Improving my life in 2011

Mags30

She's very depressed about it, it's horrible getting older. She also has to go for a medical if she is to continue with her job for another few years. She wants to keep working but is really nervous about the medical which she doesn't even have an appointment for yet so it's all rather stressful just now. I'm worried about her because I don't think retirement would suit her. She doesn't have hobbies, grandchildren or anything much else to do......

I'm out of the habit of updating here sorry but will do a quick update.

I've been rid of the painter for weeks now :T Not even sure why but it was him who stopped texting me :rotfl:I met him only once after that night I was furious about giving him a lift when he had the return bus ticket.

It was at the coffee place and some random man sitting at a nearby table in the outdoor smoking area kept talking to me about his dogs. I politely chatted back about the dogs and I think maybe painter was insulted that I wasn't giving him my full attention. He left rather quickly and didn't text me again. I never bothered to check with him why he didn't want to talk to me anymore.

Last weekend I drove past him on the road near my mothers house. I just waved but didn't stop Later he asked my mother if I had been in a hurry :rotfl:so she told him yes, I was going to meet my "boyfriend".

Really lucky he got tired of me because he is still staying in that city house and only going home to the country at weekends. (Just like I do). When he last spoke to my mother it appeared that loads of the neighbours where he is staying have employed him to do DIY/maintenance jobs.

Onepoll £30.50

Skinny puss (the one without the collar) calls almost every morning now and sometimes again in the evening. Usually I just feed him and he goes away again. We don't have much of a relationship really.

MrsB hasn't been well either, she's back in hospital but is improving again now after a pretty horrible time. She reacted rather badly to an antibiotic. It caused problems with her liver and her skin became yellow (jaundice). She was terrified that this was the cancer having spread it wasn't but she was really upset and sick a lot, not eating, etc. Her liver counts are really high and she has to stay in hospital until they have reduced a bit.

Toxic friend is tired of the inconvenience all of this is causing. Her dad MrB has been sick too. He has a bad chest infection he can't shake off. Probably because he's run down from stress and worry. Toxic friend did manage to go on her expensive spa break and she bought a pair of boots I've fallen in love with. Normally her clothes wouldn't be my style but the boots are perfect. They are flat, tan leather and knee high, €175 from Carl Scarpa.
They are wasted on toxic friend because she bought them to wear under her trousers, not with the trousers tucked in or anything.

I'm still doing Curves and my attendance is mostly good. I did personal training there last week and it was fabulous, I loved it. It was so hard and I ached all over the following day. Re-booked for this evening but it didn't really happen because it was busy there and the instructor kept being called away to talk to other people. Was really disappointed but will re-book again soon.

Sorry for not being very cheerful, hope everyone's well, going to catch up as much as I can with other diaries after I've hit "reply"

Shoe_Gal

Good to 'see' you back

Mags30

Today I found €20 :Ton a flower-bed in a carpark. There was nobody around who might have dropped it and it was already wet from the rain so I pocketed it before the rain destroyed it. Also found 2 of the €7.50/£5 off No7 vouchers from Boots today.


Went to Zumba at Curves this evening. I HATED it, spent lots of time looking at the clock and hoping it would be over soon. Paid €5 for the class but highly unlikely I'll go back. Wasn't expecting to love it but hadn't thought I'd hate it so much. What I did like about it was that it got me out of the house for a while on a miserable dark wet evening.

MrsB hasn't been well. She is improving but may need daily blood tests for a month to monitor levels of bilirubin in her liver. At least I think that's what they are for, toxic friend isn't the best at explaining things like that. Toxic friend truly can't see that her mother isn't well. To her daily blood tests mean she'll have a lift to the city as required instead of having to get the bus. She's still being so cold about her mothers ill health it's frightening.

My mother went for a hearing test on Saturday and she was told her hearing was perfectly ok. She's never had any hearing problems but it's the part of the medical she must do that she is most worried about. That seems to have relieved the stress rather a lot. She insisted that I was not to get her a birthday present as the less she hears about being 65 the better. I've never not got her a present before but she really, really didn't want it so I said I'd hold off on persents until Christmas. I'll get her extra things then. Or maybe I'll produce the present or some flowers after the medical if/when she passes. Chances are she will pass but the waiting isn't great. It's probably not until the 1st week in November.


Unfortunately there's also a painter update I was pretty sure I was rid of him except he came to visit on Sunday morning at 10am. For some reason we were up a bit earlier than usual. I was wishing we were still in bed because that would hopefully have embarassed him about visting so early in the morning.

Was such a chore having to chat to him and to make it worse he asked if he could have a lift to the city in the evening. :mad: I felt I had to smile and say ok but I was in such a mood all day over it. Then when I sent a text to say I was leaving in 10mins he replied to say thanks but he was in city already. I wouldn't have been any happier if I'd won the lotto that I didn't have to endure another car journey with him but he had still managed to ruin my day.

