Depression

Cat72

Glad you have a nice eveing ccstar- tomorrow might be the same.
BLINKY - Its great to hear you are both happy- its lovely when couples get on. Makes life much better. Its so nice when two people are genuinely in love and care so much about each. Your quite right go at your own pace and do what suits you both- no one else.
ETHEL- your cat not only looks lovely he sounds lovely too. What I like best about cats are they are so individual and you cant make them like you ( my boyfriend trys to make friends with mine now and again with tuna but they are not having it ! ) .I have one cat who when I cry comes up and wipes my tears with her paws ! All my cats are rescued and its great to gain their trust & love.Plus when im down or crying usually a meow or purr pulls me out of it !
Im feeling a bit better tonight ( sickness not as bad and feeling a pit perkier ) -just in time for bedtime !
Hope you all have good restful sleeps and nice dreams, take care x

Sugar_Coated_Owl

I need to escape from here. I feel trapped. I can't carry on like this.

Horasio

razorbladekisses wrote: »

I need to escape from here. I feel trapped. I can't carry on like this.

Where from and why?

EthelBloggs

oh, RBK... you've been on my mind all day.. I could feel something wasn't right

What's happened? you wanna talk about it? can do it privately if you prefer hun xxx

learning_to_drive

I need to escape from here. I feel trapped. I can't carry on like this.

MSN darling if you want, hope you are ok

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Being at home. Living with my parents. They are becoming so overprotective. I'm rarely allowed to spend time on my own in my room. I have to sit in the living room with them. It's as if they like me where they can see and watch me. Since I was discharged from hospital a month ago it's been this way. I'm getting so frustrated and can feel myself getting annoyed inside.

I went to my room this morning and was using my brother's laptop. Next thing I know there's a knock at my door. Mum comes in 'come downstairs with that' *sigh*

All day everyday there is one of them around me.

It's not as if they even ask me how I am or anything.

I can't take it much longer. I'm not a child. I don't need minding.

:mad: :mad: :mad:

geminilady

razorbladekisses wrote: »

Being at home. Living with my parents. They are becoming so overprotective. I'm rarely allowed to spend time on my own in my room. I have to sit in the living room with them. It's as if they like me where they can see and watch me. Since I was discharged from hospital a month ago it's been this way. I'm getting so frustrated and can feel myself getting annoyed inside.

I went to my room this morning and was using my brother's laptop. Next thing I know there's a knock at my door. Mum comes in 'come downstairs with that' *sigh*

All day everyday there is one of them around me.

It's not as if they even ask me how I am or anything.

I can't take it much longer. I'm not a child. I don't need minding.

:mad: :mad: :mad:

Hi rbk,forgive me if i have this wrong tried to see your other posts but could only find the last few days,but i think you od'd a while ago?If i am right your parents must be terrified that you will do it again so are trying to make sure you are never on your own.As a parent i can empathise with them,but understand how frustrating it is for you.Maybe they don't ask how you are because they are scared they won't like the answer? I am sure they love you very much but just don't know how to help you.Depression is very hard for someone who has never had it to understand.Have you tried talking to them at all? I know sometimes it can be hard to talk to parents but please try,and remember whatever they do they only have your best interests at heart.

Horasio

geminilady wrote: »

Hi rbk,forgive me if i have this wrong tried to see your other posts but could only find the last few days,but i think you od'd a while ago?If i am right your parents must be terrified that you will do it again so are trying to make sure you are never on your own.As a parent i can empathise with them,but understand how frustrating it is for you.Maybe they don't ask how you are because they are scared they won't like the answer? I am sure they love you very much but just don't know how to help you.Depression is very hard for someone who has never had it to understand.Have you tried talking to them at all? I know sometimes it can be hard to talk to parents but please try,and remember whatever they do they only have your best interests at heart.

I agree but it must be difficult feeling so watched.

Tiff_2

Hi rbk!:hello:
How are you hun? I'm sorry you feel so stressed out angel. You did the right thing posting hun. (((hugs)))
I do agree with gem hun ~ maybe it's because you have a history of od'ing/sh and they just want to make sure you're safe and sound.

quote=razorbladekisses
Being at home. Living with my parents. They are becoming so overprotective. I'm rarely allowed to spend time on my own in my room. I have to sit in the living room with them. It's as if they like me where they can see and watch me. Since I was discharged from hospital a month ago it's been this way. I'm getting so frustrated and can feel myself getting annoyed inside.
I know it must be really hard on you rbk as you feel you can't be alone. But angel, your mood can go up and down so quickly when you're poorly. You might think now that you can handle it hun, but once you are on your own, can you guarantee you won't try any of the things that you've already tried?:o

You've had some really low points recently hun but you've started to bounce back. Imho sweetie, I'd say that time is still very new. Try to look at it from their perspective - they just don't want anything happening to you again.

