DreamerHelen's New Diary - "Ad Astra per Aspera"

The_Dragon

Sorry the Bar Steward is putting you through it (:dance: that he didn't get bail!) and I am so glad that this week is looking better!

DreamerHelen

The_Dragon wrote: »

Sorry the Bar Steward is putting you through it (:dance: that he didn't get bail!) and I am so glad that this week is looking better!

Thanks hun....I'm glad that he didn't get Bail as well as I think that may have tipped me over the edge!!

I just have to deal with the Trial...We'll see what happens, I can't control it and I can't let it ruin my Life for the next Several Months...I just have to try and forget about it and deal with it when it happens....

I'm soooooooo mad at myself right now....I wanted to cook but hadn't done my washing up and I looked at it and just couldn't make myself do it...So, what did I do? I ordered Pizza instead...A MASSIVE £20 that I really couldn't afford to spend...I'm soooooooo angry at myself :mad:

And to top it all off I didn't even enjoy it that much....!!!

Ahhh well...All I can do is keep going the best way that I can....Onwards and Upwards is my motto at the moment!!

The_Dragon

Put a large sign in your kitchen "I don't enjoy takeaway pizza!!"

Now how about doing a bit of a bulk cook?

DreamerHelen

Hey Everyone....Me again....

I haven't Updated in a while....but soooooo much has happened that I just don't know where to start!!

I started back at College which has been really really good for me....It's helping to contain the emotions because I know I have to go to College and do my Placements and that gives me something else to aim towards.

I had my Rape Crisis Counselling Assessment last Week....that went fine and I really like my Counsellor...I think we can work well together and she is willing to offer me 6-8 Sessions....now normally that would cost £50 per session but because it's a Charity she is willing to offer that to me free of charge...so that's a MASSIVE saving of between £300 and £400!!! So I'm really really pleased with that....

Saving is going okay....I had to use my Savings for Food so I had to start all over again but so far I have gotten to about £35 in Savings...and it's been there for a few Weeks and I haven't spent it yet...so that's good....

Still no more news on the Trial...The Date has been set and I'm already freaking out about it but it's not until April so there is no point in worrying about it...that's what I keep telling myself but it doesn't always work that way in my head!!

Work is going okay....Not great but okay....hence being up at this time of the morning....Still got another £70 to earn before I can quit for the Weekend....which is just about do-able...

Hoping to go and see Les Mis (the film not the show) this Afternoon....but we'll see where I am with Work...

And I think that's just about it....

All in all I'm doing okay....carrying on and surviving which I think is the only thing I can do right now....

DreamerHelen

Morning Everyone.....I know it's been a while again...I'll try and keep up with this a bit better.

I think when I started 2013 I jumped into loads of Challenges without thinking about them....and now I have had to cut back on some....and change some....and change my Priorities....

I really really want to go to New York City for my Birthday next January but have realised that I will need to Cover my Wages as I'm self-employed so I have to save for that too....

I also want to pay off Christmas this Year without having to borrow any money off anyone....That's really important to me...

My Debts are slowly being paid off, week by week...I will admit that I haven't sorted out the BIG ones but I have sorted out the little ones and arranged to pay them every week...which makes me feel better....now it's just to arrange the BIG ones next...once I'm in a bit of a better position...

I also really want to save for my College Fees next Year which I've found out are about half of what I expected because I'm in my Final Year and I paid up front for some of them...which is GREAT...so I'm really excited about that...

The Trial is coming up in April...which I'm NOT looking forward to....But I know it has to be done and I am hoping that it comes up in my favour....

But I'm doing really well so far....Getting there slowly I think is the best way of describing it...

I'll try and keep up a bit more often....

Love and Hugs

Helen xxx

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THE STUFF OF DREAMS 2013

Sealed Pot 2013

So I want to have enough money to pay for Christmas 2013 without having to borrow anything. This Challenge is mostly going to come from what I have left in my purse after shopping.

£44.39/£510

£2 Savers

I would love love love to go to New York City for my Birthday next Year and want to have a REALLY great time there. I will be saving an extra £2 each day from my Wages and so my Target for next Year is £2000

£0/£2000

20p Savers

I am self-employed and so need to save up a Week's Wages to cover when I am in NYC in January so that's what this is.

