Mooloo's New Home, New Year and New Start part 3

Savvy_sewing

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Thanks, alas this week I dont have any funds to purchase any. Perhaps I will have to just add to my christmas wish list for me instead!.

Finances are a bit dire at the moment. Its the old pull the horns in at the moment, which is a bit frustrating as after the course yesterday I just want to buy some of the things we used there to be able to make more decorations, and I will just have to wait a bit longer now.! I think I will be asking my Mum and Dad to put some of the bits in my christmas stocking this year!. I so fell in love with the wrapped ribbon work, but it takes metres of the stuff, and all mine are just smaller pieces, usually used for bows really. Oh well, I am still excited at the possibilites that the course has opened my eyes to and I studied some other work that was on display and think that I too could be making things similar, without having to go on the course. Another couple of ladies and I had a good look, and think that we will be able to reproduce some of the things, in our own way of course.:D

DGD is back to her demanding self. And her naughty little fingers in the pie self!. She is a minx at times.

There seems to be a distinct distancing from BF, perhaps he is miffed that I went away for the weekend. Tough. I had such a great time, if I had the funds I would be off again!. Alas I will have to save up a bit more before I could ever do it again.

Certainly has given me an incentive to reduce the help I was giving the twins/DS as if I didnt bail them all out, I could have been off on another course a lot sooner!. I also missed the free listings on Ebay, so I didnt have anything up for sale there or anywhere else for that matter. Now I am back, its the twins birthdays on the weekend, and its time I knuckled under and sorted out a present for them. I cannot spend much, they have had money all through the year. Especially twin1.! Although on other years its been the other day around.
Time to get DGD to nursery.

Savvy_sewing

Morning, I didnt get much done yesterday. I was struggling with my joints. Damp weather on top of a busy weekend didnt help me.
I spent a lot of time looking at websites etc on here, and keeping a heat pad on my back.
Today I must start to tackle the sitting room, and the washing.
I have done a twin and put the emergency electric on. But that is £6 worth so it will last a few days, and I can get the electric when I am near the shop that tops it up, rather then have to go out especially.
DGD is a bit clingy and strange, due to having been away at her grandads I suppose.
Molly's daughter is aiming to take her to the cinema to see the new Aurther Christmas film I believe. It will be her first time at the cinema. I hope that she behaves.

My ups and downs with the BF seems to have reared their ugly heads again! Just when i think its sorting itself out, something goes wrong.
I thought he was getting more and more distant of late, and was seeing less and less of him. Obviously with being away this weekend I didnt get to see him. Anyway, he has admitted feeling stuck in a rut. (What relationship doesnt get that way at times?). But he is unwilling to move forward towards sharing our lives, and he is unhappy in a rut. So I have told him to go away. He is due to go to China on business next week. So I told him to just go away. Then he can think all he likes about what he wants. If I am part of that, then I said he will have to work really hard at persuading me he is worth it!.
Of course that is easier said then done! Its yet another thing that I could have done without. Luckily Biggest of Mooloo did say that I could go to hers for Christmas, (DGD is off to her grandads for 5 days.) so I wouldnt have to be on my own. Although of course I would be on my own part of those 5 days as there is no where I can go and stay.

I am going to not try and anylise or dwell on it anymore then I can help. But its not going to be an easy time.
He is a stubborn old fish at times, and so I do not see things sorting themselves out any time soon. If ever now. But I too, cannot keep going on the same way, wondering if as i get worse health wise, if he would be around or dump me? Wondering if I am wasting my life waiting for something to happen that is obviously not going to happen becuase I also have a child to bring up now.
I am not the package he wants really am I> We all know that, but its not so easy to follow through with that process when a stupid thing called love gets in the way of life. Molly is right, you cannot always help who you love, but it doesnt mean to say that the person you love is right for you, and it can be a toxic love. I think she hit the nail on the head. But thats my sensible head on, and not my heart which has been shining on my sleeve for so long.
Enough wallowing, its time to get breakfast finished and get DGD ready for Nursery.
Then its time to do the washing. Or at least start the washing.

Savvy_sewing

Morning, Spent the day a bit close to home and wallowing! Although I did get 3 washing loads sorted out and through the washer. Molly came to see me in the afternoon, and when i went to Physio she took DGD and her daughter to the cinema, and after I collected them. Apparantly DGD was really well behaved, if a bit chatty. After Physio I went to see twin1 and twin2 and DS were there. They had the riot act read to them about starting to be more responsible etc. Twin2's electric box had been tampered with and gone on fire so they had no electric, so her lodger was also at the flat. I dropped him back off at the house to let the electrician in to change the meter. I also went to see my parents for a cuppa.
So packed quite a bit into the afternoon.
Couldnt be bothered with tea, (DGD had eaten) so ended up just cooking my sausages in the oven, and eating them on a fork! So this morning I am feeling rather hungry.
Molly has been shopping to get some bondaweb for us, so we can continue to make our decorations at home. So I am hoping to find the time to bury my head into my creativity for the next few weeks. Although I will have to pace myself as I over did it at the weekend.
Maybe just do my hour or so in the mornings and possibly an hour later in the day but not evenings as well. We will see. There are so many things I want to do, but first I really have to finish the bags that I am in the process of making.

Savvy_sewing

I had a small blitz on one of the over laiden tables in my sitting room. I also gathered all my christmas fabrics etc and started to make another of my christmas decorations.
I had a sleep in the early afternoon to get me through the day. After nursery we went around to one of the other childrens houses to play and i had a chat with the mum. Made a lovely change from the usual.
I also had a wonderful christmas present arrive today.!:T:T Thankyou to my :A!. One of the lovely CK hampers. Smellies for me!.
I feel quite lucky.
Just cooking a broccoli and cualiflower cheese for my tea. need to use up my vegetables. Ended up throwing out some redcabbage and some tomatoes. Really annoyed with myself for getting out of the menu plans!.
Think I will be having an early night tonight.
The Chairwoman from the LAC review is coming to see me tomorrow afternoon. So it will be a bit of housework to catch up on in the morning.
I think Biggest of Mooloo is coming over to see me, with DGD2 aswell.

