DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

DreamerHelen

The_Dragon wrote: »

oooh good luck with getting the money! That is a lot to earn overnight! and I hope the trial goes okay

Thanks hun....I have managed to reduce it to £65 which feels a bit more manageable....just shifted a few things around budget-wise....

And I know the Trial will be okay....Right now I just want to get it over and done with....whatever the outcome....Obviously I hope he goes away for a VERY long time - But we'll see what happens....

Had a sleep this Afternoon so feel a bit better now...Have been feeling really nauseous...not sure what's going on with my body - I might have a virus of some sort...not sure....but if it carries on much longer I'll be going back to the Doctor's!!

Anyway....Logging on at 9pm....Relaxing and eating until then...

DreamerHelen

Morning Everyone....

So yesterday I had a REALLY horrible day....It was my Pre-Trial Visit yesterday....the actual Court Visit was fine...but then I had to watch the Video Interview that I did the day after the Rape. And seeing how I was that day...and hearing the whole story again...it just brought it all back and I spent most of the Afternoon in floods of tears...

I also couldn't make myself go out after that and then spent £15 on a Takeaway Pizza that just made me feel ill...so that wasn't good either!!

And now today I don't have any Hot Water...and Work is going badly....so all in all I'm just not feeling great....

I have literally no money until Saturday...Although I DO have Food in my Fridge so it's not so bad...

Just feeling really really down today....and not sure what to do about that...

Anyway...below are my Totals for Challenges...

Love and Hugs, Helen xXx

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THE STUFF OF DREAMS 2013

Sealed Pot 2013

So I want to have enough money to pay for Christmas 2013 without having to borrow anything. This Challenge is mostly going to come from what I have left in my purse after shopping.

£52.93/£510

£2 Savers

I would love love love to go to New York City for my Birthday next Year and want to have a REALLY great time there. I will be saving extra money each Week from my Wages and my Target for next Year is £2000 which I know sounds like a lot but it will give me my first proper Holiday in about 5 years and I'll be able to do it in STYLE!!

£14/£2000

20p Savers

I am self-employed and so need to save up a Week's Wages to cover when I am in NYC in January so that's what this is.

£3.80/£750

College Fees


I am in my 3rd Year of a 4-Year Diploma Training to be Psychotherapist and I need £2300 to pay for my last Year of Training.

£0/£2300

USA Trip Nov 2014

I used to live and Work in the USA and really want to go back there at the end of my Course for about 35 days which is going to cost a fair bit. I haven't worked out how much it's going to Cost but I figured I would save £50 per week.

£0/£50 pw

October Show

I am planning on going to a well-known Show in October, it's a bit risque so I won't say what it is but it should be fun!!

£0/£625

Weight Loss Clothes

So I need to lose about 8 Stones at least....And when I've done that I'm going to need to buy some new Clothes!! So that's what this is for.

£0/£1500

Weight Loss Challenge

So as I said above, I've got about 8 stones to lose which is 112 pounds....Now I might not lose all of that by next January but I'd like to make a damn good start on it. Going to go to Slimming World in May.

0/112 pounds

The_Dragon

Huge hugs hun, is there someone that can come round and sit with you for a while?

DreamerHelen

The_Dragon wrote: »

Huge hugs hun, is there someone that can come round and sit with you for a while?

Unfortunately no there isn't....But I'm speaking to Mum tonight and she usually helps me to focus things a bit better...and get my head straight....

I just have to remember to keep going....And once the Trial is over it should get better....No matter what the Result....Obviously I'm hoping that he gets found Guilty but if he doesn't then at least the Trial is OVER....and I'll just get on with my Life....

The_Dragon

DreamerHelen wrote: »

Unfortunately no there isn't....But I'm speaking to Mum tonight and she usually helps me to focus things a bit better...and get my head straight....

I just have to remember to keep going....And once the Trial is over it should get better....No matter what the Result....Obviously I'm hoping that he gets found Guilty but if he doesn't then at least the Trial is OVER....and I'll just get on with my Life....

Good attitude!

DreamerHelen

Thanks Dragon hun....I really appreciate your Support....It's people like you that help me to keep going xxx

The_Dragon

DreamerHelen wrote: »

Thanks Dragon hun....I really appreciate your Support....It's people like you that help me to keep going xxx

Awwwwww shucks (I was lucky as I didn't have to go to court - but otherwise been there!)

DreamerHelen

Morning Everyone....

It's been a really rough Week...The Trial is coming up really fast...just over a Week to go now....And I've barely been able to concentrate or go out...although I've tried...

I guess all I can do is keep going...

I've dropped some of my Challenges....but kept the ones that mean the most to me...You can see below...

Love and Hugs, Helen xXx

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THE STUFF OF DREAMS 2013

Sealed Pot 2013

So I want to have enough money to pay for Christmas 2013 without having to borrow anything. This Challenge is mostly going to come from what I have left in my purse after shopping.

£52.99/£510

£2 Savers

I would love love love to go to New York City for my Birthday next Year and want to have a REALLY great time there. I will be saving extra money each Week from my Wages and my Target for next Year is £2000 which I know sounds like a lot but it will give me my first proper Holiday in about 5 years and I'll be able to do it in STYLE!!

£16/£2000

20p Savers

I am self-employed and so need to save up a Week's Wages to cover when I am in NYC in January so that's what this is.

£4.80/£750

October Show

I am planning on going to a well-known Show in October, it's a bit risque so I won't say what it is but it should be fun!!

£0/£625

Weight Loss Clothes

So I need to lose about 8 Stones at least....And when I've done that I'm going to need to buy some new Clothes!! So that's what this is for.

£0/£1500

Weight Loss Challenge

So as I said above, I've got about 8 stones to lose which is 112 pounds....Now I might not lose all of that by next January but I'd like to make a damn good start on it. Going to go to Slimming World in May.

0/112 pounds

The_Dragon

Good luck with everything hun!

DreamerHelen

The_Dragon wrote: »

Good luck with everything hun!

Thanks hun...I appreciate that xxx