I just can't help the way I think and feel.

I didn't go back to my Doctor today. I only saw him the other day. I don't know how he can help me. However, I did contact the samaritans (via text msg). I was going to call the Crisis team but I couldn't be sure that no-one would overhear. Plus I know what they are like, they come out to the house and I really don't want that.

How are you Tiff? I hope you're taking good care of yourself. What plans do you have for this weekend?

xXx

EthelBloggs

Hiya RBK... yeah things are going well.

I'm feeling really crappy today, my account was cleaned out so no car for me, no nothing in fact til at least tuesday when b/f gets home.

Went to the meeting and to pick up daughter to bring home and she announces that she doesnt want to come. So they arranged her to have a few hours leave with me this evening.. which means I've only just got home after leaving the house today just about 1pm. And tomorrow she's got 6 hours from 12.30 til 6..30 which means me leaving home about half ten and i'll be home by half 8 if I'm lucky! Worst part is that the weather is crap and there's nowhere to go where she is.. and even if there was, I've got hardly any money to do anythng with. I'm soo fekkin pizzed off you woldnt beleive it.

ohh well, spose tomorrow is a new day eh? cant be much worse than today

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Oh hun. Sorry to hear that you've had a bad day. I read your thread about your card being cloned I know you say you will get it back but have you got enough money to get by until then?

What did you end up doing with your daughter this evening? How is she? She's got quite a bit of leave tomorrow. I bet she's glad about that.

Why not go and have a bath to try and relax yourself. You might feel a little better afterwards.

xXx