Savvy_sewing

Morning, feeling a little jaded after some horrible nightmares during the night. DGD woke me at about 6.30 and all I wanted to do was stay under the duvet.
Last night I managed to finish the diamond dangle decoration, and started another hearts one. Mostly sticking and gluing fabrics to card etc. But it was fun. I left it to dry with some pegs and will sew the beads etc onto it today.
I am stuck with my handbags until I can get the right zips for the pockets. Thought I had them, but not got the right lengths, all too short. If they were too long I could have cut them down. Such is life.
DGD wants me to make decorations with her today. So maybe this afternoon after the Social Has been.
She has nursery this morning. I want a shower and to wash my hair, but I will have to do that after she is in Nursery, as I havent the energy to manage it before nursery.
I think its time for a second cup of tea, and to see if I can muster up some energy.
Molly is off on another sewing course today. Lucky lady. I wish I was going with her! Maybe I will do a course next year. I will remember not to give over spare cash to the children, and remember that every £10 adds up and I could have been going on holiday/courses like Molly.
Oh well. Think I would not have been able to make arrangements for DGD so easily so close to last weekend.
I am looking forward to Molly teaching me what she has learnt on her return. Just want to say that although I am rather jaded, I am not depressed, I am just tired with lack of decent sleep. I am not going to let BF get the better of me. I deserve better treatment, and I am going to learn to do what I want when I want/can afford to do it, no matter how tough it seams.

minimoneysaver

Have you thought about listing some of your decorations on ebay? Also, would it be possible to make the pockets on the handbags with poppers or similar?

minimoneysaver

Sorry, forgot to say......GOOD LUCK for today! I'm sure you won't need it. xxx

Savvy_sewing

minimoneysaver wrote: »

Sorry, forgot to say......GOOD LUCK for today! I'm sure you won't need it. xxx

Thanks, I know that it will be a bit of a stressful time but I hope that she will be more sensitive then the others were! She just wants my opinion really. I hope.

Re the bags, I have poppers on the front. those magnetic ones. but I would like some zips on the internal pockets as the bags are on a special order. If I was just creating, I probably would have played around with other things.

Hadnt thought of putting the decorations on the net, as I am trying to make them for my tree this year. However if I master them and think that they are worth doing, perhaps I will make them through the year and sell some next year. Although I do want to earn abit of cash to boost the funds, I think that my decorations are not quite good enough to sell yet.!

I do need a bit of a push, to get me going really. The problem with my life is that its so full of things to do that I side track and the day is gone.!:o

I have a few childrens things to do as DGD has two parties to go to over the next few weeks, this year I am trying to do the bunting, but heaven knows what I will do for the kids next year!!:rotfl:

Savvy_sewing

Well afternoon. Seems a long day and its only 4pm.Eek.
After DGD had been taken to Nursery I decided to come home and have a soak in the bath. Biggest of Mooloo and DGD2 arrived while I was in the bath. She helped me with sweeping the carpet in the front room (no hoover at the moment) and then she changed the beds for me. The covers are now in the washingmachine on Tumble as they are just a bit big for me to hang out when My arm is not so good.
Molly's daughter collected DGD for me, and Biggest took me to Mr T. Only spent £6.26 though, on the essentials. Needed bread, found some on reduced so have a few different ones in the freezer now, bought the milk, washing up liquid and some cream of tartar so I can make some playdough for DGD.
I was struggling around the shop, leaning on the buggy really. Had a little sit down when we got to the tills and Biggest did the packing etc of the bags. She also drove us there.
I had lunch, then went for a sleep, before the Chairwoman came.
She brought me a small bunch of roses, to cheer me up as she said I was going through a tough time at the moment. Which was nice of her.
She had a chat and was updated about everything. Then she was off to meet the socialworkers that would originally have been here for the meeting.
She did ask if I had recieved the complaints form. I said that I had already filled one in. However I havent heard anything back as yet.
Maybe we have to write a better letter but I just cannot face it at the moment.
Seem to be fighting the doledrums today. Struggling a bit all round really. But chin up (well not litterally or it cuts the nerve endings off), and carry on.! It may be hard to do, but thats all I have to do.
DGD and I have been sewing her a little felt santa stocking. She has a few beads and buttons she has put on it, and now she has glued some christmas trees to it. (When she is in bed I will probably sew it on so it doesnt come off as she used ordinary glue stick.).
I am having left overs for tea. The cauliflower/broccoli cheese from yesterday, and DGD is going to have hotdogs and baked beans. Really simple not so brilliant health wise, but its pretty rare so it won't harm.
I had hoped to do more to the decorations but didnt get the chance and my arm is not so good today so I doubt I will do anymore today. I have a few presents that need wrapping up for DGS1,s birthday, and for the twins birthdays. They are 23 on Saturday.

Savvy_sewing

Had an early night last night. Didnt even get to stay awake long enough to see the Children in Need stuff. Oh well. I was in need. Of my sleep.
Just having to sort out breakfast, wrap DGS1is birthday present and we are off to see them today.
Bitter sweet day. Hopefully they will give us another date to be able to see them, but I am not sure if they are starting to see thier prospective adoptive parents yet.
DGD is being quite testing. or is it just that I am feeling rather raw and she is able to pick up on it.

Molly is on her course and has met someone she used to work with. So I do not worry that she is alone.
Have a good day everyone.
Moo