DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

The_Dragon

crimson.addict wrote: »

We believe you hun. Your family believes you. Anyone that doesn't you don't need in your life!

Also the Police believed you, the Crown Prosecution Service believed you and from what you said the Judge believed you!

Upsidedown_Bear

I am so very sorry xx

Upsidedown_Bear

crimson.addict wrote: »

We believe you hun. Your family believes you. Anyone that doesn't you don't need in your life!

The_Dragon wrote: »

Also the Police believed you, the Crown Prosecution Service believed you and from what you said the Judge believed you!

Agreeing with this ^^^

DreamerHelen

Thank You so much everyone for your Support....

Went to Mum's....cried a bit....but I talked it through with Mum and basically I know what happened....and so does he....And he has not gotten off scot free....he will still have a criminal record which will be difficult for him in the future....

I just have to start re-building my Life now....I have some Goals for the future (not just money-saving ones), and here is what I have come up with so far:

1) Join some sort of self-defence Class
2) Lose some weight
3) Join a Council Gym
4) Talk to the Police about ways to feel safer (ie: Mace if that's legal, Pepper Spray if it's legal or other ways to feel safe)
5) Go back to Therapy and work through the difficult feelings

I want to Work on ME this Year...I am my own "Special Project" this Year....I'm going to Work on ME and get MY Life back on track....I'm going to get back what HE has stolen....Dammit I want my Life back....and I'm going to get it back....This will NOT defeat me!!!!

Soooooo, one more night of wallowing is in order I think....Hopefully my Cold will feel better by tomorrow and I can do some serious Work over the Weekend to get what I need to get for next Week....

Also, there is SOME good news....I will get my Netbook (that he stole) back hopefully at some point in the next Week which means that Mum can have the Laptop back that I've borrowed from her for the past 6 months....and I can have my lovely, cute, adorable, favourite Netbook back that I love and adore....It DOES need a re-condition but that shouldn't cost too much...and it needs a new Power Source Cable as the Police didn't know that he had taken that when he stole the Netbook from me...so they only recovered the Netbook itself...but all that can be sorted out....

So, starting from tomorrow I'm going to get some serious Work done....I WILL survive this....I AM a survivor and I'll be damned if I'm going to let him Win....I will Win...NOT him....

Thank You again for all your help....I'll try to be okay now but your Support is always appreciated and please do continue to Post on my Diary....Hopefully happier times are ahead....

Upsidedown_Bear

Really good to hear you sounding so positive :T

Glad you'll get your netbook back too

You ARE a survivor, never forget that. We're here to help, support and cheer you on.

You might find this useful to read.

https://www.askthe.police.uk/content/Q589.htm

DreamerHelen

Thanks Upsidedown Bear hun....and the Link to the Question was really helpful....

I'll be okay...I AM a Survivor and I will get there...

Off to try and get some sleep very shortly....only had about 3 hours in the past 24 hours....xxx

Upsidedown_Bear

Goodnight & sleep well x

The_Dragon

Go you hun!!! :j:j:j:j:j

Okay thee and me are going to shift the excess weight and kick donkey (I would use another word but I think it would be !!'ed out )

DreamerHelen

The_Dragon wrote: »

Go you hun!!! :j:j:j:j:j

Okay thee and me are going to shift the excess weight and kick donkey (I would use another word but I think it would be !!'ed out )

Sounds like a deal to me hun!!! I'm going to give it another couple of Weeks and then Join Slimming World again....

Managed to get about an hour's sleep so far tonight....My blocked nose woke me up!! :mad:

I will get there....I just know I will....As I said - I'm a SURVIVOR....and I will survive this!!

crimson.addict

I am also in the losing weight stage been spurred on just recently and now i'm going to try extra hard!

Maybe we could keep each other updated and spurred on. Confess if we do something bad, that kind of thing. Do you think that would help.

I'm so proud with how you are planing your life. Rather than taking the easy way out and not trying and blaming everything on what happened to you, you are planning your life, forgetting what happened and moving on. You are an inspiration miss helen