The cutting out/cutting down alcohol thread (part 7)

budget_babe

Hi Guys,

So sorry but I won't be stopping tonight, Budgie is sooooooooooo tired and I am off to bed very soon.

I know it: "Ain't very rock n roll"

But I have had the most awful day at work, so stressful. Some days you think is it really worth it?

Anyways just wanted to update Miss P that its 1 af day so far for Budgie please , I am fed up, but hey ho no red wine was purchased Thankyou to our lovely Miss P hugs to you and Dear Piglet. (()) xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hugs to everyone that is struggling and "very special hugs to the very special ones"

I am feelin like an old girl tonight. Reminds me of Rod Stewart and the Handbags and gladrags song.

Love n hugs Guys from a jaded and worn out Budgie
(()) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

budget_babe

From back in the day.....................

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u6dK407I0uI

Does anyone remember these?

Ok off to bed now, I can't keep my eyes open.

Budgie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

yellowmonkey

budget_babe wrote: »

From back in the day.....................

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u6dK407I0uI

Does anyone remember these?

Smokie

Alice. Who the **** is Alice

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wc2coufE-Hc

Sleep well budge and take it easy

DecemberBaby_2

Smokie. Yes I do unfortunately :rotfl:

ForeverHopeful_3

Ever so quickly can I say,

Miss P no target please, but 1 in total for now

One day at a time for me.

Much love X

Lurkio

budget_babe wrote: »

From back in the day.....................

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u6dK407I0uI

Does anyone remember these?

Ok off to bed now, I can't keep my eyes open.

Budgie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

only cos my (older) sister liked them :A :whistle:

maman

FH, just wanted to agree with marru and others. AFness doesn't come easy and bells keep ringing but it does get easier with time. I think it was debtmonkey said earlier that for some of us habit is a very strong reason for drinking. When I first started trying some AF nights I was pacing around madly and had to have a drink in my hand at all times after 6pm whether it was water, fizz, tea or anything else. I still miss it but that urge to drink obsessively has passed. I'm sure it will for you eventually.

Sorry it's not a good evening for you Budgie, sleep well. Good luck with a new day tomorrow YM.

1AF please MissP.

happyshopper

Hi all. I'd like to publicly (sp?) rejoin the monthly challenges and pledge 20/30 please Miss Piggy. I've been doing them all privately this year and pretty much keeping to 20 AF each month but due to varying levels of life-being-crapness haven't quite made it the last couple of months so I think updating on here will get me back where I want. Am definitely still a cutter-downer, have had some very nice G&Ts this weekend that I don't regret at all. Nearly had another tonight to cheer me up after biking home in the p!ssing rain without a coat but decided not to and have had 48 cups of tea and a whole packet of pitta bread and hummous instead. And a packet of garibaldis. And some soup. If I didn't cycle I'd be a balloon

Apropos of nothing, am v. excited about the forthcoming :footie:. Can't believe Capello left out Walcott and is taking all those Spurs players . The man's clearly lost it. Oh hell, how am I going to get to 20AF with all those games to watch? :eek:

Lots to contemplate on the thread these days. Hope those in trouble find a way through. Somebody on here said "when you're going through hell, keep going". Have been thinking about that quite alot recently.

HS

eselt

Hi all- hope everyone is OK tonight.

115k- group work sounds good, just remember how apprehensive you feel and recognise that everyone brave enough to enter that room feels the same way as you do so you've already got something in common.

SIM- sounds to me like you realise your 'crisis' point has come, and you sound sick and fed up of being sick and fed up. Good on you that you recognise this and are positive about doing something about it. I've had 7 detox's over the past 13 yrs of various kinds all on the NHS (home detox, GP supervised librium detox, 1 week residential hospital with follow up group work etc) and I've also taken antabuse, campral and kudzu, but I made the mistake of thinking I could have these 'done to me' and not really put any work in myself so everything I tried failed after a while. It wasn't until I got my head around the fact that I wasn't a bystander in this process and had to combine NHS support with personal motivation, effort, coping mechanisms for stress and self acceptance of a sober me that things started to change and I managed (for now) to stop. There is ALWAYS hope.

Catch everyone later- have a good night.

graemecarter

SimIsOnTheUp wrote: »

Hi DM1A,

Hope you're having a relaxing evening.

Thanks for your words.

I'm starting to feel a little better, having made a start on tidying up my flat.

You're spot on regarding the beating myself up. I've heard many people tell me, over the years, that I do this way too much.

Booze is also 'only a liquid'.

However, it will kill me, if I don't stop, and the sensations I've been getting in my head this last weekend (sort of an out of body experience - scary as f_ck) as well as the ridiculous amount of money wasted / phone sold, blackouts, and inability to even remember 99% of 3 days.. Well, things will get worse, if I carry on.

I've worked with some of the guys at the homeless charity, who've lost everything, due to booze, bad luck, drugs, or all three, and it's very humbling. Worryingly, last week, not even that stopped me getting so hammered, I could only vaguely remember getting to the hotel room.

I would dearly love a family one day, as well as genuine friends (who don't just call when they want to get pished!) and that isn't going to happen if I keep this madness up.

The fog is starting to clear, after lots of rest today, thankfully. The regret and self - loathing may take a while to shake off.

Watching the ever - cool Idris Elba in 'Luther' should be good trashy fun tonight, and always cheers me up. Such a great Actor

Cheers - Sim.

Good post - booze is only a liquid, true. However, booze in my body is more harmful than other liquids.....
I am not safe when drinking alcohol - I don't think I'll ever be safe either.
All I need to do is not pick up a drink today, and that's enough.
However, to ensure I do that I need to put effort and work in - the more I do = the more insurance I have about drinking.
Sobriety for me is not passive. Just because I wanted to stop or cut down, didn't mean I could. I had to put action in, and do something different.