lionheartedgirl promises to let it shine :)

lionheartedgirl

hi all, been ages since I last posted! can't believe how long!

things have been manic and I narrowly avoided financial meltdown this week - very scary and completely my own stupid fault by not thinking ahead enough.

Pluses:

* the windows are done and my house is my own again - all tradesmen done for a while now.
* house is much warmer and quieter already :T
* dogs are settling and have really chilled me out and lifted my spirits

* rehearsals for next weekend's gig are coming along and I am feeling really positive and excited about it

* new harp room is starting to feel good already although I have a lot of bits still to do

* house is starting to get back under control after being a tip for ages

* seaside date went well and I am seeing him again tomorrow :j

Minuses:

* Money is dire, dire, dire - mopping up after LBM#2 has been pretty soul destroying.

* Dog's foot is high maintenance at the moment - daily re-dressing and keeping said dressing covered when we go out.

* Sheep in field behind me mean the dogs go nuts in the garden so in the interests of peace they are having to go out on the lead - so I am marching round in wellies/jammies waiting for them to 'go' last thing before bed! :rotfl: :mad:

I am feeling a new diary coming along - will get on with thinking of a new title to get my focus back on the fact that I am in a lot of debt and MUST stop spending money. If something drastic doesn't change, I am going to be in my current situation for a LONG time and I won't be able to do any of the fun and important stuff that's on my list.

I have huge exciting dreams and goals, but they need paying for somehow, and unless I think big, I am going to end up holding myself back unfortunately and this is an awful thing to contemplate!

So. Rehearsal tonight then I will get my thinking cap on .... :think:

hope everyone is well and keeping heads above water - my usual diary buddies are very quiet too so will wave and send hugs from here x

gottogo

Hi LHG

I am in a similar position, debt busting head has morphed into 'go on just treat yourself' head. Need to get back on track as I still have home improvments to save for (and its the big stuff) xx

lionheartedgirl

afternoon all, just popping in to say hi as it's been ages.

Spending has really calmed down, the house is gradually getting back under control and although I am really tired, I am feeling quite positive.

I'm really looking forward to Saturday's gig :j

Seaside date stayed for the weekend just gone, he is LOVELY and I am hopeful that we will see more of each other soon (not going to go on about it too much as I really don't want to jinx it!)

I have another harping injury :mad: so really need to sort my physical stress levels again and R-E-E-E-L-A-X!!

Other than the gig, this weekend is looking very quiet so I can do a bit more painting and get the house straighter - the next stage is a crucial one and will make a huge difference to tidiness and creativity levels - and will give me space to do some exercise DVDs :j

best of all, I have 3 days off next week so can unwind a bit with the pooches and carry on with house stuff.

I will still have more decorating to do after that, but I can't do that while the dogs are in the room so will look at getting them somewhere to stay for a night in a few weeks then finish it all off.

I am off to Bluewater next week with my mum, just for some girl time. I should be fine just window shopping but it will take some motivation to not buy anything expensive.

I have to say though, I am feeling the most positive I have felt in a very long time. Day to day life is busy but in a good way, still need to work on a few things but I am happy and I know what's important in life, and I really can't ask for much more than that

redsquirrel80

Hooray for positivity! And lovely weekends

Sorry to hear about the harping injury, I was thinking of your description of relaxed muscles feeling like toffee (I think it was?) the other day. Finding that flute playing, typing lots and gardening can be a tough combination on the old arms!

Hope the gig goes well

lionheartedgirl

hi, yes it was toffee- well probably more like caramel? you know when you break a piece off and it goes all stringy and soft and you pull it and it keeps going?

having a day job like mine and trying to be a musician on the side - well I am rapidly coming to the conclusion that the two just do not go! Not sure if I need to be better organised, fitter (psychologically as well as physically) or what but I really need to address it soon otherwise I am going to end up in a right old mess.

I am in a right old fluster about tonight's gig. I wish there was a switch to flick where all the tension and worry would just go, and I could enjoy it. Normally this comes at some point during the performance but I hate the build up to it all.

