LittleBoots Big Dreams

beanielou

Yah into being down into the next stone :j

little_h_2

sounds like some fantastic positives there, even if the date wasn't so hot, at least you tried! :j

and congratulations on the weight loss, that is brilliant news

I am hoping for an Assured April after a Manic March. I was going for Awesome but decided I would prefer Assured as I just want to feel a bit more sure of myself and confident enough to say "no thanks, I won't" or "I will, because I can do as I please" as required

I'm sure the mood will improve soon fake it til you make it hey xx

cakelover_2

Hi Littleboots
Just caught up with your diary. As normal, I tell myself to keep up with all the threads but then don't for a couple of weeks and have a mammoth catching up session! Sorry to hear you have been having some down days, you will get through it though and hopefully in the end be able to look back and think "yeah, he wasn't the one because of x, y and z". That's what happened to me, hindsight is a wonderful thing!
How is your application to Saudi going? I think it's really brave of you, I couldn't do it, but then I am a bit of a wimp. Sometimes I tell myself I need to man up a bit, even though I am a girl, lol.
Just wanted to tell you as well your thread is always inspiring, keep up the good work!x

burntfingers_2

hiya littleboots

Sorry to hear your not feeling too good, but these days will pass in time. Try not to be too hard on yourself...

Well done on the weight loss too that is something positive and the Girls Day out sounds brilliant a real good 'YOU' time and I am sure that you have got a fab mate to go with you too.:j

As for the date, maybe as your not feeling yourself at the moment its best to leave well alone...concentrate on getting you better first...and when you feel happier in yourself then go out and about on dates.:)

Can't believe its a month since you set your last list which inspired me to do mine....the time is just flying by...

Hope you have a better day today.

BF xx

LittleBoots

Hey Everyone

Little_h - fake it til you make it makes soooo much sense :j. I'm aware that theres a fine line between smiling while getting on with things and totally ignoring a situation and not dealing with it properly.

Cakelover - Nice to see you, time does fly eh? Thank you for your lovely post, I'll pop over to yours in a bit

BF - I'm still to do my list for this month, it will appear soon! I'm still glad I went on the date, it went okay just wasnt any spark there but the fact that I can actually go on one without comparing every minute to being with the ex is a very good thing :D:D.

Despite feeling blue of late I know I am in a far better place than I was at the beginning of the year. I know where I am, maybe not too sure where I am going but theres no false hope etc holding me back now.

I was on the bus home from Curves today and started to think about the things I had going for me :rotfl:

• Got my health, organs, bones, joints and all the bits keeping everything connected and protected seen to work well
• Have a good job, yes I moan about it but cant imagine doing anything else
• Own my own flat
• Was measured at Curves today and have lost 5.5 inches and 4lb since I joined :j
• I have nice eyes (so I'm told) and naturally long eyelashes
• I have great friends and a family who are always there for me
• Have some events lined up this month and my sewing class is starting soon
• Have a holiday and a trip to see on of my best uni mates next month
• Also have a few other trips with the girls in planning
• I have been lucky to see some of the amazing natural and man made things this world has to offer. Have been to the Taj Mahal, floated in the Dead Sea, held up the Leaning Tower of Pisa, dived in the Great Barrier Reef, wondered along the banks of Loch Lomond, walked (some of) the walk of fame and many many more
• I plan to see more of the world:j
• I'm a nice person really

Also think about the silly things that make me happy, seeing Westies out for a walk, a dog sticking its head out of the car window, my cat being clumsy, something I planted growing...the list goes on!

Hmmm, its important to remember these things. I find when I feel glum everything becomes glum...thoughts, actions, cant be bothered with anything etc...it gets hard to unglum! So going to try to stay positive, I have a lot to be positive about!

Hoopylass

Thats a really lovely post mrs....got me thinking too about all the good stuff in my life as all too often i think about all the bad stuff!

Looking forward to meeting you on thursday!

little_h_2

yep a brilliant post! great that you can see all the good things going on, and that you have recognised how much you have moved on since the start of the year! :j hurrah! :j

I realised I never posted re. your Saudi plans - these sound fantastic! I have been to Bahrain and Qatar as my mum's friend lives out there. She hasn't been to Saudi although her hubby has and goes occasionally for work.

