Mooloo's New Home, New Year and New Start part 3

Molly41

Oh no I feel responsible as I settled her to sleep on your bed. There is a really good dry cleaners at the bottom of the high street just opposite from the Katherine House Hospice. They turn things round really quickly x

Shalva

mooloo....I hope you had a sleep and today will be a better day for........


molly......im sure that mooloo doesnt feel that you are responsible.......

hope this is the start of a good weekend for all..........

Savvy_sewing

Molly41 wrote: »

Oh no I feel responsible as I settled her to sleep on your bed. There is a really good dry cleaners at the bottom of the high street just opposite from the Katherine House Hospice. They turn things round really quickly x

Oh dont feel responsible. Its OK. I managed to sort things out.
I will take the duvet to the dry cleaners at the bottom of the street. Thats not a problem.
I settled her there first. She doesnt usually wet in the day. She doesnt usually go to sleep in my bed. It was just the fact that I need her to sleep and that was the only place she was going to settle.

The matteress was nearly dry, after usuing a hair dryer on it for a bit:rotfl: and I turned it over. (just as well it was a cheap matteress, as it was about doable for me. If it had been a good one, there would have been no chance.).

The top duvet was not as wet as I first though, once I took the cover off of it. So for last night, I just had a new cover on it.
The bed was not so comfortable, but I managed to put an old quilted bedspread down over the top of the matteress so it was reasonable.

The bottom duvet can go to the laundrette. The main covers are washed, and I will tumble dry them in the washing machine. (its not brilliant and it takes a couple of goes, but it will be done by the end of the day.).

I cried so much yesterday. I have to pull myself together today.

DGD is relying on her granny.

I didnt sleep as well as I would like, but I did get some sleep.
DGD woke at strange times, and this morning at 5.30am. It was difficult to get her to try and sleep a bit longer. She had pull ups on. I will buy somemore today. Then we will just use them until there have been no accidents for a lot longer.

As Minimoneysaver said, she is quite early to be dry still, and I should not be worried.

(Mind you taking a lighter look on the day after is easier, then it is when I am tired, stressed and pushed to the limits!).

Savvy_sewing

Well yet again the day didnt turn out as planned. When we got to Twin1's she was still in bed. She reckons she was ill. Then she said I could leave DGD there, but NO way. It was a tip.I was cross that I had driven all that way, for nothing. She reckons she was ill yesterday, so why not warn us. She also ddnt answer the phone when I rang her to say I was running late. Or that would have helped.

Anyway, I went to my Mums for a bit, and twin2 and hr BF stepped up at midday and took DGD swimming for me, while I went to do battle with the council once more.
I did take the duvet to the launderette, and it was £5.70 for the wash. Then I had to go back and move it on. Which nearly killed me lifting a wet kingsize duvet out of a machine, and into a dryer. The dryer was 70p for 6minutes. I put 42 minutes on the machine. went and had a drink near by and kept DGD amused, and went back. Its still quite wet.
I am now exhausted, and my spine is "twisted" and in agony! I could just about manage the drive home. But in so much Pain, it really is excruciating.
I have cancelled going to Oxford. I just am in too much pain, and am exhausted, emotionally and now physically.

Time for a cup of tea. Then get DGD some tea.

minimoneysaver

Oh no Mooloo, so sorry to hear about your day. I must admit, mine has been crappy again today. I now have a chest infection to top things off and can hardly move. Are you sure not going to Oxford is the best option? Could you go tomorrow, if you are feeling better in the morning? A change of pace is sometimes better.

Savvy_sewing

minimoneysaver wrote: »

Oh no Mooloo, so sorry to hear about your day. I must admit, mine has been crappy again today. I now have a chest infection to top things off and can hardly move. Are you sure not going to Oxford is the best option? Could you go tomorrow, if you are feeling better in the morning? A change of pace is sometimes better.

