Life after bankruptcy?

Aesop

Nohope wrote: »

Hi Aesop, how are you doing? have you found your ring yet? I will try and find the photo, ( i have'nt forgotten), A big hug from me xx

funny, you should ask that. I had a dream 2 nights ago, that I found it. It was in a box where I store my CDs for backups and software for the laptops, etc.

In my dream I was so excited I had found it, I miss it so much.

When I woke up, I was so excited and then realised I hadn't really found it, and it is definitely not in this box. I know, because I looked in it the other day for a CD, and I was nowhere near this box the day I lost it.

yes, looking forward to seeing your car.

savingwannabe

Did OH completely take the washing machine apart Aesop?

Aesop

savingwannabe wrote: »

Did OH completely take the washing machine apart Aesop?

not yet, still the drum and pump left. He doesn't have the tools and no day off for 2 weeks.

I actually think it has fallen down the side of the sofa. I have ripped the lining and everything is falling right through. I have tried putting my hand down and feeling around, and I can feel something round, but thought it might just be 5p, it is very hard to feel any more around it. I don't know what else to do to see if it is down there. Thought about a metal detector but there will be some metal in the sofa and it might just pick that up.

I need an xray machine!

ani_26

I don't know why i feel so down today. Yes i do. This is the worst i've felt in ages. No pay today or yesterday, means i've no money, until when? I think some is due next monday. Maybe it will be paid early on friday. I hope so. But i knew march was going to be the most difficult month this year. Maybe i should just quit this diary. Its all doom and gloom, nothing ever changes. I've got to get a proper job. Even the job i was supposed to be starting this week, has'nt materialised yet, but then i knew it would'nt. Nothing is ever for sure. Got the promise of another regular job, one i'm not keen on, but at lest its some vaguely regular income. Coupled with the big job thats supposed to be coming? Just waiting for the go ahead from the client? pigs might fly? aaargh....


Stupid threads on how much money to live on. Well, 1st of march today, and i'm doing my weekly shop today, since i've no work for two days. I need £25 to post the work i did over the weekend. Of course, i don't bloody have it, so i'll have to take the work into town, to save myself postage. Do my weekly shop today. I'm out of bread and milk, so its a pint of milk and loaf of bread, to eake out the things i have in the cupboard. 45p and 47p, respectively. So thats it. My food shop this week comes to a princely total of 92p. I found two 5p's yesterday, on the pavement, so i can put those towards my shop, meaning i've spent 82p. Great saving there, thanks to people who can't be bothered to pick up 5p, because it means so little to them. Aaaargh, so cynical today, i've got to snap myself out of how i'm feeling, now. Its bad.


Sort out my dd's when i get back. I've got to work out how i'm going to pay the rent, but i'm hoping i can change my dd for the car insurance. I need to reorganise my finances, make sure the dd's go out when i'm likely to have the most pay, ( whens that )? Oh well, i feel better writing it down. Do i ?, no i don't really. Back to that state where i question, is there ever going to be life after bankruptcy? This is'nt life. This is'nt life at all

savingwannabe

Have you spoken to a benefits agency? This lack of money just doesn't sound right. I hope they can find a way to help you through this. Maybe ring Citizen's advice for an appointment so you can describe how little you have to live off.

i hope you are ok.

ani_26

So much for taking the work to town. I can't be bothered. I can't shake off how i'm feeling now, its getting worse. Theres only one conclusion to all this, but i think i knew that, anyway. Looked in my diary, and i've not worked as much as i thought i had, or i've just missed the pay runs, which means i'll have to wait another month. No work next week, just the odd day. A singleton can't survive like this.Nor is the state prepared to help, after all the taxes and ni i've paid, all these years. Have'nt i said it all, already? I'm just wasting my breath. Just wasting airspace, by breathing. I'm a nonentity. No one will miss me. Can't stop looking out of the window. Its a beautiful day to go. But i don't think i've enough petrol to get there. Try and work out the logistics of how many feet it takes for non survival. Take in the view, enjoy my last drive in my beautiful car. You go with me, for sure. But i don't know if i've got the courage. I've got to dig deep. The ultimate test of courage. Thats all i have left. Jesus

savingwannabe

No hope. Please ring someone for help ok. You can overcome this with help. Please call someone.

ani_26

Like who? Samaritans? They are only a short term chat. Its been done before. Theres just no point anymore. I'm sorry

Maybe its my subconcious kicking in. I had a dream about my house and who had bought it, last night

savingwannabe

No stay and talk. ring me you have my number??

Are you really planning to go?

Things can be done nohope, hold on ok. Please ring the samaritans or someone who can help you.

Aesop

Nohope, you will get me sacked from work, don't do anything like this! Call the Samaritans, go to the Job Centre and say you are desperate. You need to sign on, so you can get some money, tell them you are ready to kill yourself, because you can no longer survive. YOU are on here for a reason, you want help and support.

Go to the council, go and see someone! don't just drive your car off some cliff.

apart from that I am still waiting to see the photograph!