Stormybay's Thread a bit of comfort in a hard world

nearlyrich

I am sure you will get things sorted before you all go to Turkey Stormy!

LOL at the toilet roll, we either have loads or none.

I've not been on the thread for a while, holidays, work and other stuff going on, good to see everyone is doing OK.

This is a bad week for me, Dad's anniversary today/tomorrow ( he died late 28th doctor certified early 29th) and 17 years later I still miss him. My DS just got his degree this week, I am really proud of him and my dad would have been bursting with pride, they were great mates and spent a lot of time together.

Stormybay

Hello All,
Yes, i know, it's 2am, but I just can't sleep at all. I thought I'd let you know that I'm off on holiday on monday for 2 weeks with all the children and 4 of my 20yr old son's friends!!! To be honest, I am really dreading it, we are going back to the same place we all went last year as a 'complete' family, and I know it will be so hard to be there 'alone'. I know I have the children, and I'm thankful for that. But I am so tired, my boys are still awake a making a noise, I threw their friends out about 2 hours ago. They are off work (hols) at the moment and sleep in, then are awake all night........it's driving me mad. Rosie is in France, and I'm missing her like mad......and I've no idea at all what I'm going to do with her in the summer holidays while I have to work. I'm really having a feel sorry for myself moment and just want John back to help me cope with this stupid, stupid widow nonsense.
I have no money, I work like mad and I just want peace, peace in my house and peace in my mind.
And the bloody rain isn't helping either!
I guess the only way is up eh!
Anyhow, thought I'd post to let you lovely people know that I wont be able to log on for a couple of weeks, so not to worry.
Oh.......and I have lost a diamond ring that John bought me last year, it is not in this house anywhere, and DD2 knocked a tin of dark brown varnish down the stairs and all over the walls, and I have a suspicion that DD1 (21) is pregnant and too scared to tell me.
For God's sake, what's going on?

Stormy

AnW'sMum

Hi Stormy

Sorry I have not been on here much, I just don't know where time is disappearing to. I have had a few wobbly weeks as well and know exactly where you are coming from with the 'stupid widow nonsense' Every now and then something will have been moved in the house (usually in the kitchen to get to a cupboard!) and I think 'I didn't move it has Ian been in here sneaking a crafty cheese sandwich' and for a split second I fool myself into thinking he is around. Then I have to tell myself to stop being stupid, it's such a horrible rollercoaster ride we are on.

So sorry to hear about the ring, could you claim for it on your house insurance and get another? (I know it will never be the same) Also if you have accidental damage you should be able to claim for the damage done by the varnish.

Oh Stormy I just wish I loved closer so I could come and give you a HUGE HUG. Big deep breaths, you will get through this. Life is horrible at the moment but things will get better, never the same but better than it is now.

We have had the following poem stuck on the fridge for years and I think it is apt for many of us at the moment.

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will.
When the road you’re trudging seems all up hill.
When funds are low and the debts are high.
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit.
Rest, if you must, but don’t you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about.
When he might have won had he stuck it out:
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow –
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out –
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems so far:
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit –
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Take care everyone, hugs to you all

xxx

Stormybay

Thank you, thank you , thank you
Rosie back safe and sound
Varnished carpet claimed for
False alarm pregnancy (it was a new job offer that she was worrying about!)
Ring - decided I'll treat myself to a new one in Turkey and pretend it's off John
Boys are sorry and have cleaned the house
Still tired and broke!!!! haha
Thank you
Stormy
xxxxxx

AnW'sMum

Stormy, Glad it all looks better today

The ring idea is great, John would approve I am sure. And wow can you send your boys round to tidy our house up???

Really glad Rosie had a good time and I am sure you will all have a good break in Turkey (not the same without John but good all the same) you all deserve it after the last few months. You should be proud of yourself and all your brood.

xxx

mandymoo

Hi everyone

Stormy I am sure you will make the best of the holiday, and like we have all said before there is no right or wrong way to feel and try to enjoy it the best you can and remember john is with you all the way.

The first time we went back to florida without dad was hard but thankfully we had so many good memories of our past holidays with dad that they came with us and we have now got memories of our holidays without dad,and the two together is good, but I know he is always there with us (mum always takes a little framed photo of dad with us as well) there will be times when you see or remember something that reminds you of john and you will have a few tears but go with it don`t try and hold back and stormy remember this is your holiday as well and by god do you need it.

Well the Stormybay household you all go and have as much FUN, LAUGHTER, TEARS and REST as you all can.

Love to you all

mandymoo xxxx

jbatista

Just to say hello lovelys, I am in the land of the living-though it does not feel like it at the moment....... 4 deaths in the family since March is very hard to deal with. My Godmum, my dad, my hubbys uncle (like a dad) and now my great aunt in Aussie.
I will post when I can, I am back at work though with 29 little angels:j (sometimes anyway) and they do help to brighten my day.

Love and Hugs to you all

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Stormybay

Hello everyone, I hope you are feeling ok Jbatista, it's so awful to loose so may people all at one, last year I lost my Dad, Grandmother and John and I felt like someone was just taking the p***, so keep your chin up, I'm sure your 29 angels will brighten the day, as the sun doesn't seem to, not here anyhow.....rain rain rain!
I survived my holiday and I've just read my posts above at laughed at how demented I sounded, I must have been so stressed! The holiday went really well, although with my older daughters, I felt like I was on holiday with my Mum! Don't drink that mum, are you going out in that mum, what time did you go to bed mum.................I think I might like to go away with a friend for a week, just to relax, as you can imagine, I still worried about all the family and their friends even though they are young adults, and yes, they did all run out of money in the last few days and I became the 'Bank of Stormybay'!
So, with all that is owed me (although I'll never see it) I would be able to afford to go again!
I hope everyone on here is ok and plodding along with this old life that carries on relentlessly whether we like it or not.
By the way, I now have 3 months supplies worth of toilet rolls.........I will not run out again!!!
Loads of thanks, love and hugs for all, I'm only here to tell the tale because of all you here and huge thanks to Martin, for starting this site that saved me last 22nd December 2006.
By the way, is there any way to print this thread off, I would like to keep it in my John box, for the sanity of my 'future'
Love Stormy

*zippy*

Glad you had a good break stormy and its lovely to have you back.

I think if you go to the first page of the thread and press print it should print the whole thread off for you.

chevalier

Hi Stormy
can't believe how long it has been. Sometimes lovely weather makes it worse. I always feel a bit sad at this time of year, as my step dad used to go with my mum to Buxton each year about now.
HOpe you are feeling more relaxed after your holiday
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