Depression

EthelBloggs

blinky wrote: »

Don't know how to be kind to myself find it easy to be kind to others.

Well.. I guess so long as others are kind to you too.. it will balance out Just make sure that once in a while you put yourself first.. have a relax in the way that you enjoy rather than what others want to do.. you know what I mean?

*massive megasuperduperturbohuggerooniswithacherryontop*

Is everything going well with R? are you living together now?

blinky

EthelBloggs wrote: »

Well.. I guess so long as others are kind to you too.. it will balance out Just make sure that once in a while you put yourself first.. have a relax in the way that you enjoy rather than what others want to do.. you know what I mean?

*massive megasuperduperturbohuggerooniswithacherryontop* :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

Is everything going well with R? are you living together now?

Things are going well with 'R', the odd hiccup but we work through them. I would be worried if there wasn't the odd hiccup. Yes, she is 'the one' Not quite living together yet officially but I'm only spending one or two nights at 'home' per week.

As I said to her last night, I put us first, then her and I come somewhere near the bottom.

EthelBloggs

Yeah.. hiccups are normal.. took me a while to realise that when b/f moved in with me.. and the pink rosy lurrve bubble started to change shape and lose a bit of rosiness I had to relax and let him do things his way and he had to do the same with me.. we had some stonking rows over really stupid things.. toothpaste in the sink is still a bugbear while me not asking for help and then getting overwhelmed, overtired and grumpy is his.. I'm sure there's a lot more things about me that are annoying but I can't for the life of me imagine what

I;'m really happy for you tho blinky.. if anyone deserves some happiness it's definitely you

Horasio

blinky wrote: »

Things are going well with 'R', the odd hiccup but we work through them. I would be worried if there wasn't the odd hiccup. Yes, she is 'the one' Not quite living together yet officially but I'm only spending one or two nights at 'home' per week.

As I said to her last night, I put us first, then her and I come somewhere near the bottom.

I am glad you are feeling so much better and found 'love'

You sound to have a lovely attitude:)

Horasio

I really need to vent this morning.

I am soooo stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid.

My sleep has been all over the place this week. Been sleepy early evening and mid afternoon.

At 11pm, I thought I would say goodnight to my OH - we have had a nice week this week, so felt happy.

He was responsive but then said something really stupid to me which spoilt the mood. I was sleepy and happy, but he really upset me and I wasn't able to get to sleep after that. We didn't argue or anything but I was so tired and upset - it was a hellish night, feeling so low and tired, yet unable to get off.

I got off about 5am and up at 10.30am - I feel like death today and lost the nice feeling I had for my OH.

I can't be with someone who can hurt me so much, it is too swingy and I'm either on cloud 9 or suicidal.

I feel so low today - everything is an effort and I want to goto sleep all the time - all the nice things make me think, what is the point? He will only spoil it!

Everything is just wait, wait, wait - waiting for the cars (one to be repaired properly, the new one to be ready), someone to buy this place and for better weather - was hoping to do some gardening this week but it's too cold and miserable.

This place is feeling like a prison again - feel no-one will ever buy it and free me!

blinky

EthelBloggs wrote: »

Yeah.. hiccups are normal.. took me a while to realise that when b/f moved in with me.. and the pink rosy lurrve bubble started to change shape and lose a bit of rosiness I had to relax and let him do things his way and he had to do the same with me.. we had some stonking rows over really stupid things.. toothpaste in the sink is still a bugbear while me not asking for help and then getting overwhelmed, overtired and grumpy is his.. I'm sure there's a lot more things about me that are annoying but I can't for the life of me imagine what

I;'m really happy for you tho blinky.. if anyone deserves some happiness it's definitely you

Tend not to have stonking rows. Just silly little things or sometimes someone says the wrong thing (not always me).

learning_to_drive

2nd interview at ASDA on Tuesday of next week, proper interview with Smiths tomorrow, could be a choice between the two

Ive got a lot of work to do for the ASDA interview now, revamping my instore plans that they were interested in, and compiling a powerpoint presentation for the key points. So not out this weekend.

learning_to_drive

I dont need relationship issues now either, but it appears that I have (hurrah!)

My past has come to haunt me, I was with my (evil) ex as you know, who messed me about a bit, and I hold her responsible for doing what she did towards the end of the relationship which nearly pushed me over the edge.

G/f has been to see her friend who I used to go to school with, and apparently some more stuff has come out of the magaluf thing (i went home early cos I hated it, wasnt well, missed g/f etc) and it still is mentioned to this day. This was July '06, Im a strong individual, no one ever says anything to me in an argument because I always win, but if i get on top, this is mentioned, its all people have in their armoury.

And its mentioned yet again, g/f has said she doesnt think that im over my ex , shes having a few problems herself at the min though, so i aint being harsh on her at all. Shes just been hurt in the past i guess and is obviously worried.

This is a reason why i want to move away from stuff, because of magaluf history, people mention this all the time, its just something i want rid of, ridiculous that people bring this up all the time, just really winds me up. Ill point out id b crap at settling and do suffer in new places sometimes, takes me time to get a routine going so moving away is a big thing for me to suggest!

I have loads of work on now, with this interview tomorrow, and then the work I have to do for the ASDA interview, including powerpoint presentation and re-writing my guide for reducing overstocks.

learning_to_drive

An btw I am over her, I havent spoke since bout mid jan, blocked her number from texting me on my phone, deleted off myspace, facebook and blocked her off msn, i dont speak to her at all.

Cat72

HI ALL
Hope you are all ok .
ccstar- my thoughts are with you. just hang in there
flis21 - good luck with losing weight its great you went to weight watchers and have some support.I lost a lot of weight ( i was too scared to go to weight watchers so your braver than me ) .I found changing my eating habits worked best for me and I use paul mckennas i can make you thin book ( i just found diets didnt work ). It was really good listening to his cd and it has changed my eating habits for life now. It takes time but the feeling of achievement you get iis great and self esteem too .Soon you will be telling us how it feels to be thinner !
learningtodrive it sounds like your girlfriend is just feeling a bit insecure. Maybe in herself and maybe about the both of you. The best thing is to make sure she feels you love her- tell her soo.Tell her you choose to be with her and she is the best thing for you .If she means more to you than you previous girlfriend tell her this.If you feel she is the best thing to happen to you- tell her this too. And do something nice for her a small gesture - just help her build up her confidence in herself and you and she will soon forget about your ex.

I feel trash today.I slept too much and woke up feeling like I was drunk. I should be really happy as I got accepted for uni last week , which was something I had wanted for years. It has been a dream ofmine for ages to get into the area that the course gives me and it means that in 2 years I will finally get my dream job and a solid living in something I love. However its all been totally shadowed by being physically ill and this is starting to bring my mind down. I wanted to celebrate my good news but instead have been ill. Its so funny how physical illness really brings back depression and its a constant fight- as many of you know- to try to keeped balanced.
My oH has been a plonker about me being ill- and his moodiness isnt helping as I feel unsupported. I suppose my not being cheery is affecting him and the way he relates to me. He swoons between being mr supportive and mr !!!!. So because im feeling physically trash im feeling mentally trash ! I keep trying to pep talk myself so am fighting it. Oh whoa life - its a bummer, even the suns gone - I have fog outside and its cold !
A small note - i take it a few of you have cats ? my cats have been the best thing to help me over the years.