As you get better hun, you can all relax more. :grouphug:
It's terrifying as a parent to have a child try suicide or sh sweetie. Imagine how they feel - they're trying to protect you angel because you're precious to them and they don't want to lose you.
I can understand the need for privacy hun but there's a fine line between privacy and isolating yourself when we're very ill. That's usually a good sign of something being wrong and it can be easier to slip back into old habits.
For now, it may be a small price to pay if it means that you're still here and with us.:grouphug: :T

I went to my room this morning and was using my brother's laptop. Next thing I know there's a knock at my door. Mum comes in 'come downstairs with that' *sigh*
All day everyday there is one of them around me.
It's not as if they even ask me how I am or anything.
I can't take it much longer. I'm not a child. I don't need minding.

:mad: :mad: :mad:

No hun, you don't need minding ~ you need looking after.
You've only been out of the hospital a month angel. Despite what you feel, you're still in recovery. If you were still in the hospital, the nurses would be doing the same.

When you've followed certain actions, it's most likely that you were on your own hun when you did it. Maybe this is one of the reasons you are so angry angel. Maybe deep down, you know that you can't get to be alone to do the things you've done to yourself before and you're frustrated at that?

You might feel that you're ok, you don't need this right now hun but try and remember that when we are very poorly, we might not see things in the right perspective and our judgement may not be as good as usual.

At least you're home angel and have family to watch over you out of love. Try and see this as part of your recovery hun,(((hugs))). It's a temporary measure angel.
Concentrate on other things for now hun.

Take some you time and try and find things that will put a smile on your face and in your heart.:A And above all, remember you are loved.
I'm thinking of you hun - take care.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

EthelBloggs

Tiff wrote: »

Hi rbk!:hello:
How are you hun? I'm sorry you feel so stressed out angel. You did the right thing posting hun. (((hugs)))
I do agree with gem hun ~ maybe it's because you have a history of od'ing/sh and they just want to make sure you're safe and sound.

quote=razorbladekisses
Being at home. Living with my parents. They are becoming so overprotective. I'm rarely allowed to spend time on my own in my room. I have to sit in the living room with them. It's as if they like me where they can see and watch me. Since I was discharged from hospital a month ago it's been this way. I'm getting so frustrated and can feel myself getting annoyed inside.
I know it must be really hard on you rbk as you feel you can't be alone. But angel, your mood can go up and down so quickly when you're poorly. You might think now that you can handle it hun, but once you are on your own, can you guarantee you won't try any of the things that you've already tried?:o

You've had some really low points recently hun but you've started to bounce back. Imho sweetie, I'd say that time is still very new. Try to look at it from their perspective - they just don't want anything happening to you again.

As you get better hun, you can all relax more. :grouphug:
It's terrifying as a parent to have a child try suicide or sh sweetie. Imagine how they feel - they're trying to protect you angel because you're precious to them and they don't want to lose you.
I can understand the need for privacy hun but there's a fine line between privacy and isolating yourself when we're very ill. That's usually a good sign of something being wrong and it can be easier to slip back into old habits.
For now, it may be a small price to pay if it means that you're still here and with us.:grouphug: :T

I went to my room this morning and was using my brother's laptop. Next thing I know there's a knock at my door. Mum comes in 'come downstairs with that' *sigh*
All day everyday there is one of them around me.
It's not as if they even ask me how I am or anything.
I can't take it much longer. I'm not a child. I don't need minding.

:mad: :mad: :mad:

No hun, you don't need minding ~ you need looking after.
You've only been out of the hospital a month angel. Despite what you feel, you're still in recovery. If you were still in the hospital, the nurses would be doing the same.

When you've followed certain actions, it's most likely that you were on your own hun when you did it. Maybe this is one of the reasons you are so angry angel. Maybe deep down, you know that you can't get to be alone to do the things you've done to yourself before and you're frustrated at that?

You might feel that you're ok, you don't need this right now hun but try and remember that when we are very poorly, we might not see things in the right perspective and our judgement may not be as good as usual.

At least you're home angel and have family to watch over you out of love. Try and see this as part of your recovery hun,(((hugs))). It's a temporary measure angel.
Concentrate on other things for now hun.

Take some you time and try and find things that will put a smile on your face and in your heart.:A And above all, remember you are loved.
I'm thinking of you hun - take care.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

That's exactly it Tiffy.. when my daughter is home, as soon as she goes off by herself I'm panickng about what she might be doing to herself.. she gets annoyed too but I can't help it I don't even dare to go to bed til I know she's asleep just in case.. means I'm often up til 3-4 am when she's here :eek: I don't ask how she is often cos I don't want to upset her.. but if I notice that she seems a bit off.... then I will ask if she's ok or if there's something she wants to talk about. It is very difficult, like walking a tightrope at times.

I can sympathise with your family on this one RBK.. it's very difficult to trust that your baby is safe when it seems she's intent on self destruction.