My home is a mess

jpscloud

Hope you feel better soon Wilf... I'm sure this weather is making a lot of us a bit low at the moment.

Don't forget to have some "you" time (dawdle over that coffee and have something nice to eat, maybe).

Soworried

Hugs Wilf, I hate it when I feel like that. x

wilf55

thanks jps sometimes i almost feel worse with me time its like i feel i have wasted time that i could have spent getting everything in order cleaned decorated etc to be nearer goal of everything being done so can spend time doing what i want IYSWIM

alec_eiffel

I like the analogy of the invisible window. I always used to say it was like everyone I knew was on a train and I was left at the station. I had a complete breakdown in June 2003 and emerged after 5 weeks in bed with the little flicker of something that life was going to change. I guess that's the old cliche about hitting the bottom or something.

About the room colour thing, I really think environment can have a big impact on how we feel in general whether depression is around or not. Space, light, air and that general feeling that I'm taking care of myself are all an amazing help to me.

alec_eiffel

wilf55 wrote: »

thanks jps sometimes i almost feel worse with me time its like i feel i have wasted time that i could have spent getting everything in order cleaned decorated etc to be nearer goal of everything being done so can spend time doing what i want IYSWIM

Ikwym wilf. I have to say, and I know I sound a bit evangelical at times, but I am almost glad to have been down there and had to sort everything out because I get to see how great things are now and how I can change things in my life to make me happier and have things the way I like. I think sometimes with depression we think that things are out of our control so every time a bit of control is reclaimed - even if it's just doing the washing up or something, then it's a huge positive. Letting go of the past and not beating ourselves up about the could have and should have is huge imo.

wilf55

thanks soworried too
right off to at least start the kitchen will make some calls whilst i attempt it

wilf55

alec my partner had a breakdown 2 years ago and we are still struggling with getting medication right etc he lives in the bedroom hardly ever comes out he has unofficially stopped taking one lot of his medication and is less zombified now but does seem more liable to snap snarl and shout

wilf55

gone for a little bit now til the post are washed and the worktops wiped at least

alec_eiffel

It's tough wilf, I pretty much have no memories of that time, I think my brain was protecting me from myself. Thinking back I feel terrible for DH , I remember he took time off work to look after me, but can't remember much else, you're doing a grand job to get through it. It takes time for everyone.

Cat501

morning messies, (((hugs))) wilf I do see what you mean about feeling guilty about me time, I don't know how but I think that's something you have to try and change your way of thinking about. Try and look on it as vital medication, which it is!!

Finding the right meds for depression is an absolute minefield, 12 years and I'm not there yet!:o

Buttercup, WD hasn't been delivered yet and still no word from them at all. The delivery people are contractors obviously but it was bought from Ap*li&nc* Dea*s online!

Plumber has been and is now away to get a part.
Thought he'd just come back but it was the police looking for neighbour's son.

Well done everyone on all your achievements and good luck to everyone with a list of things to do today xxx