Memorygirls - The Matrix Re-inspired

fantasia322

Morning Matrixettes.
Positive vibes to all, welcome to all newbies, hello to the lurkers.
Everybody seems to be all 'onwards and upwards' and then there's me still floating along in a sea of blahdom. The story of my life unfortunately.
Everyone seems to have long term goals, where I am a day at a time kind of girl. I seem to lurch from one disaster to another (thats how it feels). I've gone through the phase of working out what I want from life, and after 2ish months of contemplation, I still have no idea. BORING.

However on the positive side this year I've adopted my great dane, and stopped smoking (6 weeks tomorrow). I've had 3 jobs since I joined the Matrix last October and after walking out on the dreaded, hated job last September, and in all that time was only unemployed for a month, (so I guess thats another positive).
In spite of having done the Uni thing, I am not an academic, I dont want to go back to learning(unless its within the School of Life).

At 53 my life is not over, far from it, but I have no clue as to where to go from here, other than lurching from day to day. What I need is a plan, that I can break down into babysteps, but until I know where I'm headed, thats not viable either. And I dont like blahdom,
I somtimes wonder if I'm just inventing excuses and using them as reasons not to challenge myself. Arrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh. x

thriftyscotslass

Crickett - what an achievement :j:j:j. Keep at it, it will get easier.

Tmif - you are allowed to be whingey, you have a kidney infection - give the tablets time to work, your body needs time rest and heal - not easy in this "not allowed to be ill" culture that we live in.

Blogs - don't forget Cheri, she has 3 . Blog intro looks good MG.

Today, will be spent out in the garden again as the weather is supposed to be pants for next few days. Today's tasks are to clean the outside of the back door and kitchen window. I need a ladder to tackle the bathroom and back bedroom windows but don't know if I am brave enough for that. I am also going to paint the garage soffitt (wooden bit behind the guttering). Dh is going to cut me some plywood to cover the two broken garage windows and I will stain this to match the fence at a later date.

Have a good day all.

crickett1234

tellmeitsfriday wrote: »

That sounds good Crickett... what is a portion? I was told it was a handful... but I have my doubts!....!

Well, apparently, it is about a deck of cards for protein and things like Shepherd's pie. For carbohydrate-y things like rice and pasta and couscous, it is a measuring cup, and it is the same for fruit and veg. I have been eating waaaay too much carbs and protein and not enough fruit and veg!!

tellmeitsfriday wrote: »

I have to drink 2 litres of water and a carton of cranberry juice today..! So I think I might ask for a laptop and decamp to the loo...

I've had 3 tablets so far. Should I be starting to feel better yet? I am at work doing payroll forecast today. Big yawn. If it gets much hotter I will have to give in today though, because I am already aching all over and feeling grumpy!

Sorry, I am ever so whingey.. I just can't wait for the weekend, so I can have 2 days lazing about I fell asleep on the sofa last night, at half 7....!

1 day is not really long enough yet pet. Take it easy, and go home if you need to. Though make sure you go to the loo before getting in the car, because it can be an uncomfortable ride home if you are desperate, and it won't help the cystitis either! :eek:

Karmacat

Memory_Girl wrote: »

Any Matrixettes who want to own up to having a blog PM me a short paragraph and I will collect them for the launch of the new thread. Easy to do if your blog is set as your homepage on here - in fact we should probably have a thread on the Matrix where we can list them too.

So off the top of my head, and on only my second cup of coffee:

"MG's believes that as women we overestimate what we can do in three months and underestimate what we can do in a year, that we continually set ourselves up for disappointment by trying "to do it all" aiming to "have it all"

Her blog is a resource of articles, practical exercises,musings and easy to implement resources slowly guiding you through a year of improving your life incrementally in the following areas:

Finances
Family
Attitude
Career
Personal Development
Health
Social Life"

How does that sound?

MG

That sounds fantastic! I really got back on just in time, didn't I I have a blog set as my home page, but I'm a bit hit and miss with it ... I'm having fun on my thread on here with the idea of solar showers, will have to transfer lots to the blog, which is about proper green stuff for the house.

fantasia322 wrote: »

Everyone seems to have long term goals, where I am a day at a time kind of girl. I seem to lurch from one disaster to another (thats how it feels). I've gone through the phase of working out what I want from life, and after 2ish months of contemplation, I still have no idea. BORING.

However on the positive side this year I've adopted my great dane, and stopped smoking (6 weeks tomorrow). I've had 3 jobs since I joined the Matrix last October and after walking out on the dreaded, hated job last September, and in all that time was only unemployed for a month, (so I guess thats another positive).
In spite of having done the Uni thing, I am not an academic, I dont want to go back to learning(unless its within the School of Life).