£0/£750

College Fees


I am in my 3rd Year of a 4-Year Diploma Training to be Psychotherapist and I need £2300 to pay for my last Year of Training.

£0/£2300

USA Trip Nov 2014

I used to live and Work in the USA and really want to go back there at the end of my Course for about 35 days which is going to cost a fair bit. I haven't worked out how much it's going to Cost but I figured I would save £50 per week.

£0/£50 pw

October Show

I am planning on going to a well-known Show in October, it's a bit risque so I won't say what it is but it should be fun!!

£0/£625

Weight Loss Clothes

So I need to lose about 8 Stones at least....And when I've done that I'm going to need to buy some new Clothes!! So that's what this is for.

£0/£1500

Weight Loss Challenge

So as I said above, I've got about 8 stones to lose which is 112 pounds....Now I might not lose all of that by next January but I'd like to make a damn good start on it. Going to go to Slimming World in May.

0/112 pounds

The_Dragon

Great news on the fees being part paid already - and well done on realising you need more money than you thought for next Janaury. You sound more chipper :j

DreamerHelen

The_Dragon wrote: »

Great news on the fees being part paid already - and well done on realising you need more money than you thought for next Janaury. You sound more chipper :j

Thanks hun....and thanks for popping in....I AM a bit more chipper than I have been....Not sure what I'll be like when the Trial starts...but I'll get there....one way or the other I will drag myself through it and out the other side...

DreamerHelen

Feeling really positive today...not sure why except that Work is going really really well today AND we get paid extra money with it being a Bank Holiday....and then I get extra on a Saturday and Sunday and then Monday is a Bank Holiday again....so I KNOW I can hit my Target for this Week....and for the FIRST time I am GOING to hit my Target - Come Hell or High Water!!

I've made a Start on some of my Challenges...only little Starts but it's STILL a start!! And I will Continue....I can only do the best I can do....and that's all I can do...Just simply my Best...

Been reading the MSE Forums and really enjoying getting inspiration from everyone....I hope I can give back some of that Inspiration...

Love and Hugs, Helen xXx

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THE STUFF OF DREAMS 2013

Sealed Pot 2013

So I want to have enough money to pay for Christmas 2013 without having to borrow anything. This Challenge is mostly going to come from what I have left in my purse after shopping.

£44.41/£510

£2 Savers

I would love love love to go to New York City for my Birthday next Year and want to have a REALLY great time there. I will be saving extra money each Week from my Wages and my Target for next Year is £2000 which I know sounds like a lot but it will give me my first proper Holiday in about 5 years and I'll be able to do it in STYLE!!

£6/£2000

20p Savers

I am self-employed and so need to save up a Week's Wages to cover when I am in NYC in January so that's what this is.

£1.60/£750

College Fees


I am in my 3rd Year of a 4-Year Diploma Training to be Psychotherapist and I need £2300 to pay for my last Year of Training.

£0/£2300

USA Trip Nov 2014

I used to live and Work in the USA and really want to go back there at the end of my Course for about 35 days which is going to cost a fair bit. I haven't worked out how much it's going to Cost but I figured I would save £50 per week.

£0/£50 pw

October Show

I am planning on going to a well-known Show in October, it's a bit risque so I won't say what it is but it should be fun!!

£0/£625

Weight Loss Clothes

So I need to lose about 8 Stones at least....And when I've done that I'm going to need to buy some new Clothes!! So that's what this is for.

£0/£1500

Weight Loss Challenge

So as I said above, I've got about 8 stones to lose which is 112 pounds....Now I might not lose all of that by next January but I'd like to make a damn good start on it. Going to go to Slimming World in May.

0/112 pounds

The_Dragon

DreamerHelen wrote: »

Thanks hun....and thanks for popping in....I AM a bit more chipper than I have been....Not sure what I'll be like when the Trial starts...but I'll get there....one way or the other I will drag myself through it and out the other side...

Keep reminding yourself that you are waaaaay better than the scumbag and just keep in going hun (and not long to go we hope!)

DreamerHelen

Thanks Dragon hun....I WILL get through it....I know I will....

But today is a GREAT day....I'm really enjoying myself and enjoying getting closer to my Target every moment that goes by....