DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

DreamerHelen

Aww Dragon hun....I'm so sorry to hear that you are in pain...I wish there were something I could say or do to make you feel better....*Hugs* for you....

I have had a CRACKING headache for about 2 days now...wishing that it would stop...can't decide if it's to do with the Cold or stress or what really....But it's driving me UP THE WALL!!!! :mad: :mad: :mad:

I'm just about to get some sleep and hope that this Cold FINALLY goes away....along with the Headache....

I'll catch you all later on xxx

diamond_sky

DreamerHelen wrote: »

Thanks for the tip re the Cheese or Yoghurt....I'll see what I can find!!

Diamond Sky....Yeah, it seems to have gone really cold and rainy...Whereabouts in the Country are you hun?

Essex, we had some sun today so hopefully you did too, although it changes from town to town let alone from Essex to London!

The_Dragon

Cambridgeshire has been cold and grey today

diamond_sky

Ah that's a shame, would send you some Essex sun but it's disappeared now!

DreamerHelen

Evening Dragon hun....Cambridgeshire is beautiful....I used to have a Boyfriend that lived just outside Peterborough and it was LOVELY!!...Hope that your pain has gone away hun....

Ahhh Diamond Sky...I live in East London...about 2 miles away from the Essex Border....Some parts of Essex are lovely...I used to live in Shenfield which was really lovely....Used to enjoy going to Southend to be by the Sea and go out on the Pier...

I managed to get a little bit of sleep this Afternoon....Think my Cold is getting better slowly....I think that a large proportion of this Cold is stress....but things WILL get better from now on...I'm determined that thiey will....

I've still got a little headache but it seems to have gone down a little after my Sleep....which is good...Just hope it stays away...

Still feeling a little fed up....I know that this Week didn't pan out the way I wanted it to....but I have to move on now....and get my Life in order....And I know it's not going to be easy but it's something that I need to do for ME....

So hard to explain the way I am feeling right now....A mixture of fear and fed up....I feel a little like I am standing on the edge of a Cliff and waiting to bungey-jump off it but not quite decided whether I'm going to or not....I guess I have to make the decision whether to Jump into my new Life or stay the way I am now!!

Anyway....That's me....

diamond_sky

Small world, I grew up in Hutton Live in north essex now. Like you, I'm a mature student, am looking forward to moving on when I've graduated, definitely want a change of scenery, even if it's only as far as London!

I suppose the question is: are you happy with you/how things are now? Change is scary though, do know how you feel (even though I haven't experienced what you've gone through).

DreamerHelen

diamond_sky wrote: »

Small world, I grew up in Hutton Live in north essex now. Like you, I'm a mature student, am looking forward to moving on when I've graduated, definitely want a change of scenery, even if it's only as far as London!

I suppose the question is: are you happy with you/how things are now? Change is scary though, do know how you feel (even though I haven't experienced what you've gone through).

Wow Hutton? That was seconds away from where I used to live...I used to Work at the Sports Centre, doing the Snack Bar...was great fun with some great Characters...but that was a loooooong time ago!! Gosh, I was 17 soooooo 18 years ago... :eek: Gee I'm old!! LoL.

What are you Studying hun if you are comfortable in saying? It's hard being a mature Student....The Financial Aspect is the hardest part but I'm getting lots of Support from Family Members, especially my Mum who is AMAZING!!

No, I'm NOT happy with how my Life is now....Most especially my health....I'm so overweight that it is now affecting my health and has been for a couple of years....and that's the main reason that I want to lose the Weight....even just a few Stones would help....but it's starting down that Road that feels really scary for me because I have tried so many times...What if I can't do it this time? I guess all I can do is try....

Managed to get some Sleep....which is good...but had weird dreams of being turned into an Alien....very strange!! Not sure what that's all about....but then again I'm dreadful at interpreting dreams...LoL....Maybe it's about starting my new Life and it feeling "alien" to me?? Who knows!!

Can't wait until I start back in Therapy....I think that will really help the Healing Process....but it's taking time until a) I can afford it again and b) To find the right Therapist....but I'll get there....

Can't decide whether to do some Work now or start first thing in the morning.....I'm still feeling ropey right now....so we'll see...

That's all folks...xXx

niknok_2

Good morning hunni.

How was your weekend? Did you do work last night or are you starting early today?

xx

DreamerHelen

niknok wrote: »

Good morning hunni.

How was your weekend? Did you do work last night or are you starting early today?

xx

Morning Hun....

I didn't Work last night....decided that I needed the sleep more than I needed to Work....and I managed to get quite a good Night's sleep which is unusual for me....

Today I'd like to work a little but I have to Call the Police about my Netbook as they are going to get it back to me soon - Maybe today!! And have to phone a few other people....so I might or might not Work during the day but will be starting Work tonight at 8pm regardless for the Night Shift....

Gotta go Shopping this morning....Food Shopping...as I don't have much in the way of Food at the moment....And go to the Bank and stuff like that....

So that's me....

crimson.addict

DreamerHelen wrote: »

I am STILL going to go to Self Defence Classes...I have found a "Krav Maga" Class which has appealed to me for a while after reading a Book where the main Character did this type of Self Defence and I've found a place in London that does it cheaply....It's £30 for an Initial 3-Hour Class where they teach you the basics...and then £10 every Week for a 2-Hour Class...so I didn't think that was too bad....and apparently you lose weight and get fitter doing it too....so I'm going to do that in the next couple of months, once I start on my Diet...

I think i may have read the same book as you was quite good if i remember correctly (her (step)father didn't want her to do it so invested in the gym, am i right?)
The price for that is fantastic. Wish i lived closer so i could go lol. Got in work early today so i will have time for the gym before going to mothers for dinner. Something happened at the weekend that has really spurred me on to get this weight off so i will have to start without you guys I was even chopping up logs Saturday with a huge axe (and suffering now lol).

I'm glad to read the cold is slowly getting the message and !!!!!!ing off I'm sure it will make working those crazy hours you do easier!