At 53 my life is not over, far from it, but I have no clue as to where to go from here, other than lurching from day to day. What I need is a plan, that I can break down into babysteps, but until I know where I'm headed, thats not viable either. And I dont like blahdom,
I somtimes wonder if I'm just inventing excuses and using them as reasons not to challenge myself. Arrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh. x

Oh Fantasia! I'm in your age bracket, and one thing thats struck me very forcibly is that nobody ever mentioned "happiness" in the plans that I was encouraged to make. Its seeped in gradually over the last few years - that actually, happiness is much more important than being rich, or having XXX in the bank. What makes you happy?

NorthernLas

Another blogger not to be forgotten is Pippi

Cricket - there are some jolly good omega3 supplements around if the oily fish thing gets too much

Moving on to the shower as I'll be late otherwise

Oooh zip wire is on Sunday between 1 - 1.30pm - wish me luck!

Dustykitten

Morning Matrixettes.

Cricket well done on the 204 stairs, glad you made it

Greenbee, a friendly face, have a hug and I hope today is a good one

Cloud positive vibes wizzing there way to wherever you are from breezy Hertfordshire so they should arrive soon

fantasia322 wrote: »

However on the positive side this year I've adopted my great dane, and stopped smoking (6 weeks tomorrow). I've had 3 jobs since I joined the Matrix last October and after walking out on the dreaded, hated job last September, and in all that time was only unemployed for a month, (so I guess thats another positive).
In spite of having done the Uni thing, I am not an academic, I dont want to go back to learning(unless its within the School of Life).

You have achieved an amazing amount, well done. Have you ever read the book 'Gift from the Sea'? It is only short and I think you'd like it (do you have children?)

So many things I want to acheived today (that could be one of my problems)

I have so far:
Dealt with some emails
stripped a bed
Wash1 on the line
Wash 2 going on next

Started to sort my wardrobe - I'm using a tree pruning method -

I've just cut out the dead wood (the clothes which are only fit for the rag bag).
Next I'll prune out any bits suitable for cuttings (that'll be anything decent which I don't wear which can be ebayed)
Then I'll do the bulk of the maintenance prunning - stuff I don't wear for the charity shop
Finally I'll do the equivalent of top dressing by hoovering out the wardrobe.

?how do you know if you have clothes moths? Do you see them? Would they make holes in all clothes or just wool? Cant decide if the holes are because the clothes have been worn to death or are being eaten:rotfl::eek:

Kittikins

(((fantasia))) you're a superstar for stopping smoking Remember how I challenged you to stop smoking whilst I lost weight....??? Well, you've done fantastically well and I've now resorted to going to a slimming club (first week's weigh-in tonight, fingers crossed all this extremely healthy eating is going to show up on the scales, I feel fantastic for not having chocolate, biscuits, cake, too much bread and other general rubbish inside me, but my home scales aren't showing much difference yet, grrr).

thriftyscotslass

fantasia322 wrote: »

Everyone seems to have long term goals, where I am a day at a time kind of girl. I seem to lurch from one disaster to another (thats how it feels). I've gone through the phase of working out what I want from life, and after 2ish months of contemplation, I still have no idea. BORING.

KC is right about the happiness. Are you happy and content with your day-at-a-time life? (apart from the normal, everyday disasters that life lobs our way). If you are happy and at peace with it, you will be the envy of many.

Recovering alcoholics have a saying, a bit crude but it gets the point across "If you live with one foot in the past and the other in the future, you are p*ssing on the present.

Right ho - my soffitt is calling

Firewalker

Love the saying; worth printing out and pinning at a visible place.

FW

fantasia322

thriftyscotslass wrote: »

KC is right about the happiness. Are you happy and content with your day-at-a-time life? (apart from the normal, everyday disasters that life lobs our way). If you are happy and at peace with it, you will be the envy of many.

Recovering alcoholics have a saying, a bit crude but it gets the point across "If you live with one foot in the past and the other in the future, you are p*ssing on the present.

Right ho - my soffitt is calling

Content is the word I would use (mostly). Happiness comes in fleeting phases I find. I have been depressed occasionally, but never in a dark place. As for the nicotine addiction, I will always be a 'smoker', but I'm a non-smoking smoker if that makes sense.
I am at peace with somethings, I am content with some things.
My other half is a plodder, lives totally in the moment, which is good. But I'd like to make plans about things occasionally, set goals occasionally, have something to work towards occasionally.
I want to go abroad (maybe Thailand) he doesnt.
Anything I've done, I've done alone. Like Leyla. I just wnet ahead and did it because I knew he would go with the flow.
And if he doesnt want to do something it isnt up for discussion, its frustrating, so I think if I want to change things, and it isnt up for discussion, then there is no room for compromise. Rock and a hard place.

I'd like to save for a holiday somewhere, I can now because I'm not wasting a fortune on cigarettes, so maybe I should just do it with a friend.