The future WILL be bright . . .

TotallyInzane

Time for a quick update . . .

Yesterday we went for a lovely long walk in the fields surrounding our village. Which was very relaxing, well apart from meeting a couple of horse riders who told us off for being on private land but after explaining there were no clear signs to show where the public footpath ran they pointed us in the right direction.

In the evening we went to one of my DW's work colleagues for a mini leaving party, as she's heading back home to Italy next month. I'm afraid to confess I drank more than I should have & felt worse for wear this morning!

Which made going into work & finding out I haven't been paid correctly even worse, then to add insult to injury I got sent home early because the restaurant wasn't busy enough!

On the way home I did stop in & have a chat with a friend & old boss of mine, who moved to a different restaurant recently & offered me a job there if I wanted. I know he would look after me in terms of ensuring I get my hours but the downside is I wouldn't get tips, which I do currently. Which currently average between £20-25 a week. So I'm now in a delemare as what to do?

Also now due to my pay being b******d up I don't have enough to pay my half of the building insurance! I think I'm going to have to ask my DW if I can borrow the money until I get paid next week, which I know won't be a problem but I don't like to have to ask (even though she is my wife)!

We are supposed to going out for a meal with friends this evening, which my DW said she'll pay for as she knows I'm struggling this month but feeling guilty about it & not sure if should go, as I know she has quite a few expenses coming up!

Anyway must dash, had my sit down whilst doing this, I'm sure there's things I should be doing . . .

TotallyInzane

Yesterday was a NSD :j

Feeling fed up today, doesn't help tired as well, think this is due to not sleeping properly as my back & neck are playing up currently

I asked my DW to borrow the monies to cover the buildings insurance & she was more than happy to lend it to me, however I think she had less than she thought in her account but I've promised I'll pay her back as soon as I get paid monday.

Finding it really hard to find motivation at work currently, thankfully I haven't had my Boss moaning at me like usual for a while, which has made a pleasant change. I know I shouldn't moan as I'm one of the lucky ones who has a job but sometimes it is difficult when you don't enjoy it or feel appricated.

Hovel_lady

Yay for a NSD :T

Sorry to hear about your back and neck

Moan if you want about work. Just because you have a job and others don't doesn't mean you can't :cool:

I found motivation for you

TotallyInzane

HL thank you for find my motivation :rotfl:

Had a trail shift on Thurs just gone, at the new restaurant which seemed to go really well & I enjoyed. Talking to the other waiters working found out working for said company you get free cinema (on sale retail park), gym membership & entry into the club upstairs. So has it's own perks despite the lack of tips. The team I met on Thursday seemed really friendly & a good environment to work in :j

Thurs - Had to get some supplies on way home, resulting in:
bread, sandwich filler & breakfast cereal.
£20 petrol
Fri - NSD :j
Today - £1 on a lottery ticket

It has been seriously hot here today, which seems to make everything twice as hard! Working this morning & then just relaxing at home, trying to cool off. DW is away at a friend wedding Reception (i couldn't get time off work) so just me & the two cats - who don't like the hot weather either. Not that I'm complaining as love the sunshine, just not while your stuck in a stuffy office.

Right need to go water the garden now it's cooled down a bit & russel some dinner up . . .

Hovel_lady

Sounds good about the new restaurant

Very hot here too :eek:
Here you go, might cool you down.



Hope the lottery ticket is a winner :cool:

TotallyInzane

mmmmm that ice cream looks good

TotallyInzane

Yesterday was spent at home doing housework, trying to fix our patio heater which isn't working properly & trying to stay cool in the heat!

Spend diary:

Won £10 on scratch card
£4.29 bottle of wine
£2.00 scratch cards

So made money!

Today spending:

£11 on underwear & socks (desperately needed!)
£3.50 anniversary card
£6.96 wine & chocolate
All the above was paid with by tips
£7.21 on a few essential groceries
£52.09 petrol & cold drink

Oops dinner burning - got 2 rush . . .

Can't sleep, don't know why as tired but just can't settle!

Been in a weird mood for the last few weeks, almost like not completely here. It's difficult to explain but don't seem to have any motivation or enthusiasm about anything, even things I normally enjoying doing. I haven't felt myself & even friends have commented, asking if everything is ok?!

I don't think my DW has noticed but then she's had a lot going on currently - interviews for a new job (still same company), organising a hen weekend etc. Although sometimes she doesn't help as I don't think she picks up on my moods/feelings.

I'm also beginning to think I've lost my hunger in my career, I've always wanted to push myself & strive to get on the next rung of the corporate ladder but feel as though I'm in a rut where I am, for 2 reasons:

1: There is no chance for progression within this company
2: I've lost the confidence within myself I used to have

I'm struggling to work out where to find said confidence again & what I actually want 2 do work wise, although I also feel I should stay where I am due to knowing the company is in as a secure position any can be at the moment, meaning my job is as secure as can be.

I'm not even sure if any of my rambling makes sense but in a small way I think it's helped writing these things down.

Must try to sleep now as already far to tired without another late night added

P.S. HL: unfortunately it wasn't a winning lottery ticket!

TotallyInzane

Morning diary,
Woke up feeling fed up & lathargic, doesn't help it's all grey & over cast inst. of the glorious sun of the lst few days.
I'm not even looking forward to this weekend where I get to see my friends & celebrate our aniversary. For starts I don't feel like I've done anything/enough for it!

Just realised time got to go or will b late for work!

On lunch break arranged for car to go to garage Thursday before work as need 3 new tyres, which can ill afford but are on legal limit & considering the amount of mileage I do each week & a long trip this weekend, I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened & I hadn't changed them. So that'll be a payment on my c/c which I promised myself I wouldn't use!

TotallyInzane

Morning diary,

Feeling very tired this morning, didn't get home till midnight last nite as working at the restaurant at it was a crazy night!

My DW recently interviewed for a new role within her company & found out acouple of days ago she got it!!!! Is going to mean a lot more work, esp. as she will be doing her old role as well until they get a replacement.

Currently sat in the garage getting new tyre for my car - an expensive can do with out but having seen the state of them pleased I did!

Hovel_lady

For Mrs TotallyInzane :T




Tired here too - must be all the partying I'm doing :rotfl:

Just had some of this to wake me up.
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