My diary of my new diet and fitness.. eeeeek..

GEEGEE8

Hey Puddy,

Sorry, my updates aren't working in my subscriptions, just says I was the last poster..

I'm not doing great, but not bad either I guess.. Still I gained 3lbs, but have stabilised at that now.. So today I'm going to try and start reducing that again, finding it really hard at the moment though for some reason.

I could also happily eat 5000 Kcalories, mmmm, would be nice lol..

How are you getting on? any of those 3lbs come off again?

puddy

only weighed myself just now and they're off. although a strange thing, on the weight log, it doesnt show the weight i thought i was before my holiday, so either i got confused, which means that i onlly put 2lbs on rather than 3, or i just didnt enter the amount, however the 'excess' is off, now got to concentrate on continuing to lose.

i notice that my target date has moved considerably though, i was supposed to meet my target of 3 stone by mid july and now its moved to 24th july, shame.

to be honest, i have to take one day at a time (a bit like ex alcoholics), every day is a struggle not to stuff my face

funny, the threads dont update for me either, i thought it was just me

GEEGEE8

every day is a struggle not to stuff my face

Yep, same here! It's so hard to try to understand what 'normal' is..!

Had a day at the seaside today, Scarborough, so had fish and chips.. was kinda lunch and dinner and I didn't eat all of it, which was good still, not ideal though, but I enjoyed the day out which was the main thing.. was really wanting an ice cream tho, even tho I was stuffed from the fish and chips and my hands were frozen solid lol.. funny how the mind works.

I do love to have something sweet after a meal, don't feel like I've finished until I do..

Glad your pounds have dropped off, great news!

puddy

I do love to have something sweet after a meal, don't feel like I've finished until I do..

yes its the psychological aspect of it all isnt it? thats why i get so shirty and peed off when people go on about your 5 a day and just eat slightly less and just up your low fat intake, like as if we dont know or hadnt thought of that. i wish i was one of these people that can just 'focus on eating less and doing more' but i cant be that relaxed about it because my sabotur (sp) takes over and im eating and eating. thats often what the advice is at the gp surgery or 'healthy lifestyle nurse', like im going to go in and say 'i had no idea i shouldnt be eating so many pork pies'

anyway, rant over

feeling 'unfinished' or empty in some way without that sweet food, or whatever is your thing, is all about feeling unfinished and empty psychologically. theres no magic answer to that as that feeling doesnt go away (for me anyway) but recognising that to fill it with food is doing you harm rather than giving you the benefit that it feels like at that time. for me (and maybe for you) food is a constantly reliable companion, it never answers back, cricitises, lets you down, leaves you empty etc etc, its so powerful and therefore so dangerous when used as a 'filler'


for me lately the focus has been on health, it has spurred me into this action of analysing what is preventing me from losing weight. i have to tackle it or i will end up diabetic. i spent many years around your weight, good cholesterol (was veggie for many years), good blood pressure, good glucose measurements. I get to my (v) late 30s and suddenly blood pressure goes through the roof, cholesterol is at dangerous levels (6.9)and the glucose goes up to 5.5. around the same time, which is what caused those levels i think, i put on, first a stone, then another stone.

so, the last tests i had back the other week after losing some weight, my cholesterol is now 'only' borderline high at 5.4, my blood pressure is ok and my glucose is 4.5. so the target for me is to lower the cholesterol and get the good cholesterol level up a couple of points and continue to get good measurements elsewhere. i cannot stand the thought that i would have got myself diabetic.

puddy

Hi, hows it going? I saw that you've been feeling stressed and low

this always got me eating for comfort, but i read a post on here a while back and someone said that they have a little mantra to say that when tempted or feeling needy (for food) they say 'im doing this for me' and ive put that in my head when i feel like stuffing after a row

today the scales say ive lost a 1lb. it works out that over the last month i lost 4 lbs, which i was disappointed about. working it out, one of the weeks i put on weight, the week after that i tried to lose the weight i put on, so thats 2 weeks wasted dietwise because of the holiday. the first month i lost 9lb so my goal is to do this for next month

GEEGEE8

Hey Puddy!

I'm strugglin big time, I seem to be back to not thinking about what I'm eating really and back to normal portion sizes

I'm also trying to be happier as a person, and happier with myself and who I am.. in a way I'm hoping that this will help me long term in why I'm overeating..

Yeah, things have been stressy at home, it does feel like we are having a bad time but I am hopeful that it's just that 'first year' of living together and getting into routines and past bad habits. He is used to his mum doing everything in the home, but then he paid the bills.. I on the other hand pay half the bills and expect him to lift a finger in the house. He has said he'll do washing up every other night and take over the hoovering.. once a week upstairs and 3 times a week downstairs. So far this week he's washed up twice, which is right and not done hoovering since Sunday. I'm so tempted to do it myself but I know I have to leave it for him. I have my ironing to do and wash my car, and uni work, so I need to get him to do it. God, it's like training children, his mum could have done a better job, but she hoped on reliance on her to keep him at home I think.

4lbs in a month is great! They do say you should lose it slowly to ensure it stays off.. it's more than I've managed! Well, I don't know as I haven't weighed myself in a while now

GEEGEE8

Oh, and I've been having the energy drinks again... mostly because I can't seem to wake up because of the bad food.. it makes me feel hungover!

puddy

we had a row about this last night. usually i work from home with the odd meeting and visit during the day. yesterday i didnt get home till 9 and had been driving most of the day (since 8am)

when he gets home, the dinner is ready, the place is clean etc etc

i turn up, rubbish all over the worktops, dishes piled up, no dinner

i completely recognise the aim to be happier with who you are, i think that is really important. the only thing i would say without trying to be a nag or doom merchant is that i used this 'strategy' for years and really it simply acted as denial and certainly didnt address my overeating. i hope you're more successful xx

im disappointed in the 4lbs to be honest and found myself eating 4 biscuits today and left over cottage cheese

GEEGEE8

Oh dear, I know what you mean about denial, and you are quite right to be fair..

OH does try to help me out, but is also very lazy as 'he works'... well, so do I! I go Uni, do coursework at home, do all the housework and don't get paid for any of it..

I can totally see why you were pee'd off.. fair enough if they made a mess because they cooked you dinner, but to have made a mess and have no dinner ready is just wrong..

I had to make my OH learn to use the oven, and now he can and would cook for me if I asked him, whether he would do it without being asked I'm not so sure lol..