The (not so old) Crocks Cafe -Part 2

LameWolf

*waves very carefully to friends old and new*:D

Still ploddin' along in the Wolf's Lair here.:D Aunty Axe all the best with the DLA [STRIKE]marathon[/STRIKE] appeal.

*Takes deep breath* I've done something I hate doing. I've backed out of something I said I'd do. I've had a fair bit of upset, occasioned by one particular person, and the event I was supposed to attend is being held at his pub. So I've said I'm not well enough to go. It's on Saturday. I feel such a coward, but I just don't need the stress.:( I spent the whole of Tuesday night crying my eyes out due to something this person said, so I feel somewhat vindicated.

Soolin I'll send dad-stay-ok vibes; you deserve that holiday.

Btw Tiger Balm, together with Mr LW's magic paws, is great for my poor aching carcass!:D

formaldehyde_perfume

LameWolf wrote: »

*Takes deep breath* I've done something I hate doing. I've backed out of something I said I'd do. I've had a fair bit of upset, occasioned by one particular person, and the event I was supposed to attend is being held at his pub. So I've said I'm not well enough to go. It's on Saturday. I feel such a coward, but I just don't need the stress.:(

I know how you feel. I always try to do what I've said, the other week I had to back out of going to the cinema with my Dad and he made huge deal of it, I felt so guilty but I was so drained from doing something during the day. But now I look back on it, any one who knows you're in pain and doesn't make allowances for that isn't really worth stressing over. I'm sure your true friends will understand if you explain that you just can't cope with that specific situation along with everything else you have to deal with, and when you're feeling better you can arrange something else :beer:

saschasmum

I suffer from agoraphobia and always get upset when my brother gets annoyed because I can't go out. He just doesn't understand me. It takes days to recover from a doctors appointment. I sometimes feel that only people who really understand me are my next door neighbour whose mum suffered and an online chat friend who suffered / suffers.:(

At the moment I'm also going through a really bad depressive stage and I'm finding it hard to do anything. That includes getting showered, dressed and cooking meals. Looks like it will be toast and sandwiches for a few days. Last time I felt this bad I almost burnt the kitchen down, first of all I left the gas burner on all night then I put tea towels too near the burner and set it alight and the final thing was I left some cardboard near the burner and the went into flames. So no cooking for me for a while. When I spoke to my brother I made the mistake of telling him and he just sounded annoyed / disappointed with me and said well have you showered got dressed and I said no so he just sighed.

I even sent him an email explaining just how bad I'm feeling and how I'm struggling to get through every day and he's the main reason I do.I thought it would help him understand me slightly better but he just phoned me and then asked what it was all about:(

Sorry to have rambled on I'm just feeling very sad at the moment

LameWolf

saschasmum wrote: »

Sorry to have rambled on I'm just feeling very sad at the moment

Awww, sweetie, it's like banging your head against a brick wall trying to tell people who just don't "get it".:(
I have some understanding; I can leave the house ok to take dogs out if I have any staying with me (as long as my mobility buggy is there for me to use;)) but I can't cope with it if I meet someone while I'm out. I have to have my DH there if I'm to cope with other people. And I don't do phones at all - if the phone rings, I'm a gibbering wreck!
Is it CBT they're sending you for? (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) I do hope it helps you; also, if they're tinkering with your meds, don't forget it can take a while to adjust to a new dosage/type of med.
Please stay safe; that's scary stuff re the kitchen!

saschasmum

LameWolf wrote: »

Awww, sweetie, it's like banging your head against a brick wall trying to tell people who just don't "get it".:(
I have some understanding; I can leave the house ok to take dogs out if I have any staying with me (as long as my mobility buggy is there for me to use;)) but I can't cope with it if I meet someone while I'm out. I have to have my DH there if I'm to cope with other people. And I don't do phones at all - if the phone rings, I'm a gibbering wreck!
Is it CBT they're sending you for? (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) I do hope it helps you; also, if they're tinkering with your meds, don't forget it can take a while to adjust to a new dosage/type of med.
Please stay safe; that's scary stuff re the kitchen!

Thanks LW I'm sorry you're having a rough time as well I can't even go into my front garden on my own. My neighbour bless her comes with me. If someone talks to me I just start stuttering. I'm thinking of asking my brother to take me to Aldi's just before Christmas. I'm hoping he will take me when its quiet. Trouble is if I ask him then can't bring myself to actually go I know he will be disappointed. He tends to think that if he just keeps telling me to shower, get dressed or go out I'll suddenly be cured.

Yes it is CBT but that won't be happening till next year. When I see my psychiatrist again I think he will up me to 300mg Trazodone which is the maximum dose. Thing is I'm not sure they are working enough if you know what I mean.:(

Indie_Kid

saschasmum wrote: »

Yes it is CBT but that won't be happening till next year. When I see my psychiatrist again I think he will up me to 300mg Trazodone which is the maximum dose. Thing is I'm not sure they are working enough if you know what I mean.:(

You can ask for your medication to be looked at. In terms of what you're on, how much, how often, etc. I've never had problems doing that - it's usually "this isn't enough / I'm not getting on with it. Is there anything else I can have?" And then I'm usually given something that works, or another form of treatment.

saschasmum

sh1305 wrote: »

You can ask for your medication to be looked at. In terms of what you're on, how much, how often, etc. I've never had problems doing that - it's usually "this isn't enough / I'm not getting on with it. Is there anything else I can have?" And then I'm usually given something that works, or another form of treatment.

Thank I will get it increased to the max and then if it still not working enough I will see what can be done. I think I need to write some things down for my next appointment as I'm always in a state when I get there that I forget everything

saschasmum

Just received my next appointment for my psychiatrist. Its 22nd Novemeber. November is turning out to be a bit of a crap month. On the 5th I have an endoscopy, on the 12th I have an ultrasound and on the 19th I have my diabetic eye test. 4 times leaving the house is more than I've gone out since January. I'ma already starting to stress about it.

Indie_Kid

I hope you're ok. Do you have anyone who can come with you? I've found this makes so much difference.

saschasmum

sh1305 wrote: »

I hope you're ok. Do you have anyone who can come with you? I've found this makes so much difference.

THanks, my brother always takes me as I can't go out on my own. I'm wondering whether to ask my psychiatrist to have a word with my brother. Maybe then he would understand me better.

The endoscopy and the ultrasound are being done because my doctor thinks I might have gallbladder problems. In one way it would be good if it was because then at least they could do something about the pain, but on the other hand if it it will mean a stay in the hospital