Immoral_angel's Debt Diary

GirlRacer_2

Hi I_A just been catching up with your diary, glady everything got sorted out for the Birthday treat at the weekend.

I've got to go back to the GP next week with the option of going onto 'happy pills' and I've not got the excuse of PND. I've let life get on top of me and really wish I hadn't, really wish I'd gone for help sooner.

Its as someone's already posted here - if you have a headache you take a paracetamol. Depression is an illness that with the correct treatment can be cured.

You keep your chin up girl and soldier on because we're all rooting for you here. Big Hugs

beanielou

well done on talking the ADs.
Have a fab day on Suday

Snaggles

Hi Immoral, well done on taking the tablet - I felt exactly the same, but every time your brain says 'No, I don't want to take it', tell yourself you are doing this for your kids. (It was the only thing that worked for me.....it made me feel too guilty NOT to take them lol!) In two or three weeks you will be feeling much better, I'm sure, but do persevere with them.

Jo4

Well done with regards taking the first pill. Hopefully things will get better for you. I really hope you enjoy Sunday and have a fabulous time. If you ask the in-laws for help, so you can have more time to yourself, they'd be mad not to want to share time with your beautiful girls.

moonlightpjs

Hi IA
Just wondered how you were feeling today? xx

immoral_angeluk

weller711 wrote: »

Hi IA
Just wondered how you were feeling today? xx

Not too bad. Felt bad this morning as Steve said that when I was looking at Kaitlyn last night it looked like I hated her. MIL's coming round again in a bit and we're going to toddler group later so that'll take my mind off things.

Snaggles

Have you got a gag for Steve for when he says tactless things, as men are *sometimes* prone to?

The way you are feeling towards K isn't you - it's the PND - it plays all kind of tricks on your brain, and makes bonding with/caring for your new baby very difficult. I know none of this is any consolation when you're stuck in the middle of it, but sometimes just knowing you're not abnormal helps.

Keep going with the tablets, and keep talking about it. There will be loads of women on here who have had PND, and will be able to reassure you that you are not going mad.

Thinking about you, and hoping you manage to have a nice, low-stress day today xx

immoral_angeluk

I feel a bit of a fraud this morning. I don't feel too bad. Still a bit off from what Ste said but I do feel better for having spoken to the doctor but now I feel better I keep convincing myself that I've been making it all up or something daft. I know how I've been and I was totally honest with the doctor yesterday but what if it's just bad baby blues? I'm taking the pills for nothing and plying my body with chemicals it doesn't need. Am considering not taking any more and just battling through it.
Oh I just don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I just need to tell myself to snap out of it and start being myself again. It seems stupid that one minute I can be laughing and smiling and the next I'm all over the place. I always thought PND was a constant thing?? I feel a bit low all the time but it's when things get on top of me that I have a complete emotional meltdown... what if I've managed to subconciously convince myself that I've got PND when I haven't?

*sigh*

Snaggles

No, the swinging from one extreme to another is part of the PND. The tablets will stabilise your moods. Try not to worry about filling your body with chemicals it doesn't need - for one thing, it DOES need them at the moment, and for another..... Ever had an alcoholic drink? A ready meal? A cigarette? A MacDonalds? All of them probably have chemicals in that your body doesn't really need, but because they're not 'medicines', your brain doesn't go 'aarrggghh, can't have that, it's got dodgy chemicals in it'.

What if it IS just bad baby blues? In a few days you will feel better, no harm done.....but if it is 'proper' PND, at least you will have made a start on treating it.

Snaggles

Just promise that if you DO want to stop the tablets, you will at least talk it over with the doctor first. Promise???

I said PROMISE??????????