Bahrain is very moderate, Qatar a little less so. Bahrain is just across a 20km long causeway from Saudi and they get all the Saudi playboys over on a Thursday (our Friday) night for wine women and song :eek: which of course are forbidden in Saudi. It's a fascinating area and culture, and it's amazing to hear of the unrest in Bahrain as when I was there, it was like being somewhere like Manchester or Glasgow with more traffic and better weather. Culturally it's a bit of a desert (boom boom) with not a lot going on gallery/museum/live music wise, but I really enjoyed my time there.

The biggest things I noticed were the complete lack of concept of being environmentally friendly (they drive everywhere as there is no public transport network plus it is so hot!, they are bizarrely fond of greenery which of course takes a lot of water), and the rich/poor divide is quite astonishing with a lot of Indian/Philippino/Indonesian immigrants who do extremely low paid jobs.

Mum's friend says it has taken her a while to get her head around everything but she has thrown herself into learning Arabic which has made it much easier for her to make the most of her time there and she has lots of non-expat friends - she doesnt have kids but is still basically a corporate wife but doesn't have anything in common with them, so she would go nuts otherwise!

I have thought about going to work out there too. Doing finance originally, but also now thinking about the harp as there is lots of work out there in the hotels. But I am a home bunny really and I don't think I would cope being away from family etc for long periods at a time.

I hope you enjoy considering it and make the right decision for you - it wasn't for me but I can see the appeal

LittleBoots

Thanks Hoopy, looking forward to Thursday got my casino winnings spent already ha!

Little_h thanks for the info, I know itd be quite a hard life so lots to think about.

Will update and confess today's spends when get home

burntfingers_2

Hope your enjoying this gorgeous weather and having a lovely day

LittleBoots

Hello

Well yesterday I went to Curves as usual . They are doing a food drive for Womens Aid so afterwards I bought some tins of fruit and veg to donate. They are doing a theme every week, it has to be stuff that lasts so no fresh produce. I decided to just pick up a tin of something each time I go the the shop, its not much really is it? When I went in today they said that everyone who donates will get a voucher for a free makeover at Urban Decay . Pleased with that although I imagine there will be the big sell to get you to buy all the products...

Yesterday I also bought Zumba for the Wii, have been waiting for this for ages as I can never get to a class. Not sure if I like it but will persevere. By that I mean the screen display ets not the actual Zumba.

Still spending a small fortune on fruit . Contines to annoy me that fruit is soooo much more expensive than chocolate but thats just the country we live in!

My mood is getting better, I think i am definitely in the process of washing that man right outta my hair! :rotfl:. I am also starting to look back on happy times we had and see them for what they were rather than wishing I could relive it. If that makes sense. Also, I know this probably sounds awful but until recently I found things a bit pointless without him. E.g going to a gig, the cinema, a walk...these things just didnt feel the same as I wasnt sharing them with him. Even though I loved the company of my friends, I always felt his absence. Thankfully that feeling is fading fast :j:j and I am so relieved for it:beer:.
I'm not sure what I want to do with myself just now, to be honest my life is pretty dull and I dont want to be in the same situation in a years time. Yesterday when I was walking past the shop a couple of kids asked me to buy them some alcohol. Now this happens a lot and I never buy them any but these kids were only about 13/14!! On a Tuesday afternoon, seriously is there nothing better to do on a TUESDAY than sit up the back of the shops drinking cheap cider?? I'm not sure there is actually, it got me thinking about whether I want to live where I am...or move away...go travelling again etc. If I can get my flat sorted and rent it out theres nothing really stopping me going to Saudi, otherwise I'll be sat here in a years time festering along as usual and moaning that I didnt go .

That brings me to money stuff, despite my debt being 10% of what it was a year ago I'm not putting as much effort into paying it off as I was before. I usually just manage to break even nowadays (including social events...:cool:). Since the ex moved out I've obviously had to pay all the bills myeslf, I always had someone else living with me up unti then. So do I look for a flatmate??? Ebay like mad??? I'm not sure but if I could get an extra £500ish together things would be a bit sweeter.

It really is time to sort out and act on these 'Big Dreams'
xxx