This evening I had another message saying he'll be back in the country tomorrow and can call to my mother to fix the lock on a door for her. Will have to ring her in the morning to warn her. So glad I won't be there when he calls but if he keeps calling like that my mother will get tired of him very quickly too. She was sort of annoyed with him for calling so early on Sunday and then having to listen to me complain about him.

New favourite beauty product L'oreal universal lip glow. It's like a tinted lip balm that adjusts to the colour of your lips and is supposed to look different on everybody. Loving the black and pink packaging too.

Mags30

Got invited to a business lunch (followed by a 2 hour meeting) on October 27th. Very flattered that people want my input and it's another free lunch

Saw an interesting new book today, it's called "The Wish" by Angela Donovan and it appears to be branded as the new "The Secret". There will probably be loads of fabulous new books being published in the next few weeks for the Christmas market.

Spilt milk on skinny puss earlier :rotfl:It was his fault for getting in the way of the milk bottle.

Souk08

Ooh I must look that up on Amazon Mags, thanks!

Mags30

Souk08 wrote: »

Ooh I must look that up on Amazon Mags, thanks!

Her website: http://www.thewish.com.au/aboutangela

My mother got her medical appointment for tomorrow week, Thursday 27th @3pm. Will probably be the longest week ever waiting for it.

Had quite a few compliments on my clothes today :T I wore a plain black dress, opaque tights, flat black knee-high boots with a turn-down part at the back and a light brown tweed jacket. I think it was the jacket that people liked. There are quite a few tweed jackets in the shops but I haven't seen anybody wearing them which suits me fine. I think I might get another one and make it a bit of a signature look. My bag from Awear was admired too, it looks like a small briefcase but it's not.

Spent most of the day rushing around. I got a last minute mystery shop to do this morning. It involved cheking out meat products for things like price, country of origin, organic or not.....It needed to be done in the morning but I was running late for an 11am work meeting so I dashed to the supermarket and bought some sausages (to get the receipt with the correct time needed for the report) and had to go back later in the day to actually check out the meat products. Wish I hadn't accepted it at all.

Fitted in a quick trip to Curves as well.

Mags30

Not sure about this exercise business in relation to weight loss. Exercise makes me hungry then I eat more than I normally would :undecided

The darkness is starting to make me miserable already and the clocks haven't even gone back yet. Found it so hard to get up this morning when it was still dark.

Mags30

Unfortunately my mother failed the medical and has not been coping at all well since then, hence my absence from MSE.

The full story: All parts of medical perfect until the urine test/benzo test which showed up positive for drugs. Not good obviously. The drugs in question were the valium that my mother takes way too much of plus she had taken a sleeping pill the night before the medical. Just to be clear she gets/got these drugs from her doctor for anxiety so nothing illegal in that sense.

They put her on sick leave and gave her another appointment to return in 10 days and if the test was clear then she could go back to work. Sounds reasonable except when you are addicted to these tablets 10 days is an eternity. For 2 days after the medical she took the tablets again because she couldn't cope. I tried to talk her out of it but I couldn't.

Then she decided herself that she wanted the job and she was going to stop taking the tablets. This decision was followed by horrific withdrawal symptoms, days spent in bed, non stop crying, not sleeping, not eating, nausea.......and amazingly 10 days later the urine test was clear. But they now want 3 clear urine tests and she still isn't coping at all well. She's slightly better but it's a slow and difficult process. All of the above symptoms are ongoing for now.

Of course getting off those tablets could be the best thing she's ever done and I keep telling her so but it would be so much easier for her to cut down gradually rather than the way she's had to do it.

The responsibility of dealing with her falls entirely on me (I have no brothers or sisters and my dad died of a heart attack some years ago) and it's been really difficult, stressful and upsetting. All of my time has been taken up because of this and I've pulled back a bit from non-essential things hence my temporary absence from MSE.

Mags30

I've not told hardly anybody about this, didn't really want to talk about it while stuck in the situation and my own head hasn't been too clear from the stress but it cheered me up so much that I had some PM's on here from people who've noticed my absence and were concerned about me. That's just so kind, internet friends are the absolute best :kisses:

Yesterday musician friend brought me out for lunch, had to tell him why I wasn't the most cheerful and it was great to talk to somebody about it. He was so kind to me insisting that I need to make some time for myself, etc. I enjoyed the food more than usual too because I've not been eating the best for the last few weeks.

Lula-Hula

Oh Mags,

so sorry to hear your troubles, it's very worrying for you & also very tiring when you're the only one having to deal with everything. I know it's difficult for you, but do try to find a little bit of time for you. It's important to eat, sleep & keep well in & hopefully you'll find things a tiny bit easier to bear if your own health is good.

Thinking of you & hoping thing improve soon
xx