lionheartedgirl promises to let it shine :)

lionheartedgirl

I will take some educated guesses!! :cool:

choogirl

Hi LHG

Wow sounds like life is very exciting for you!

Hope todays date with the barman goes well.

Enjoy! xxx

LittleBoots

Can't wait for your update

lionheartedgirl

evening all, just a quick one (I know I always say that and then do the opposite!)

last night was mostly great. A few wobbles in the early part of the set, but once I settled down and got into the swing of things, I was able to relax and really get into the music and enjoy myself. The chords I missed were glossed over by those listening, but I know I made some mistakes. However, the good thing is that the singer and guitarist have said they would love for us to do some more :j so I will carry on with this. They rehearse twice a week and I can make one of those so that could become a regular Sunday evening fixture I only have one picture of my harp in the pub so will post that some time, but may get some others from other people.

today - not so great. Unfortunately he cancelled I texted to say when I would be finished as we agreed the other night, but he texted back to say he had lots to do before he started work and could we reschedule. I texted back sure no worries etc, as I think it's a polite brush off. If he gets in touch again, great, if not, I will get over it

I am a little sore about it and now feel really stupid, but I know this will pass and if I hadn't taken the opportunity blah etc etc.

So I used the time to go to the harp showroom in London instead I was pleasantly surprised by some of the harps and there may be an affordable option and a good compromise (well, relatively speaking - nothing in the harp world could really be described as :money: ).

It was really hot and sticky as well as being soaking wet, so probably not a bad thing we didnt meet up - I looked awfully like a brunette version of Garth from Waynes World when I got home and my hair was beautifully straight and glossy this morning honest!!! :rotfl:

Onward and upward I hope. I'm off to bed in a bit as I am ridiculously tired from all the excitement of this week. Need to practice Flying Without Wings :eek: for a wedding on Saturday (not a favourite I have to say!) but shall then be heading up the stairs.

Hope everyone is well xx

hypno06

Don't read too much into the "date" thing.....

I made the approach (via linkedin of all places :rotfl:) of my lovely friend about a week before my birthday, way back in November. He came back to me and we arranged coffee for 2 days after my birthday....however, he happened to catch me the day after my birthday when I was at work but very hungover, no makeup etc etc etc, rather green about the gills.....(well, I had just celebrated my 40th!)

The next day, coffee date day, he sent me a text to say that someone at work was off sick, he had to cover their meetings, so would get back in touch to rearrange.

Of course, I assumed he had seem me in my "less than best" state, and had second thoughts Which actually would have been fair!!

I then tried the whole "if you still want to do coffee, I'm free next Mon or Weds" type thing, but strangely enough, there was always a reason why he couldn't. So I gave up. But I knew I had had the bottle to make the approach in the first place, which I never thought I would have had the confidence to do. So if I could do it once, I could do it again, one day.

We *did* rearrange coffee, and again it was postponed,.......we finally got that coffee date in mid-January :rotfl:

He is still my lovely friend......and I have had many last minute postponements of dates since, but I now know enough about his life to know that they are genuine, that's just the way it is, so I can choose to work with it or walk away. No need to mention which I have chosen so far :D:D:D:D

But to think I very nearly gave up because he cancelled that first date :eek:

So firstly, don't assume he doesn't want to see you - he may just have too much to do......

Secondly, you did something that would have terrified me a few months ago. Never underestimate how powerful a woman you are Missy!!!

x

Wordsmith

Hello, lionhearted girl. I am only ever passing through the site these days, but am keeping up with your diary and am so pleased and happy to read of the great things going on. Don't give up on the barman! (And don't, don't, don't go there with married friend! It's flattering to be shown attention when you are feeling as though love life is going nowhere and you feel vulnerable, but it will be so not worth it. You know that, but I can never resist the chance for a bit of finger-wagging.) Your courage gives me the impetus to keep fighting. Not that I am going to chat up barmen or anything - I know just the one and he is his own best customer, although he's always very nice to me ... but then he has to be because he comes looking for change several times a week because he's forgotten to go to the bank. Ah, what it is to be needed.

redsquirrel80

Hi Lionhearted.. basically, what Hypno said Remember it was him that got in touch in the first place, so don't give up hope. And if he has changed his mind/ chickened out.. then he's a fool!

Lovely to hear things are going so well with the harp playing... can't beat wandering round music shops lusting after instruments!

Shoe_Gal

Another seconder for Hypno!

Souk08

How exciting and dont worry about the postphonement/cancellation. Que sera and all that. The girls are right, you're being brave and getting out there and THAT is priceless!!!!

lionheartedgirl

thanks so much everyone it has stung a bit after everything with MrP (who is still on every now and then but I think of him now as rather living in fairy land when he says he's definitely coming etc :rotfl:) but onwards and upwards I hope. I am in London again on Monday, and have a day off to myself on Sunday so will drop him a little line to see if he is free. If nothing comes back, well there we are.

Spurred on by bravery though, I am contemplating approaching another guy who I have a huge crush on. I am furiously playing the traffic light game in the hope of getting positive signs (!!) and just biding my time til the bravery levels are restored.

things have been crazy over the last few days, and I am glad of a quieter couple of days coming up. Harp has been full on, life has been full on, and I have had a wonderful time but am feeling rather bedraggled now.

I have an app called Way of Life which tracks three things in a simple way each day. You tick/cross each thing and it gives it a red/green indicator so you can look for trends etc. - I have set them up for:

* Looking After Myself - to get a green here, I have to have eaten properly and done my skin stuff before bed (always do it in the morning!) and gone to sleep at a sensible time.

* Exercising - self explanatory - doesn't matter what I do for this as long as it's something

* Harp Practice - Classical - I distinguished because I did lots of work last week for the pub gig (jazz/blues/poppy stuff) but I must keep on top of the other stuff as well.

The first week I used it was all green, last week was a sea of red. It has been interesting as I felt utterly frazzled last week compared to feeling fantastic the week before. It's a simple thing but will be a good tool for me I think.

I did my parents' wedding anniversary party on Sunday and it was wonderful. I started baking on Saturday night and didn't sit down til 9.30pm on Sunday, but everyone had a great time and we have some fantastic pictures to remember the day by. My mum's friend came with her juvenile Dalmatian, so we had 6 adults, 2 kids and 3 dogs :rotfl: brilliant!

As a result, I spent most of yesterday powered by cake. I haven't had a day like that in months, I ate two slices of Nigella's Old Fashioned Chocolate Cake and 3 Hummingbird recipe book cupcakes. I really enjoyed all of it but it was a definite red on Looking After myself yesterday, and I won't be repeating it for a while as I would get very bored!!

Saw new pupil again last night, and then went for a drink with the lovely vicar. It was great to see her although there was more news about XF we didn't dwell on him (had more exciting things to talk about) but suffice to say, I am well out of it, and reminders of this are a good thing.

Tonight I have a Zumba class and will then be collapsing in bed, ready for a much calmer week to come. 2 work from home days, a harp lesson tomorrow night and then a night in on Thursday :j

Friday will be another rehearsal with my singer friend, Saturday another wedding (although a bit shorter this time) and then Sunday I am going for a ride on my new bike and going to the seaside for fish and chips

Not long til spa break and boy is it needed!!!