Money stuff is still under control - am hoping to do a big proper review tomorrow and get some goals assembled. I keep putting it off and finding other things to do, but tomorrow will be a very slow day as I know once all the adrenaline has gone from tonight I will be wiped out. So a day of getting my house in order (in all sorts of ways) should be just the ticket. I have some teaching to do first thing and last thing, but other than that my day and evening are my own - luxury!

lionheartedgirl

well, as predicted yesterday was pretty slow - Saturday was a very late night but all went really well and I was pleased with how I played.

Yesterday I did some teaching which went well too, and moved some shelves round and did a bit of dusting. My new music room is really coming together well now, it's going to be wonderful when it's all done and I will feel like a real musician with a proper creative inspirational environment and everything :j

Money is good - my teaching is covering the dog walking costs as hoped :j and this has been my main expenditure.

Seaside guy is still in touch and it's looking very promising for this weekend - he rang yesterday and it all seems good.

Still no mega financial review but I will get there - day to day is fine as long as I stick to my guns. Pay day is not til next week but apart from a bit over the weekend, I should make it fine

MrsMoo2U

Oh my, how did I ever miss your diary. Just found you and you seem to be on the move. Give me a nudge when you do I can be a bit slow. I wont read back but will start from today. Thats my new year resolution. Start from where I am and look forward. Hope you dont mind.

girlwiththesuninherhead

Hi there!

Ooh, all sounds well down your way! Great to hear - just you take care of yourself though!

I tried to reply to you via my thread yesterday using quotes etc but something happened (after a very long reply, well you know I CAN talk quite a bit) and I lost everything, which then included my motivation and I had to just leave it and get back onto my diary today.

Hope all is going well, give the pooches a big pat on the head from me!

Looking forward to hearing more about your music room!

I have recently realised that when my lovely little office/workroom is messy that's when I start to slip so now my big project of the mo is to get that little room tidied and cleared and the ironing is already almost done and put away and I am heading over to ikea on my day off this Friday Yay!!! (thanks to your suggestion) to try and find some decent storage for paper/fabric. Clear office clear mind!! I hope!

Keep smiling

girlwiththesuninherhead
x

lionheartedgirl

hi MrsM, no worries at all, join in where and when you can although it can get a bit samey when you follow the story on a couple of other channels as well :rotfl:

gwthsinhjhkxyz , yes you are right - when that sort of environment is messy and/or disorganised, it really stops things flowing doesn't it. I am an untidy individual, there is no question about that, but somehow when it's music things, I like to know I can sit down and everything is ready to go and i don't have to faff about trying to find things.

Yesterday's lunchtime concert went well - it was a really good turn out and good exposure for my playing which I can make use of if I want to, so I need to think about that. I decided to celebrate with a cupcake afterwards from a cute looking cafe, and I wish I hadn't bothered, it was AWFUL!!!! :mad: £2 for a really horrible cake and it wasn't even that fresh! The concert was in a town where I used to live when I first moved down here, I hate the place with a passion and there were some strong feelings welling up as I was walking to the theatre from the car park along some old haunt streets. I'm glad I don't have to go there too often! :cool:

Last night I went to my first counselling session in ages - being ill in December and having a mad January has meant that it had to go to the bottom of the list, but it was good to go and have time to breathe and think in that way. I really feel like XF is firmly in the past now and our sessions will now mostly be about moving forward rather than looking back.

I'm off work today and it is great :j I'm watching Breakfast at Tiffany's, it was on on Saturday afternoon but I couldn't watch it then as I had a few other things to get done. Today I am enjoying it all the way through and it feels very luxurious lazing about with a coffee and a croissant or two, then a cup of tea, plus dippy dog laying beside me keeping me warm

This afternoon I will be fighting my fear of drilling holes....really it's just lack of practice but by the end of the day I should have this well and truly licked. Tonight once I've finished all the heavy lifting/drilling, I hope to be hemming my music room curtains which will go a long way to helping the room feel finished.

the sun has got his hat on at last and it's a lovely day :j

Souk08

Hi love, all sounding very cheerful your end X