DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

crimson.addict

Hey Helen, i just happened across your diary when searching the forum. I wish i could just squeeze all the crappiness from you with a hug and make your life superfantasitc!

Since that is impossible, just let me know if there's anything i can do.

I'll be thinking of you

Ruth

Upsidedown_Bear

Sending big hugs to you.
Glad you had support from your mum and Rape Crisis.

Thinking of you today xx

The_Dragon

oh hun, more huggles, I really hoped it would be all over in a day - hang in there you are stronger than you think

sweetpeas_2

Hi Helen, haven't been on here in ages although hopefully you remember me from elsewhere all-be-it a different 'name'!

Just wanted to say to you that I hope all's gone ok hun and I've been thinking about you... be strong xxx

DreamerHelen

Thank You to Crimson Addict, Upsidedown Bear and Sweetpeas (if you are who I think you are then YAY for coming back...I've missed you!!)....

Yesterday wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be...I just had to stay strong and answer as best as I could....even when I was being told that I was a Liar...

Their Defence basically is that I was so angry when he stole my Netbook that I cried Rape....which is just a ridiculous and flimsy Defence....I would NEVER accuse someone of this unless it was true as I know it can ruin lives....but in this Case it is VERY much true....and so I did what I had to do...

I feel a bit like a weight has been lifted off me....I have been carrying this around for the past 6 months and now I don't have to anymore...I have told my Truth....and been honest....and even if he gets found "Not Guilty" at least I have told my Story...if that makes sense...although obviously I DO want him to be found "Guilty"...

The Verdict should come in either tomorrow or Friday....so I'll let you all know what happens....

Just have to keep my fingers crossed that the Jury believe ME and not him....

Thank You ALL for your Support....It feels amazing that I have this much support...

I DID go to College last night....By the time we left the Courtroom it was just gone 3pm...and College starts at 7pm but it was across London....so I just hopped on a Train and got there early and sat reading a Book and chatting to people....which was really nice....So I'm glad I went....

Today I'm not sure what I'm doing....Just chilling out until 8pm (when I have to work) I think....Might go and do a bit of Shopping...not sure at the moment....We'll see what happens....

Thank You ALL again...

Love and Hugs, Helen xXx

The_Dragon

At least it is nearly over - and well done for going to college as well :j

DreamerHelen

The_Dragon wrote: »

At least it is nearly over - and well done for going to college as well :j

Thanks Hun....Just trying to decide what to do today as I don't want to Work just in case I get any Phone Calls from the Court...although we're not expecting a Verdict until tomorrow at the earliest...but we'll see what happens...

I just want it all to be over....

Upsidedown_Bear

What The Dragon said ^^^^

You're stronger than you think and we're all very proud of you xx

DreamerHelen

Upsidedown_Bear wrote: »

What The Dragon said ^^^^

You're stronger than you think and we're all very proud of you xx

Thank You so much hun....I really appreciate that....

I'll get there....Just gotta start the healing process now....

Upsidedown_Bear

DreamerHelen wrote: »

Thank You so much hun....I really appreciate that....

I'll get there....Just gotta start the healing process now....

You WILL get there.

We're here if we can help - you're not alone. I know we're anonymous people on the internet but we do care xx