What a pair we are! I am sorry to read that your unwell, thats the last thing you need at the moment. Hope kids behave for you1

I like to go to Oxford to see BF and he always helps with DGD when we do. But I was not/am not in any way able to drive anyfurther at the moment.
I will decide tomorrow if I can go there or not.
I am worried as my "depression" is really taking a grip on me at the moment. Its not going when i am telling it too! Writing my diary is not helping either. My usual motivational talk to myself didnt work last night.
I get frustrated with myself which is not helping. I get fed up of those around me, and snap as if I was having a hormonal day! except with the patches that shouldnt be happening.
I want/expect more from those around me, and I am not getting it. I hardly ever get it, so why do I expect more help? I know its a futile want/need yet I still get upset that I am left "alone".

I did have some support frm the Fostering Social Worker. She sent me an email. She has arranged to meet DS next week.
Her boss has informed the other chocolate teapots boss, about the funding. Only thing is her email implies that the boss of said teapot didnt know what has been going on. If that is the case, the said teapot has bee lying to me. If I find that out. I will REFUSE to work with same teapot anymore!.
Roll on next weeks meeting! Especially if I am feeling so frustrated and depressed! By heck she will regret meeting me, as I will fire off!

Ofcourse, Gizmo (especially), I know that I will not do my case any good if I loose my usual open and dignified manor. So I am praying that I will regain my composure.

Now I am going to indulge in a cold glass of wine, and maybe risk a hot bath. Pray I can get back out of it! :rotfl:

Savvy_sewing

Well my glass of wine stretched to two. I did manage to get into the bath, with the help of the grab rails and the perching stool. I put on the scented candles, and the bubbles, and I turned the light out. Left the door open so I could here DGD if she woke.
I managed to nodd off in the calm and relax my muscles. Which helped me.
Getting out was difficult, but managed it. Then it was bedtime. i did sleep better. I only woke to go to the loo. Until DGD woke at 7.30ish this morning.
We are on a go slow. We have managed our special K, with berries! DGD loves the berries! There are never enough.
I have a wash load of the bath towels on. DGD put the powder in for me. Actually think its just stopped.
not sure if I just heard the door with the post or the wind. If its post its very early. Its usually late morning into early afternoon before we get any post here.
I am going to go to Oxford when we are up and organised. Today. and my BF is going to come here tomorrow to help me with some of the jobs that are needed doing and DS is never around to help me with.
(better put the things swimming around in my head onto paper so I get full use of him and his power tools). I have a tool box now, but no drills etc etc. Just the basics so far. (Once upon a time I had drills, electric screwdrvers etc but they disappeared due to DS not putting things back, leaving them somewhere and they never re-appeared).
Time to get on and move the washing.
I am hoping that I can at least manage that. Then get our clothes ready for an overnight stop.

Still feel terribly jaded and in a lot of pain, but we must be british, and Carry on regardless!

minimoneysaver

Hope you have a lovely day. x

Savvy_sewing

Back home, alas BF didnt bother to come back with me to do jobs. He is under delusion that DS will do them for me.
I did get a good rest. He decided to take DGD to the park, and I went for a lie down. 2 1/2 hours later I woke up! He had dinner nearly ready and DGD well under control.!
I must have needed the sleep.
We watched a film together in the evening. HOt Fuzz. I had seen it before with Biggest of mooloo at the cinema, in the days when I was free but it didnt matter.
Today we just stayed at his until about 2pm. DGD played with lego, playdough and a balloon. Between us all helping etc I just did some relaxing and reading.

I have to play taxi driver to DS in a bit, collect him from the races, and bring him home.
Not looking foreward to the drive. But no buses this afternoon.

I managed to relax, but am now tired from doing nothing, but thats good, hopefully I will have enough spoons to get through my jobs tomorrow.!

shaz_mum_of__2

sorry your feeling low Mooloo ,I( empathise ..... i am finding it harder to accept my physical deterioration and i dont have a toddler to care for!! although i have started "reminding" my kids and OH that although i may "get on with it" I am in chronic pain most of the time and need more help sometimes.....but often too proud to ask ! I do feel for you because you just dont have the same support network and you need it . My new meds working better with less side effects than others ....acupan , although the last dose keeps me awake if i take it too late ....do your meds need a review , sounds like they aren't doing the trick


Hope SS meeting goes better , stay calm but be firm and you might get that funding yet

Take care , you have my email if you want to talk

Shaz