My home is a mess

Cat501

aww thank you MM! xx I'm just sad and scared - with my new tabs I was really starting to feel a bit more 1. awake 2. motivated 3. sociable and 4. hopeful, but for the last few days I've felt back to square one with all of them! I remember this happening the first time I was on Prozac about 8 years ago and I really don't want it to happen again, I so desperately want these new ones to be the ones that are going to pull me out of this 20 year slump and help me get a life and one day, a job! It seemed like they were going to be....and now I just don't know....still, I have one more step up in dosage I can go. I think I'll phone my CPN on Monday just so he can perhaps reassure me.

So sorry for the moaning. Snookey, hope you are feeling ok, YL too, Kitty hope you're feeling better, hope everyone else is having a good weekend and all MIA, come back soon! Hugs to all xxx

Rummer

Cat, sorry to hear you are not feeling great. Maybe you should give the CPN a call over the weekend instead of waiting until Monday?

YORKSHIRELASS

Cat, sending you a hug. Its scary when your feelings seem to be taking over and you cant pull yourself out of it. Post on here if it helps - and definitely get some medical advice if you think you need it. Take care xxx

brightonman123

BB, dont get down about it., i was in same position, and now doing a 'life laundry'.. dont rush it though.

Just aim do one room (or part), each day.. take it easy, an hour or so at a time, and rest in between with a choccy biccy!

1st priorities is hygiene- kitchen first, then bathroom, as most likely these places used several times... its quite theraputic, and good exercise!

clear out junk you dont need - sell on gumtree, friday-ad etc, or give away on freecycle etc (save money AND eco-wotsits, by not having to take it to the tip.

get some packing / storage boxes (Again, ask for free, from freecycle etc!), and put stuff into some sort of order-

all bills / letters in one, clothes in another, tech stuff, and so on.. this will help declutter your place, and your MIND!

have a good hoover / scrub carpet if needed.. re arrange to suit YOU.

PS-
There is a Social Fund loan system that I have used (via jobcentre), interest free loans for buying household items such as a washine machine etc.. diesnt have to be new stuff- check https://www.dwp.gov.uk site for more

Cat501

thanks guys, you're all so great! xxx I've been finding it hard to post, I sit here staring at the screen and it's like there is something in my head blocking me from "communicating" but I'm trying to push through it. I just feel such an idiot when people here have real problems. I mean, nothing has happened to precipitate this slump. I was so hopeful and just want that feeling back.
Anyway I'm off to Tesco again shortly with Dad, need a few Xmas decorations and of course yellow sticker bargains, at least I'm getting out the house and I hope it will cheer me up. What I really need is a damn good kick up the backside to get on with something in the house!:)

thank you so much again and loadsa hugs back! xxx

snookey

Cat you will get through this and the medications they have now are much better than the old ones. I tried every anti d before finding the combination Im on now and so far they are working. If you are finding things really difficult phone the crisis team even if its just for a chat.
MessyMare I can just picture you shaking every present and trying to guess its contents,lol.

Yorkshire lass Im glad you have found a place to go with your son. Hopefully he will love it and you will make some friends there.

Iv done some cleaning this afternoon. The cats have trod muddy paws through the house so Iv been mopping all the floors, twice . Cleared out some drawers,moved furniture, put the big bird cage out in the back and put billy in his smaller cage. Cleaned the sides in the kitchen,did a load of washing and cleaned the bathroom. Sorted out a basket that contained every househod object .

Im determined to do one small job a day and get rid of carp . Im fed up with paper and bits of tat laying in drawers. I alway find getting rid of objects difficult as it feels wastefull even if its a bobble or a nail. In saying this Im still forcing myself to chuck as much as possible.

Right Im going to sort more washing. See you all later.

helen_jelly

Evening all

Cat - huge squishy hugs hun, keep posting and talk to us about it, you may think its drivvle but its not to us - lots of love

Today I have achieved nowt, nada, not a bloody thing and do I care - not a jot, I've had a bloomin headache all day!

Tomorrow will be different as is every day

Helen x

laurel7172

Yes, Cat-keep posting, or, if you can't, never worry about whether you're welcome back x

Hugs to everyone else having a hard time or bad news x

I've had a scary fortnight. Pitching into bed with exhaustion as soon as I'm in from work...just like I was in the months before my liver failed. Fortunately, I had a routine appointment on Weds and that will pick up anything frightening. And in any case, I think I now know why I've been feeling so awful-I seem to have a nasty infection under a tooth. Spent Friday night chewing raw garlic (natural antibiotic) so I'm not pleasant to be around, but it reduced the pain to a manageable level and I even got up into the loft today where DS and I laid twelve rolls of insulation. Can't manage any more at this precise moment because it's such a mess up there...unsurprisingly.... Tomorrow, somebody from Freegle is coming for the broken fence panels still sitting in the garden, so that's a job saved.

And on Monday-call the dentist

laurel7172

Oh-and question of the week-Mummy, is there any chance we could clear out the garage for the band we're starting?

(Hollow laughter and offer of study instead)

jpscloud

Cat, hugs - you're not alone. Same for anyone else feeling down in the dumps - hugs all round, in fact hugs whether you need 'em or not today!

I'm down too, lots of complications after the surgery for my family member, it's been a month now and things are not looking good. We're hoping that he will be moved back up here next week. I couldn't even go to see him this week as I have a cold.

Needless to say mess is not getting sorted at the moment, but maybe when I break up for Christmas in two weeks time I will be able to get a bit done. We'll see - I might settle for one room being really clean and decluttered (probably the bedroom) and not worry about the rest.

Edit: Laurel, hope it's nothing serious - take care of yourself.