The cutting out/cutting down alcohol thread (part 7)

penelopedee_2

ForeverHopeful wrote: »

I'm AF tonight. Nothing in the house. I cannot describe to you how difficult it was to drive past the shop on my way to pick up the boys But I did it as a BIG test to myself that I can do it.

My two options tonight are, an early night or a very good film to take my mind off the fact that I don't have a glass of wine in my hand. I've been fine up until now because the boys have kept me busy. But both in bed now, so the REAL bells chime loudly

Well done FH, luckily I don't pass my normal shop on the way back from work or I would really struggle.

Sadly to say, the ironing mountain always helps me out when the bells ring!

fedupandskint

graemecarter wrote: »

If you feel so good being AF, then why drink at all?
So many people are so positive when not drinking, and miserable when they are drinking. That tells me something.....

Remember alcohol is cunning, baffling and powerful.
It creeps up when our backs our turned

That is very true and sums up exactly how I feel

I will stay strong and avoid one work do and go to the other and drive and leave early

fedupandskint

AF tonight starting off with a big fat 1

DecemberBaby_2

Well done FH. I can't advise on how to get past the bells as I'm not good at it myself but I hope you find something good to watch and its not too long until bed time so only a short time to go and you will have made it

You'll be so pleased in the morning

fedupandskint

Just remembered something else

I feel real now I am AF - this is who I am and this is my personality and I like it

Now will remember this as I really felt it after a few AF weeks this time and I guess I don't miss alcohol at all and I don't feel I am missing out on anything and only considered drinking on a work do because everyone else would be and would slip into the old comfy night out drinking coat again as its cunningness wrapped me up again

Feel better about it all now - thanks GC for the reminder

Marru

DecemberBaby wrote: »

Marru You're doing so well. If only I could look forward to sparkly AF stuff like you do!

Thanks DB but it didn't happen over night. Here is my first post to this thread on 29/8/2009:

"Hello all,

I have quarter of litre sherry in the cupboard and I shall drink it tonight while catching up with this thread. I just promised BF that I won't buy any more so I could use all the help available. All soppy details I am sure will follow...

Marru"

Over time it has been getting easier and easier and then due to the increased energy I have been able to fill my life with other things that give me more pleasure than drinking and hence the positive circle kicks off.

Still haven't had that sparkling AF thing as I fancy having a cup of tea first. Off to put the kettle on...

SimIsOnTheUp

DEBTMONKEY1A wrote: »

Sim mate...1'm a 44 year old guy with no house/job/career/savings/pension....saving grace is i do have a lovely G/F & we rent a great house!

I've done all manner of daft things (not all drink related but sure it played a part!)...

Don't beat yourself up...its only a liquid (best way i look at it!)....you're doing voluntary work & do recognise you've an issue with the old booze...I once 5 years ago (during a real down patch!) raided the penny jar just for ONE bootle of white lightening cider (!)

Keep smiling!

Hi DM1A,

Hope you're having a relaxing evening.

Thanks for your words.

I'm starting to feel a little better, having made a start on tidying up my flat.

You're spot on regarding the beating myself up. I've heard many people tell me, over the years, that I do this way too much.

Booze is also 'only a liquid'.

However, it will kill me, if I don't stop, and the sensations I've been getting in my head this last weekend (sort of an out of body experience - scary as f_ck) as well as the ridiculous amount of money wasted / phone sold, blackouts, and inability to even remember 99% of 3 days.. Well, things will get worse, if I carry on.

I've worked with some of the guys at the homeless charity, who've lost everything, due to booze, bad luck, drugs, or all three, and it's very humbling. Worryingly, last week, not even that stopped me getting so hammered, I could only vaguely remember getting to the hotel room.

I would dearly love a family one day, as well as genuine friends (who don't just call when they want to get pished!) and that isn't going to happen if I keep this madness up.

The fog is starting to clear, after lots of rest today, thankfully. The regret and self - loathing may take a while to shake off.

Watching the ever - cool Idris Elba in 'Luther' should be good trashy fun tonight, and always cheers me up. Such a great Actor

Cheers - Sim.

ForeverHopeful_3

penelopedee wrote: »

Well done FH, luckily I don't pass my normal shop on the way back from work or I would really struggle.

Sadly to say, the ironing mountain always helps me out when the bells ring!

This isa VERY unusual occurance in my house. There is no ironing :eek:

I'm away to watch Miss Potter. Hopefully it will grab my attention until 10pm. I can then say it's bedtime

Marru

Sim: Have a look at my signature, what small difference can you do today so that your tomorrow is not same as your yesterday. It is pointless worrying about yesterday as doing that you are just repeating it and tomorrow will be no different. Look who is talking but that is why I put it into my signature to remind myself.

yellowmonkey

Not AF tonight but tomorrows another day

Need to grow some b0llocks and sort this out


Chin up and onwards